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as what i've always said: "i'm UNIQUE and ONE of a KIND"...
i know there something in me... that inspite of whatever may happen in my day, i'm going to stay this way: trying and giving LIFE in the BEST WAY i know how...
keeping my spirits up and all things in perspective...
i know it's going to be OKAY...
i've made it thru difficult things before and i always land on my feet... i may not be dancing; may not be always sure about what to do next... but i always manage to figure things out... especially when i'm able to keep my SENSE of HUMOR and not lose my SMILE...
and if i'll just really think about it... i'll realize that i'm a very STRONG individual who knows what i wants and how to get it the best way i can...
someone who may not have all the answers but who is willing to HOPE, TRY and BELIEVE...
that i can see my way thru just about anything; it just all depends on how i look at it... and when people look at me, all they will see is someone who really is...
PRETTY AMAZING...
Whether i'm trying to endure or striving to endeavor, i'll just be the kind of person who can handle all kinds of WEATHER...



...SOMEONE whose ARMS will HOLD me when i'm WEAK
...SOMEONE whose EYES will SEE my UGLIEST
...SOMEOME whose HEART will LOVE me at my WORST
...coz when i find that SOMEONE, i know it's TRUE LOVE!

...SOMEONE who could DANCE with ME under the NIGHT SKY even without the MOON and the STARS... even without MUSIC playing... even if that SOMEONE can't dance well... but still dance with ME...



.:: Bcoz of Ur Love ::.
how can I see Your face
and receive Your loving grace
when I am here shamed in sin
hurting You deep within

yet everytime I run and flee
You take me home forgiving me
with the skies I feel Your touch
no other love can be this much

You are there as I hide
with Your arms open wide

for You alone have the greatest love
the world has ever known
a love that never ceases to embrace a weary heart
and give a brand new start
provides light where the sun has never shown
now I can understand
that I am here because of Your love

so I take Your gentle hand
only to sin again
and yet You turn then stubbornly
you take me home, forgiving me

how can love as great as this
even want to exist
oh God of all that's good and true
please believe I love You too

though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more

that I am here because...
you are there as I hide with Your arms open wide
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more nothing more

as You take me by the hand
that I am here because of Your love




This is meeh...
My name is...
My kiss is...erotic
My hugs are...warm
My eyes...twinkle in the moonlight
My touch is...heart warming
My smell is...amazing
My smile is...encouraging
My love is...one of a kind
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
.:: what we have to learn in LIFE ::.

...that no matter how much we care, some people just don't care back.
...that no matter how good a person is, they're going to hurt us every once in a while, and we must forgive them for that.
...that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
...that talking can ease emotional pains.
...that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
...that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
...that we can do something in an instant that will give us a heartache for life.
...that it's not what we have in our life, but who we have in our life.
...that good friends are family members that we are allowed to choose.
...that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
...that the people we care most about in life are taken from us too soon.
...that we should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time we see them.
...that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for ourselves.
...that we shouldn't compare ourself to the best others can do, but to the best we can do to others.
...that it's not where we are that is important. It's where we are going.
...that no matter how thin we slice it, there are always two sides.
...that it takes a long time to become the person we want to be.
...that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.
...that we can keep going long after we think we cannot.
...that either we control our attitude, or it controls us.
...that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
...that patience takes a lot of practice.
...that there are people who love us dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
...that your best friend and you can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
...that sometimes the people we expect to kick us when we're down will be the ones to help us to get back up.
...that there is more of our parents in us that we thought.
...that sometimes when we're angry we have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give us the right to be cruel.
...that just because someone doesn't love us the way we want him/her to doesn't mean /he doesn't love us with all s/he has.
...that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences we've had and 
what we've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays we've celebrated.
...that we should never tell a child his/her dreams are unlikely or outlandish. 
Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if s/he believed it.
...that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by someone else. Sometimes we have to learn to forgive ourself.
...that no matter how bad our heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for our grief.
The last one is quite profound, isn't it?

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 09:30 am
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
.:: Reasons why Women find it hard to find d Man of der Dreams ::.

it's already 9:32PM in my computer clock...
reading some of my mails in yah00 and checking my Fri3ndster at the same time since i can't do this now in the office...
one of my friend send this one & just wanna share to all LADIES out there who needs LAUGH and to the GUYS who think they can handle it...
--ooooooooo--

The nice men are ugly.
The handsome men are not nice.

The handsome and nice men are gay.
The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.
The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
The handsome men without money are after our money.
The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.
The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.
The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST  MOVE!!!!
The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest  in us when we take the initiative.

NOW, WHO THE HELL UNDERSTANDS MEN?

"Men are like a fine wine. They all start out like grapes, and it's our job to stomp on them and keep them in the dark until they mature into something you'd like to have dinner with."



SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 09:40 pm
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.:: moody day ::.

just got here sa office and kanina pa lang on my way here iniisip ko na kung ano na naman gagawin ko para palipasin ang oras...haaaaaayyyyyy...

okei na sana ang araw ko kahit almost 3hours lang ang tulog ko... nag marathon ako ng 2 issue ng FHM para lang dalawin ng antok kaya past 2:00 na ata ako nakatulog tapos gising ng 5:30am kasi nag-train me ng rowing...

sabi ko nga ok na sana ang araw ko kasi kahit papano may accomplishment ako kasi nagising ako ng maaga to attend the training pero ewan ko ba parang nagsisi lang ako kung bakit nag-attend pa ako nun...
naiinis kasi ako dun sa isang team mate ko... naturingan pa naman na lalaki pero daig pa si Boy Abunda sa pagiging madaldal at ang nakakainis pa may halong kayabangan... actually, i consider him as one of my friend sa team kasi kahit papano naging takbuhan at hingahan ko sya ng sama ng loob at ginagawa kong tambayan ang bahay nya pag minsang wala akong mapuntahan...


ewan ko ba kung ano ang problema nun at pati ang pagiging mataray ko eh napagdiskitahan eh sanay na naman sya na mataray ako... nakilala nya ako na sa lahat ng bagay may katwiran lalo na pag alam kong tama ako... pero tama ba namang sabihin sakin na ang taray taray ko daw pero wala naman akong nagawa kundi umiyak pagdating sa "ex" ko... put*** naman... eh hindi nga nya alam ang pinagdaanan ko... letche sya... ayoko na lang sya patulan kanina kasi pag ginawa ko yun lalo lang sya hindi titigil sa kaka-dada... pero nanggigigil talaga ako sa kanya sa inis kaya ewan ko ba naibuhos ko ata sa pagsasagwan ang lahat ng galit ko... parang di ko man lang naramdaman na napagod ako sa training dahil sa inis na nararamdaman ko sa kanya...

parang gusto ko tuloy magsisi kung bakit ko ni-kwento sa kanya ang tungkol sa "ex" ko...

haaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy... bakit kaya may mga taong ganun??? nakakainis talaga...

ayan, at least kahit papano gumaan ang loob ko... kasi hindi ko man nasabi sa kanya personally ang nararamdaman kong inis... naisulat ko naman d2... yan ang advantage ng may blogg... hehehe
break muna ako at papanoorin ko yung E13 & E14 ng Smallville Season 4... hehehe... okei na palipas ng oras...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:30 pm
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
...past 12am na pala...

i have nothing important to write...gusto ko lang mag post...
it's already 12:19am in the computer that i am using right now...

gosh... past 12 na pala, at heto pa din ako sa labas ng bahay... heheeh... what's new...
di ko tuloy napanood ang FULL HOUSE at STAIRWAY to HEAVEN

actually, wala ako balak mag-internet kasi naglaro kami ng badminton ng ma college friends ko... pagdating ko ng haus nalaman ko na and2 pala ang pinsan ko kaya sumunod na din ako... kaya heto ako ngayon... checking my FRI3NDST3R at Yah00mail kasi di ko na magawa sa office yun ngayon eh...

may ka-chat ako right now... kumustahan lang...

sabi ko naman wala ako importante isusulat d2 eh...

ang tagal ko pa nag-isip kung ipo-post ko ito or hindi... sayang naman ang effort ko ng pagta-type kaya cge na nga i-post na din kahit walang kwenta...

uuwi na ako... inaantok na ako eh...


SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:19 am
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Monday, February 28, 2005
... from jhenskie to blue-skies ...

guys, i changed my blogdrive address from
http://jhenskie.blogdrive.com to http://blue-skies.blodgrive.com

instead of deleting my account for some reason i'd rather not mention,  i just came to the idea of changing it's address... buti na lang pwede...

i want a new start...
a new beginning...
a new idea...
a new topic for my blogg...

i have to leave the past behind... but i decided not to delete all the posts that i make for you...
what i've written here is not just for me only to realize something but for those whose into same dillema like mine...

but before i leave everything behind...
i just hope i made a difference...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:02 am
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
.:: friends no more ::.

"What do you want from me? Answer me now..." I asked him.
"Friendship...", he said...

"Don't give me that bull*** okei... tell me right now to my face that S** is all you want from me...", i angrily said.
"No, it's not... it's friendship... wala ako magagawa kung ayaw mo maniwala...", he then replied.

What i did last night was really hard... i never thought na magagawa ko yun... maybe i'm too stupid... my friend even asked me "girl, asan na ang pride mo?" but damn... wala na akong pakialam kung nilamon ko lahat ng pride ko kagabi... basta ang alam ko pagod na ako sa lahat ng sakit na binibigay nya... "OO", nasaktan pa rin ako... pero ngayon at least nasasaktan ako dahil ginusto ko...

I insist that he told her everything... as in everything that happens between the two of us... Honestly, i don't want anything... i never did that to ruined what the he** they have...

I don't know if somebody will understand me or believe me if i say that... what i did is to correct everything which is wrong from the very start... somehow may kasalanan din ako sa lahat ng nagyari... and i just want to correct everything... 

But after last night... after what i did... after i heard from him that he's just doing it bcoz of "satisfaction"... i know from there... he doesn't deserve everything, even my friendship...

After all the pain and suffering that he brought me for almost a year... i am very sure that i am now ready to build the wall between the two of us... Enough of the humiliation i felt each time i tried to reach out to him... enough for the chances that i might still gave to him... Naubusan na ako ng reasons to justify lahat ng ginagawa nya...

Now i'm asking myself, how could I waste a time of my life with someone like him who doesn't want me anymore? Some of you may think that i am sourgraping, or other phrases that you may think is appropriate on what i did... But i think i need a more credit than that... As a friend, i never gave up on him 'coz i promised it to him but i guess for him promises is just a joke...

The lousy attitude i saw from him last night somehow liberated me from too much pain and suffering. What i sadly realized is that it's already one whole year of getting "gaga" over him...

I even asked my friend last night to slap me too hard for me to wake up from this nightmare i had for over a year...
And now that im already awake from that nightmare... this is all i can say...

You don't deserve me... my love, my friendship... my everything...

If i can live my life again without any traces of you... I will...

Maybe as some of my friends always say... "Jhen, u're being stupid"
I guess they're right...

I am stupid...
For making you part of my life...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:46 am
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
.:: anybody out there??? ::.

is it really possible to forget everything... as in everything that happens in the past???
is it possible to forget somebody na sobrang mahal na mahal mo pero alam mo na hindi naman kayang suklian ang pagmamahal na kaya mo ibigay???

lahat n ng justification at iba't ibang klaseng convincing power ginawa ko na sa sarili ko just to lessen the pain pero wala pa ring nangyayari... i'm still in pain...

damn... ayoko na talaga!!!
for how many times na sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na "get over it jhen"... is how many times i kept on asking myself hanggang kelan ko ba talaga mararamdaman ito...

for over a year now, my life is like a rollercoaster ride...

today i'm okei but then tomorrow depressed na naman ako...

what the f***...

i hate this feeling... it seems that this pain is endless...

ewan ko ba... even though my friends kept on telling me to be patient...
na someday... somehow... everything will get better...

i really don't know if it is possible to forget everything...

is there anybody out there who can help me how to end this agony and make everything possible???
please... please... please...

I NEED YOU TO HELP ME!!!




SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 06:11 pm
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005
.:: it's been a year... ::.

Feb. 22, 2004 (Sunday)
he said over the phone...
"tapusin na natin ito... wala na ito patutunguhan..."
"i love you... pero hindi ikaw yung gusto ko makasama for the rest of my life"

Feb. 23, 2004 (Monday)
she gave him a letter begging for another chance...

but then he said...
"we need to grow... but this time... on our own..."
"we have to find ourself..."
"ur not the same person i used to know... u've change a lot..."
"our love became... i love bcoz i need you..."
"u became to much dependent on me... you already lost ur identity..."

she asked him...
"mahal mo pa ba ako?"

he said...
"oo naman, pupunta ba ako d2 kung hindi kita mahal..."

she then reply...
"okei, panghahawakan ko yung sinabi mong yan..."

and he said again...
"ok, panghawakan mo pero wag mo gawing hadlang..."

then he left...

and she cried...

for almost a month she wallowed in self pity... until she finally realized that maybe she really need to let him go...

she did try even though it hurts like h***... she did try to somehow live her life again...

until one day, she found out something... something that she never expected...


...fast forward...

Feb. 22, 2004 (Tuesday)

wheeewwww... it's been a year!!!

and still...

she's still in this agony that no one can ever tell her when will it end...
her friends kept on telling her...

"it's been a year now... you have to move on with your life... kung sa simula pa lang ginawa mo na kung ano ang tama... hindi ka na nagkakaganyan ngayon..."

she don't know what to think...
she don't know till when...
so many times that she told herself that she's giving up 'coz she's tired already...

a year has passed...

and that same old girl...
she's thinking...

her mind say's let go and move on...
but her heart say's hold on and don't give up...

she still do love him...
she wants him to be happy but sometimes she wishes that she was the one who can give him that happiness again...

but still...
there she is...

wishing...
dreaming...
hoping...

maybe not in this lifetime...
but she has faith...
that someday... somehow... he'll be back in her arms again...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 06:53 pm
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
.:: NV&M OPM Klasiks ::.

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 05:33 pm
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005
.:: thinking about all these things ::.

How to Forget About an Ex

There's no way you can find true love with the memories of your ex cluttering your thoughts. The following steps will help you to move on.
 
 
Steps:
1.  Talk to your friends.
 
2.  Get clear with your ex. If there are a lot of unresolved issues involving money, possessions, etc., clear them up.
 
3.  Distract yourself. Movies, sightseeing, outdoor activities, games and a good book are all possibilities.
 
4.  Take up a new hobby or enroll in some classes.
 
5.  Exercise - put your mind on something new, like training for a marathon, improving your tennis game, or working on those abs.
 
6.  Work hard. Work can be a great distraction, especially if you feel like you're accomplishing something.
 
7.  Indulge yourself. Chocolates, massages, facials, shopping sprees - whatever helps make you feel good about yourself.
 
8.  Date other people.
 
 
Tips:
Clean breaks are generally better. Take some time away from your ex, even if you plan to remain friends. Try not to have sex after the breakup.
 
Spend time in places where you might meet interesting people, either online or in person.
 
 
Warnings:
While you're upset, don't do anything you'll regret later.


just surfing the net when suddenly i came up to this article from www.ehow.com ... what does this mean? i don't know either but as what they say... "there's always a reason for everything"...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:06 pm
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