Reflection
(OST-Mulan)

Look at me i will never pass for a perfect bride
or a perfect daughter
Look at me you may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day It's as if I play this part
Now I see that if I were truly to be myself
I would brake my family's heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show who I am inside

Look at me you may think you see
Who I really am but you'll never know me
Every day It's as if I play a part
Now I see If i wear a mask i can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside I am now



In a world where i have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel
Must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show who I am inside

When will my reflection show who I am inside...

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is it really hard to be "YOU"?

so many times i've asked myself:
"Why do i have to be someone else if i can be me?"
"Why did i have to lie to those people around me?"
"Why is it really hard for me to accept this reality of being me?"

my answer is simply...
"because i don't want them to know the real me..."

maybe some people will say that they really knew me...
i maybe friendly and sweet to my friends...
i maybe a responsible daughter to my parents...
i maybe a good sister to my siblings...
i maybe a good follower to the elders and higher rank...

but they don't know me as "ME"...
'coz as of this time "NO ONE" can really tell who the real "ME" is except HIM...

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So you think you Know everything??? Let us see...
Did you know that...

A dime has 118 ridges around the edge.
A cat has 32 muscles in each ear.
A crocodile cannot stick out its tongue.
A dragonfly has a life span of 24 hours.
A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds.
A "jiffy" is an actual unit of time for 1/100th of a second.
A shark is the only fish that can blink with both eyes.
A snail can sleep for three years.
Al Capone's business card said he was a used furniture dealer.
All 50 states are listed across the top of the Lincoln Memorial on the back of the $5 bill.
Almonds are a member of the peach family.
An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
Babies are born without kneecaps. They don't appear until the child reaches 2 to 6 years of age.
Butterflies taste with their feet.
Cats have over one hundred vocal sounds. Dogs only have about 10.
"Dreamt" is the only English word that ends in the letters "mt".
February 1865 is the only month in recorded history not to have a full moon.
In the last 4,000 years, no new animals have been domesticated.
If the population of China walked past you, in single file, the line would never end because of rate of reproduction
If you are an average American, in your whole life, you will spend an average of 6 months waiting at red lights.
It's impossible to sneeze with your eyes open.
Leonardo Da Vinci invented the scissors.
Maine is the only state whose name is just one syllable.
No word in the English language rhymes with month, orange, silver, or purple.
On a Canadian two dollar bill, the flag flying over the Parliament building is an American flag.
Our eyes are always the same size from birth, but our nose and ears never stop growing.
Peanuts are one of the ingredients of dynamite.
Rubber bands last longer when refrigerated.
"Stewardesses" is the longest word typed with only the left hand and "lollipop" with your right.
The average person's left hand does 56% of the typing.
The cruise liner, QE2, moves only six inches for each gallon of diesel that it burns.
The microwave was invented after a researcher walked by a radar tube and a chocolate bar melted in his pocket.
The sentence: "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog" uses every letter of the alphabet.
The winter of 1932 was so cold that Niagara falls froze completely solid
The words 'racecar,' 'kayak' and 'level' are the same whether they are read left to right or right to left (palindromes).
There are 293 ways to make change for a dollar.
There are more chickens than people in the world.
There are only four words in the English language which end in "dous":
tremendous, horrendous, stupendous, and hazardous
There are two words in the English language that have all five vowels in order: "abstemious" and "facetious"
There's no Betty Rubble in the Flintstones Chewables Vitamins.
Tigers have striped skin, not just striped fur.
TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard.
Winston Churchill was born in a ladies' room during a dance.
Women blink nearly twice as much as men.
Your stomach has to produce a new layer of mucus every two weeks; otherwise it will digest itself.

"NOW YOU KNOW!!!"

"sana balang araw masabi mo sa sarili mo "yang si ***... minahal ako ng 22o nyan..."
"kahit maisip o sumagi man lng sa iyo kahit minsan!!!"
"tandaan mo... YOU ARE A TREASURE and no one can say otherwise..."

"aaminin ko syo... malungkot p rin ako!!! d ko sinasabing d ako masaya pero may mga araw na malungkot ako!!! kung bakit... tinatawanan ko n lng ang sarili ko dahil alam ko, kagagawan ko rin nman ito!!! kaya nga ako ang gusto ko maging masaya k... d ko alam kung maniniwala k sa mga pinagsasabi ko d2 kc sa 22o lng... alam ko wala na akong credibilidad syo..."

"balang araw jhen, magiging masaya k... kung andun man ako o wala... panahon lng ang mkkpag sabi!!! sana n lng andun ako kahit n makita lng kita..."

"STAY SAFE!!! KEEP SMILING!!! STAY SWEET!!! KEEP PRAYING!!!(sama mo n din ako) GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND ALL YOUR LAB-D ONES!!!"

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those are his last words after our last conversation...
hindi ko alam totoong nararamdaman ko everytime binabalikan ko yung mga sinabi nya na yan... i know i moved on already...but honestly it's not that easy...sa dami ng pinagdaanan naming dalawa... may it be good or bad, forgetting him is the last thing on my mind... i maybe stupid (would you believe me if i said that i sent him 20messages wishing na sana kahit man lang one 1 of that 20 mabasa nya... well, i did!) but at least i am honest to myself...

but it's also true na lahat ng bagay mahirap simulan pero kung hindi sisimulan walang mangyayari... and that's what i did... i even marked my calendar kung ilang weeks ko kaya na walang marinig na anytime about him... till it came to the point na hindi ko namamalayan na medyo matagal na din pala...

current listening: Secret Garden by Bruce Springsteen (OST-Jerry Maguire)

may kahabaan nga lang pero may katuturan...

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~while browsing my previous emails nakita ko ang article na ito... tulad nyo binasa ko din kahit na malinaw na malinaw na sa title pa lang nakasaad na "bawal basahin ang nakasulat dito!"... pero ano nga ba ang pinahihiwatig ng article na ito... kayo na lang ang bahalang mag-isip at mag husga sa nais ipahiwatig ng sumulat ng article na ito...~

somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there And even though I know how very far apart we are It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky Somewhere out there if love can see us through Then we'll be together somewhere out there Out where dreams come true...

"Somewhere Out There" is my all time favorite song since i was a child...