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Wednesday, October 14, 2009
i'm soooo tired hating you
but i don't wanna love you anymore... and for the last time before i
get fully numb, i just wanna let you know that if not for you i would
never have known love at all... so thank you for being the person who
taught me to love... and to be love...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:29 am
soul searcher here...
**EMO mode ON**
Friday, January 23, 2009
sana pwede kahit "pause" lang!!!
lutang ang isip ko... sa araw araw na lang pag-gising ko hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang gusto ko!! nakakapagod pero ayoko naman magpahinga.. dahil pag nagpahinga ako mag-iisip na naman ako.. ang labo pero yun ang nararamdaman ko.. gusto ko lumayo, gusto ko mag-isa.. pero san naman ako pupunta???
dahil hindi pwede ang "stop"... sana pwedeng kahit "pause" lang muna... at pag okei na ang lahat, pag feeling ko ok na ako... pag hindi na pagod ang isip ko...
saka ko na lang ulit "play" ang buhay ko!!!
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:00 pm
soul searcher here...
sana pwede kahit "pause" lang!!!
Thursday, January 08, 2009
tonight i will write the saddest lines..
tonight i will write the saddest lines..
for tonight i will stop thinking of you and stop hoping to see you in my dreams.. for tonight i will convince myself that there could never really be an "us" again.. for tonight i will wish upon the stars not to see you nor have contact with you anymore.. for tonight i have to accept the fact that memories good or bad are just memories and nothing more than that.. for tonight i will face the true meaning of letting go and moving on..
'coz for tonight i will say goodbye to you.. to our friendship.. and to all the things that keeps me from believing that "we" deserve a second chance..
God knows how much i loved you.. how much i cared for you and how much i wanted to be with you again..
i will shed my last tears for you tonight hoping that it could washed away everything that keeps me from feeling this way..
can't count how many times i've said goodbye to you.. but tonight, my goodbye isn't because i wanted to go away..
but to look forward and learn to appreciate everything that i have taken for granted for the past years just because i was too blinded of my love for you..
just for tonight, i won't pretend that i'm OK and that i'm not hurting..
but i'll make sure that tomorrow, i will be able to write something far from what i have written tonight..
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:03 pm
soul searcher here...
tonight i will write the saddest lines..
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
12m53w365d8760h525600m31536000s of my 2008
ilang araw ko nang ginagawa ang year-end entry for 2008 ko pero hindi ko matapos tapos dahil blanko talaga ang utak ko... so instead of pasakitin ko pa ang ulo ko sa pag-iisip ng kung ano ang pwede ko masulat para balikan at ikwento ang 12mos, 53weeks, 365 days, 8760hours, 525600minutes, 31536000seconds of my 2008... i'll just sum it up with the 30+ places i've been and 100's of new/old faces and friends i've met along the way...          
Finally tapos na!!!
...sa mga sumusunod abet , clark, cher, dennis, dominic, donie, joyce, lanie, marlon, mic, mike, mon, oros, packy, pauldee, rofil, roy, sarah, sheldon, tapz, tin maraming salamat sa magagandang larawan... ...at sa lahat ng nakasama ko, sa lahat ng mga mukha na andito...
maraming maraming salamat...at sana ngayong 2009 mas marami pa tayong lugar na mapuntahan... :)
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 05:57 pm
soul searcher here...
12m53w365d8760h525600m31536000s of my 2008
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
hindi ako naniniwala sa Horoscope pero
sabi nga nila kung positive naman ang lahat ng nakasulat bakit hindi eh
wala naman mawawala tutal ako pa din naman ang may control sa kung ano
ang gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko pero syempre sa tulong pa din NYA
:)
natuwa lang ako nung nabasa ko na ang mga isinilang sa taon ng
unggoy ay ma swerte ngayon taon ng baka...
basahin nyo
na lang ng mas maintindihan nyo...
:)
Monkey people didn't have any significant performance in
2008, the Year of the Rat. They felt that someone or something blocked
their luck all the time. In the year of 2009, there are many
Lucky
Stars coming to
Monkey people. So they have complete new luck and they can expect good
news from career, money, reputation, love or happiness area. However,
some tiny Unlucky Stars hiding beside the Lucky Stars in 2009. That means Monkey people shouldn't show too
complacent and too conceited, because their enemies are still around.
If Monkey people make any mistake, then they might lose their
reputation, power or wealth.
Career:
There are
three major Lucky Career Stars appearing in 2009. Those signs indicate you will have an
extraordinary and outstanding achievement in your job performance or
business development. It's time that you show people about your talent,
wisdom, skill. Many people will accept your idea and proposal. Your
plan or project will show significant progress and impressive results.
You have good chance to gain more responsibilities, own higher power
and even win a job promotion. When you have better performance or hold
a higher position, then many people become jealous to you. Someone
might try to look for your shortcoming or mistake in order to impede
your working progress and to damage your reputation. Fortunately, since
your keen perception and quick response, you are able to a plan to
protect yourself. Also, your supporters will help your to remove the
hamper. Money: There is a
Lucky Money Star showing in this year. Since you
have a good career luck, your salary fixed income will be satisfactory.
If you work for someone, you might earn an extra bonus. If you own your
business, then the company sales will have a significant growth.
However, the Money Star is not a Windfall Star. The money won't come
from gambling, heritage, gift or lottery. It's required your
hardworking and time to earn all your income. Another sign show that
you have a chance to lose your personal property and no way to recover
it. Or an unexpected accident causes your money loss. Therefore, it's
safer that do show off your wealth in 2009.
Love: One very Auspicious Star and a
Happy Star are gathering in love area. That is the
sign of success, happiness, joyfulness, smooth or marriage. If you are
single, then you have opportunity to find your dream companion and
enjoy the happy love life. If you are already in love, the relationship
with your lover will become much closer. If both of you are ready, then
you can consider the marriage. If you are married, you and your spouse
have a endless love. A new born baby might come into your family.
However, if you are a male Monkey guy, you have the chance to meet
opposite sex outside. If you don't give in to temptation, you will get
lots of argument with your spouse. Health:
Although you have many Lucky Stars
coming in your astrological cycle. There also are some Unlucky
Stars around you this year. This brings up the health issue.
The career will make you busy in 2009. You will feel tired very often.
If you have too much nightlife and too less exercise, then you will get
sick easily. As long as understanding the health might become the
problem, then you should limit unnecessary social life, keep healthy
eating habit, maintain good sleeping quality and exercise routinely,
then you will have a healthy life in the year of
Cow. Fortune: Monkey people have excellent career
luck in 2009. They will work very skillfully and proficiently on their
daily job. Their wealth will increase because of good job performance.
However, there still is a potential unlucky event coming. Monkey people
still need to pay attention on words and deeds. If you can spend more
time in helping others, then you will win the good reputation, which
could bring you more money in. The feeling of wealth, power, happiness
and satisfaction will all come to you. source: http://www.chinesefortunecalendar.com/2009/2009Monkey.htm
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:52 pm
soul searcher here...
A + 2009
Monday, January 05, 2009
iba talaga pag girl scout :)
qoute for the day: dapat laging handanag camping kami ng kapatid ko sa loob ng bahay!!! hehehehindi kasi namin alam kung bakit bigla na lang sumisingaw ang gas stove.. humingi na kami ng tulog sa landlord namin pero sa kadahilanang hindi rin nya alam kung ano ang dahilan at pare-pareho kaming natatakot na sindihan ito... ayun at nagamit ko ulit ang gas stove ko na halos matagal tagal ding nakatago... buti na lang at may natira pa pala akong butane nung huling akyat ko kung hindi pareho kaming magugutom ng kapatid ko... hehehe  p.s. ngayon ok na sya... pina-check na namin sa bilihan ng gasul sa tapat namin at regulator lang pala ang problema... :)
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:29 pm
soul searcher here...
iba talaga pag girl scout :)
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Somewhere between the *procrastination* and the incessant forwards and the friendships and the calls/txt messages to each other complaining about
Boyfriends/Girlfriends and even X's!! Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends and the "I miss you's", the "I love you's" and the "What are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere between all of the changing and growing... somewhere between all TRIPS, InuMAN and GiMIks
...And the PRETENDING that we're Happy SomeTiMEs Somewhere between all the appointments, Making plans then breaking plans... Appearing, Disappearing, then reappearing...
I forgot--I forgot what it was like to cry. I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy... And that pretending to be SmArT doesn't make you smart .. I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the FUTURE... I forgot that you can't control falling in LoVe.. And that you can't make yourself fall in *LoVe* .... I learned that I can LOVE... I learned that it's okay to MEsS UP.... And it's okay to ask for HELP.. And it's okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to cOmPLaiN and wHINe to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want most, you just can't have and the things that you look for are right in front of you. I learned that the greatest thing about LIFE and the working world it isn't about the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the Hookups...
It's the *FrIeNdShIpS* which means taking chances... I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about... I learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things... I learned that just when you think it can't get worse - it does! ... but with the love and support of friends - you survive... I've learned that when you start feeling BaD about L O S I N G touch and about those that you've lost! They too, are feeling the same way.... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better! But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both old and new..... are the most important people to me in the world AND....... without them, I wouldn't be who I am today... So this is a THANK YOU to all of my friends...
For a year full of Joy, Laughters and HOPE... and most especially ...
For always being there...
See you all in 2009!!!
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:24 am
soul searcher here...
Thank You... My Friends
Thursday, October 23, 2008
when i heard this song written by Yeng and included in her new album Journey... i can so relate to it... promise
Promise Music and Words by: Yeng Constantino Arranged by: Noel Mendez since this is what you wanted then i'll just walk away you'll have your time to think of all the things and what you need while i'm gone and away is this really what you wanted then i will let you go i'll be keeping all my fears though i'm drowning in my tears with a thought of a life without you but if someday you'll need a friend i promise i won't let you down i'll be there for you right there beside you i promise is this really what you needed then i will say goodbye all the memories that we've shared will be running in my head i'll be thinking about you just thinking about you but if someday you'll need a friend i promise i won't let you down i'll be there for you right there beside you i promise cause if one day thing's don't feel so right i am someone you can call if you feel you've no one to turn to i'm here 'cause if this is what you needed i won't let you see me cry and all my sleepless nights i'll be waiting for your call i'll be dreaming about you just dreaming about you but if someday you'll need a friend i promise i won't let you down i'll be there for you right there beside you i promise...
want to listen??? click here
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 09:11 pm
soul searcher here...
...promise...
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
the worst thing that could happen while you were sleeping...
it's when all you want is PEACE of MIND...
then suddenly you had a dream... but the dream is about...
the person who always makes you cry!!!
damn... hindi na ba ako pwede matulog ng masarap
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:46 am
soul searcher here...
the worst thing that could happen while you were sleeping...
.:: blooming daw ako... bakit nga kaya??? ::.
dis past few days iisang comment lang ang naririnig ko sa mga friends ko...
"jhen, blooming ka!!!"
hehehe, syempre palakpak naman ang tenga ng lola nyo at hindi matanggal ang ngiti sa mukha... kaya lang may kasunod ang comment na tanong...
"in-love ka ba???"
hmmm... pag in-love lang ba kailangan maging blooming??? kung "OO" ang sagot dyan, eh di para na din nating sinabi na pag hindi tayo in-love hindi tayo maganda... hehehe tama ba ako???
tsaka lalaki lang ba ang dahilan kung bakit kailangan kong maging blooming??? well, for me the answer is a big "NO"...
pero bakit nga ba "blooming" daw ako??? actually hindi ko naman napapansin na may "changes" sakin eh... sila lang ang nakakapansin nun... cguro nakikita lang nila ako na palaging naka-smile na para bang walang problema... pero kung alam lang nila ang lahat ng asa isip ko ngayon baka magulat sila... magaling lang talaga siguro ako magdala... hehehe 
pero tulad ng walag katapusang problema... hindi din naman kasi natatapos ang "realization" na pwedeng makatulong para mas maging maganda ang takbo ng buhay d ba??? and i guess it's one of the reasons why "blooming" ako... hehehe
i've realized that there are so many reasons for me to feel good for myself... enough of self-pity kasi wala naman magandang nagawa sakin yun eh... ako lang din ang nahihirapan... cguro nga tama na yung "katangahan" na pinairal ko... but don't get me wrong, i still have no regrets in everything that happens... hehehe
so many reasons for me to be happy and live this life the best way i could... and the thought that i have so many friends (maybe not all of them are true...) but still they're all my friends who somehow makes a big difference in my life... mga friends na hindi lang tanggap kung ano ang kaya ko gawin at kaya ko ibigay kundi pati ang "katangahan" ko tanggap nila at palaging andyan para sakin... (kilala nyo na kung sino kayo...) 
and the kind of family that i have... na kahit na ilang beses pa ako bigyan ng pagkakaton na pumili ng family sa buhay ko... sila pa din ang pipiliin ko... hindi ko man palaging napapakita sa kanila how important they are to me... but only HE knows how much i love and value them...
i may not be FULLY SATISFIED with what i have now... i may not be FULLY HAPPY in everything that's happening to me now...
but i know that i should be THANKFUL... no matter what 'coz i know that somehow i belong to this "PEOPLE" who loves me and only wants the BEST for me...
and it's true that...
"HAPPINESS is not being with SOMEONE... it's belonging to SOMEONE..."
--mga friends ko out there... nasagot ko ba ang tanong kung bakit blooming ako ngayon???
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:21 am
soul searcher here...
.:: blooming daw ako... bakit nga kaya??? ::.
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