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Saturday, February 12, 2005
what am i doing here... don't wanna go home yet so i decided to spend this night here at the front of the computer thinking of anything to write at this very moment...
haaaayyyyy, what a life...
hanggang kelan ba ako magiging ganito???
ilang gabi pa ba ako magpupuyat just to make myself busy para lang wala akong "idle time"???
ginagawa ko naman ang lahat para maging masaya kasi di ba sabi nga "happiness is merely a choice" pero bakit kahit ano ang gawin ko... i still feel this emptiness in me!!!
haaaaaaaaayyyyy, yun lang kasi wala na akong maisip pa...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:33 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: what a life??? ::.
Friday, February 11, 2005
.:: wanting what we can't have ::.
It is often hard to forget someone we love because, deep inside, it's the last thing that we want to do. It's easy to say its all over but its always difficult to let go of something/someone precious to us. When someone becomes a part of us that person gets a little piece of our heart. When he's gone, he leaves a void in our life that is never easy to fill. That is the reason it's always painful to let go of our feelings for someone special. If we want to move on then we have to leave the past behind. Thinking that he can never be ours again. We simply have to accept the fact that he is now happy with his life and we should also be happy for him. If we keep hoping for things that could have been then we will forever be a prisoner of our own dreams.
We will never find true happiness because we are detached from reality. Love is a game. Sometimes we miss and get hurt but that doesn't have to keep us from taking a chance again. Never get tired of trying because sometimes, in this game, the real winners are not those who get what they want but those who know how to give up what they want and those who know when to stop wanting them.
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:43 am
soul searcher here...
.:: wanting what we can't have ::.
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
"i don't deserve u" or "u don't deserve me"
what does this really mean???
actually marami yan pwedeng maging meaning...
"a LAME EXCUSE"
"a BREAK-UP line"
"a way of saying GOODBYE"
"a feeling of being INTIMIDATED"
"a feeling of INSECURITY"
"and maybe it's a real FEELING"
well, kahit na ano pa ang meaning na ibigay natin... the bottomline will now turn into this another question:
"WHO/WHAT did i really deserve?"
deserve ko ba ang nararamdaman ko ngayon?
deserve ko ba ang nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon?
deserve ko ba ang lahat ng pinagdadaanan ko ngayon?
deserve ko ba ang mga taong nakakasama ko ngayon?
i'm not bitter pero minsan hindi talaga maalis sakin ang mag-isip kung bakit parang napaka-unfair ng buhay... in my case, i always i ask myself these questions:
"what's wrong with me?"
"where did i go wrong"
"is this bcoz i love too much?"
"or is it bcoz i love a little?"
i never thought na pagdadaanan ko lahat nag bagay na ito... akala ko okei na ako... akala ko masaya na ako... akala ko kumpleto na ang buhay ko...
pero sabi nga nila hindi lahat ng "akala" natin eh tama pala... haaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy
"bad" ba ako kung sasabihin ko na ayokong makitang "masaya" ang mga taong walang alam gawin kundi ang magdulot ng "pain" sa ibang tao... minsan sinasabi ko sa sarili ko... "they don't deserve any kind of happiness in the world"
o di ba unfair ang buhay??? bakit kung sino pa yung mga taong nananakit... sila pa ang nagiging masaya??? dahil ba nagagawa nila ang gusto nila kahit na alam nila na may nasasaktan sila???
pero minsan sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko... hindi naman ako masasaktan kung hindi ko rin sila hinahayaan na saktan ako eh... kaya at the end of the day, choice ko pa rin kung bakit ganito ako ngayon...
ang labo ko noh... kaya pasensya na ha...
isa lang naman ang gusto ko eh... ang maging "MASAYA"
kasi pare-pareho lang naman tayong lahat di ba?
"WE DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!!!"
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:57 am
soul searcher here...
"i don't deserve u" or "u don't deserve me"
Monday, February 07, 2005
Everybody Knows:
I can't be all things to all people.
I can't do all things at once.
I can't do all things equally well.
I can't do all things better than everyone else.
My humanity is showing just like everyone else's.
So:
I have to find out who am I, and be that.
I have to decide what comes first, and do that.
I have to discover my strengths, and use them.
I have to learn not to compete with others,
Because no one else is in the contest of *being meeh*.
Then:
I will learn to accept my own uniqueness.
I will learn to set my priorities and make decisions.
I will learn to live with my limitations.
I will learn to give myself the respect that is due.
And to be the most vital mortal.
Dare To Believe:
That I am a wonderful, unique person.
That I am a once-in-all-history event.
That it's more than a right, it's my duty, to be who am I.
That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish.
And that i'll be able to stay up on what used to get me down.
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:52 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: dare to believe ::.
.:: do u? well, i do! ::.
Do you ever recall the first day we met?Our first hello? The day we became friends? Well, I do and will always remember, for that very day I knew...
I'd cherish you!!!
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:05 am
soul searcher here...
.:: do u? well, i do! ::.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
.:: story of the two teardrops ::.
Two little teardrops were floating down the river of life. One drop said to the other, "I am the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him." Who are you? "Well, I am the teardrop of the girl who won him."
Love is very strange.
Love is unconditional commitment to an imperfect individual. You need it but when you love, it's like destining yourself for pain. You become addicted and dependent on the person. You become strong and at the same time, you open yourself up to being hurt.
Love can make you bear any kind of pain and any kind of sacrifice. It can also make you feel stupid and act stupidly. Sometimes when you love and end up giving so much of yourself, subconciously you only discover how much you've given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye.
Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person. It goes away when he leaves and you are left with a sickening, empty feeling inside.
Tears are bound to shed from your eyes no matter how you force yourself to keep them in. Most teardrops ever shed on this earth have been for love or lack of it. When tears dry, a silent loss sticks to your heart for a long, long time.
Well, that's what you get for caring so much about someone.
But how can you regret it?
To give yourself freely and lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do.
Loving makes you real. Loving also makes you cry.
And that is why a teardrop is also BEAUTIFUL.
-Author Unknown
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 05:21 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: story of the two teardrops ::.
Monday, January 31, 2005
  
...a SUNSET for today means another rising sun tomorrow...
~dis are some of sunset pics i captured while in the summit of Mt. Daguldol
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:33 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: SUNSET ::.
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
.:: a poem made especially for me ::.
'coz u didn't appreciate me
I loved u so much yet,
You took all that u cud get.
U robbed my heart and gave me pain,
out of ur heart and into the rain.
I gave you my evrything and u threw it away.
I gave you my heart and u tore it all the way.
I was ready to give you my whole life,
but u threw it down the pipes.
I cant believe u didn't love me at all...
In the first place, y did u make me fall?
I loved u, baby, cant u see?
Why didn't u appreciate me?
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:40 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: a poem made especially for me ::.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Oh, the comfort --
the inexpressible comfort of feeling
safe with a person,
Having neither to weigh thoughts,
Nor measure words --
but pouring them
All right out -- just as they are --
Chaff and grain together --
Certain that a faithful hand will
Take and sift them --
Keep what is worth keeping --
And with a breath of kindness
Blow the rest away...
-Dinah Maria Mulock Craik
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:30 am
soul searcher here...
.:: FriEndShiP ::.
Friday, January 14, 2005
.:: The GREATEST ADVICE ::.
Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior. Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.
Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder. Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals. Don't stagnate.!
Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back. Don't put
your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right. Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won.
Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be. Simplify your life. Take away the clutter. Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons. Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family. Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.
Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you. You light up your life. You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you except YOU.
It is true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in your God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!
When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time. Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.
-the first email i've read this morning... and it's really something nice to share to you guys out there...
Have a nice day and an enjoyable weekend...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 08:20 am
soul searcher here...
.:: The GREATEST ADVICE ::.
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