Now i'm asking myself, how could I waste a time of my life with someone like him who doesn't want me anymore? Some of you may think that i am sourgraping, or other phrases that you may think is appropriate on what i did... But i think i need a more credit than that... As a friend, i never gave up on him 'coz i promised it to him but i guess for him promises is just a joke...

The lousy attitude i saw from him last night somehow liberated me from too much pain and suffering. What i sadly realized is that it's already one whole year of getting "gaga" over him...

I even asked my friend last night to slap me too hard for me to wake up from this nightmare i had for over a year...
And now that im already awake from that nightmare... this is all i can say...

You don't deserve me... my love, my friendship... my everything...

If i can live my life again without any traces of you... I will...

Maybe as some of my friends always say... "Jhen, u're being stupid"
I guess they're right...

I am stupid...
For making you part of my life...

It is often hard to forget someone we love because, deep inside, it's the last thing that we want to do. It's easy to say its all over but its always difficult to let go of something/someone precious to us. When someone becomes a part of us that person gets a little piece of our heart. When he's gone, he leaves a void in our life that is never easy to fill. That is the reason it's always painful to let go of our feelings for someone special. If we want to move on then we have to leave the past behind. Thinking that he can never be ours again. We simply have to accept the fact that he is now happy with his life and we should also be happy for him. If we keep hoping for things that could have been then we will forever be a prisoner of our own dreams.
We will never find true happiness because we are detached from reality. Love is a game. Sometimes we miss and get hurt but that doesn't have to keep us from taking a chance again. Never get tired of trying because sometimes, in this game, the real winners are not those who get what they want but those who know how to give up what they want and those who know when to stop wanting them.

Everybody Knows:

I can't be all things to all people.
I can't do all things at once.
I can't do all things equally well.
I can't do all things better than everyone else.
My humanity is showing just like everyone else's.

So:

I have to find out who am I, and be that.
I have to decide what comes first, and do that.
I have to discover my strengths, and use them.
I have to learn not to compete with others,
Because no one else is in the contest of *being meeh*.

Then:

I will learn to accept my own uniqueness.
I will learn to set my priorities and make decisions.
I will learn to live with my limitations.
I will learn to give myself the respect that is due.
And to be the most vital mortal.

Dare To Believe:

That I am a wonderful, unique person.
That I am a once-in-all-history event.
That it's more than a right, it's my duty, to be who am I.
That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish.
And that i'll be able to stay up on what used to get me down.

Do you ever recall the first day we met?Our first hello? The day we became friends? Well, I do and will always remember, for that very day I knew...
I'd cherish you!!!