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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
.:: wala ako maisip na title ::.
here i am again...
thinking... thinking... thinking...
wondrin' what life will bring...
leaving all the paths i took that somehow lead me to what i am right now...
though i know i will never walk through that path again,
i am grateful that i have all the memories and experiences...
sometimes i'm thinking how am i going to move on
if i don't know where to go... what path to take...
but i guess that's what makes my life more exciting...
all the surprises that comes along my way...
i should accept the fact that life has full of crossroads on its way
and it's really hard to choose which way to go...
and for every path i may take whether it is the right one or the wrong...
whether what side of it to take, right, left or straight...
i have to keep in mind that in each and every road i will take...
there will be no turning back...
some road may have signs
that somehow will help me to decide but in the end,
the choice is still with me...
it may not always be the right choice
yet i know that i will be the one responsible for each decision i will make...
one thing i can sure of now is that
whatever road i will choose may it never be smooth nor straight...
may it be full of potholes, curves, uphills and downhills...
i know that it won't be something i cannot handle...
knowing that i am not alone in this journey...
i may not know yet where am i going...
but at least i have the courage and perseverance of getting there...
enjoying this journey of life...
meeting people that will somehow share their own thoughts and experiences...
though sometimes i just can't help thinking that maybe it will be more exciting if there would be "SOMEONE" who will take this journey with me...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:31 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: wala ako maisip na title ::.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
...the place called Boracay...

Boracay, a place of heaven for those who want to escape the city life... it wasn't my first time to be here but i still don't know where and how to begin to describe the feeling of being here...
Ah, yes, Boracay...
As its waves brushed against my face...
enjoying its clear water as clear that i can still see my feet even if the water level is up to my shoulder...
the fine sand that even at noon your feet do not get burned...
Blue skies all year round, pristine soft-powdered white sand that never gets hot in the afternoon sun, cool crystal clear water, and smiles that never end...
that's Boracay...
a place where the night never sleeps...
a place where star gazing is a must coz every star that HE created can be seen at night and with the soft tropical breezes blowing your hair and keeping you cool...
yep, this is paradise!
every morning in Boracay is another new experirnce with more sights as the morning sun slowly changes into the later hour light...
but unlike my first time here...
now i'm satisfied...
i am happy though i don't have that special someone (except my mom whose with me this time)...
One lesson i've learned from the first time i went to Boracay...
Let go when it's time to let go... and you'll feel alright...
but no matter what, there's always the MEMORIES...
and then the SMILES...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 07:32 pm
soul searcher here...
...the place called Boracay...
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
di na naman makatulog ang diwa
habang nakatingin sa apat na sulok ng kisame ng silid
lumulutang ang isip habang nagmumuni-muni
ng mga bagay bagay na hindi maabot ng mga kamay
nalilito at hindi alam kung paano susundan ang agos ng buhay
paikot-ikot habang pinipilit ang diwa
na pansamantalang magpahinga
subalit ito'y lumalaban
na sa pakiwari ko'y may gustong iparating
huminga ng malalim na halos hindi maarok
ng isip kung ano ang nais na ipahiwatig...
mga ilang gabi pa kaya ako magiging ganito?
mga ilang umaga pa kaya ang naghihintay sa akin?
ang tanong sa sarili...
paano kung ang gabing ito na pala
ang huling gabi na masisilayan ko
ang apat na sulok na ito ng aking silid?
pano kung ang gabing ito na pala
ang hudyat na tapos na ang misyon ko?
Handa na ba ako?
muling tanong sa sarili...
Handa na nga ba ako na humarap sa KANYA?
May isasagot kaya ako sa mga itatanong NYA?
Pagod na ang katawan ko...
Gusto ko na magpahinga...
Subalit patuloy pa din ang diwa...
Patuloy sa pag-iisip kung ano ang hatid
ng muling pagsikat ng araw...
At habang unti-unting nagdidilim ang paligid
sa dahan-dahang pagpikit ng mga mata...
Hindi ko alam kung ang sinulat kong ito ay may kabuluhan
Pano ko ba ito tatapusin?
Wala akong maisip na katapusan
Sapagkat sa muling pagsikat ng araw...
Panibagong hamon na naman ng buhay ang naghihintay sa akin...
Kaya kailangan ko na matulog upang bukas
meron akong lakas upang malampasan ko ang lahat...
--sa aking mga masugid na readers... pasensya na kayo kung ang nakasulat dito ay magulo... hindi ko alam kung may kabuluhan... hehehe... wala kasi ako magawa kagabi at habang nagpapaantok naisipan ko isulat ang kung ano ang asa isip ko... sulat lang ng sulat kung ano ang unang pumasok sa isip at hindi ko alam kung magkakatugma ba or may sense...
ayoko naman masayang ang effort ng pag-iisip at pagsusulat ko kaya naisipan ko na i-post na lang...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:29 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: my weary mind ::.
Friday, May 27, 2005

The Scenario: We will call them Boy and Girl, because the pain,
the heartache, the insanity, and the ultimate survival (believe it or
not) ARE universal.
Boy breaks up with Girl. Girl is very sad. Boy is sad that Girl is sad,
but not that sad. Girl contemplates hibernation, the possible move
to another country, pitching a tent outside his house, and calling
his mother to have her intervene. In the mass of this confusion,
somewhere in between the words "It's not you, it's me..." and "I'd
really like to still be friends...," all these options seem
sane to Girl... to Boy... not so much.
The Solution: Girl's life has changed drastically. She has taken on the role of a single female, and though this idea seems frightening at first, with the help of The Breakup Book, Girl will soon be on her way to a new beginning. This book offers the reassurance of an old friend, the consolation of a bowl of chocolate fudge swirl, and the comfort of flannel pajamas, all in one package. From the very first moments of shock to the final stages of acceptance, Girl will experience the advice and guidance needed to get on with her life. And in the end, Girl will find herself single and loving it -- a lone goddess in complete control of her kingdom. She will have no one to thank but Boy for breaking her heart and giving her the chance to put the pieces back together... better than before. -- from the Publisher
i was about to go home last night when i decided to drop by at ATC to buy an AVR for my PC... habang naglalakad ako i saw the booth wherein there are so many books for SALE and since hindi naman ako nagmamadali na makauwi, nagtingin-tingin muna ako sa mga books and then i saw these one nga... it got my attention 'coz i was really curious what's inside of it... though i cannot read even part of it kasi naka-plastic pa sya, hindi ako ng 2nd thought na bilihin sya for only P99.50 (o di ba mura lang?)
while on the bus going home, naisipan ko na basahin na sya and first page pa lang sobrang naka-relate na ako...
Begin with This... There always comes a time of elimination. The earth sheds each year. The trees and flowers let go of their identity... as the old identity dies, a new identity is born. The body sheds constantly. Some of it happen invisibly, so naturally and silently that we do not realize it is happening. The heart and the spirit also shed. The shed the emotions and experiences that we no longer need. they shed the things that stunt our grouwth. This, too, is an invisible process. Yet because of the energy involved , the emotional energy, we often feel the emotional and spiritual shedding. It feels as if we are dying. We are. just like the flowers and the trees, we are dying to an old identity. This sheding or death, is not the end of us. It is the beginning.
-- Iyanla Varzant
first page pa lang ng book interesting na... kung hindi lang talaga nakakahilo magbasa habang nakasakay sa bus... pagdating ko ng dorm, i told my cousin na may nabili nga ako na book... tinawanan lang nya ako sabay tanong... "Kailangan mo pa ba yan?", and i told her "Hindi na, pero mukhang maganda kaya gusto ko basahin..." at hindi nga ako nagkamali...
Here's the Plan. It's time to get your life back in order. Don't try to take things too fast -- the truth is that it's not going to happen overnight. When you wake up tomorrow, your heart is still going to hurt. but the good news is that every day, it's going to hurt a little bit less. As long as you keep moving forward and keep looking toward tomorrow, you're going to make through this.
Don't give in those feelings of helplessness. There are things you can do to help yourself get through this time. Instead of foucsing all your thoughts on him, remind yourself of all the people in your life who care about you. Let them comfort you. But even more importantly, learn to comfort yourself.Don't let yourself believe that you're nothing without him. Think back to all the happy times you had before you ever met him. Those memories are proof that you can be happy on your own.
You're going to get through this. Just keep telling yourself that until you start to believe it.
-- Natalie Evans
though i'm already over in that process... it's really worth reading...
it's true na hindi madali ang lahat... but all we need is TIME...
and on the rate of 1-10, i can say that this book is a perfect 10... especially for those who are having a hard time of Putting the Pieces Back Together...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:41 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: the BOOK ::.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
..: seven wonders of the world ::.
when i receive this email i was hesitant to open it since i've already known the "seven wonders of the world" since elementary but then since i have nothing to do when it pop up in my inbox, i decided to open it and i was amazed when i read it...
maybe some of you will not pay attention to this entry but i want you give even just a glimpse on this one 'coz i'm sure that once you've read what was this all about... you will smile just like what i did...
so here it goes...
-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-
The Seven Wonders of the World
A group of students were asked to list what they thought were the present "Seven Wonders of the World". Though there were some disagreements, the following received the most votes:
1. Egytp's Great Pyramids
2. Taj Mahal
3. Grand Canyon
4. Hanging Garden
5. Empire State Building
6. St. Peter's Basilica
7. China's Great Wall
While gathering the votes, the teacher noted that one student had not finished her paper yet. SO she asked the girl if she was having trouble with her list. The girl replied, "Yes, a little. I couldn't quite make up my mind because there were so many."
The teacher said, "Well, tell us what you have, and maybe we can help."
The girl hesitated then read, "I think the Seven Wonders of the World are:"
1. To See
2. To Hear
3. To Touch
4. To Taste
5. To Feel
6. To Laugh

7. And to Love
The room was so quiet you could have heard a pin drop. The things we overlooked as simple and ordinary and that we take for granted are truly wondrous!
A gentle reminder -- that the most precius things in life cannot be bulit by hand or bought by man...
-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-
...and i hope it does make YOU SMILE!!!
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 06:40 pm
soul searcher here...
..: seven wonders of the world ::.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
here is my 5days old Nokia 3230...
my new baby... hehehe
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Key Features
- 1.2 megapixel camera (1280 x 960 image resolution)
- Customize your muvees with Movie Director
- XHTML browser for browsing
- 65,536-color screen
- Push to Talk with dedicated key
- Expandable memory (32 MB RS MMC card included)
- New multiplayer games over Bluetooth wireless technology
- Instant messaging
- Multimedia messaging
- Customizable color themes
- Listen to music and interact with your favorite radio stations (Visula Radio)
- Tri-band coverage on up to five continents (EGSM900/GSM1800/1900)
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 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 03:02 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: my new baby ::.
Friday, May 20, 2005

the famous tagline of GLOBE GenTxt...
and last night i became one of them... hehehe
i was about to go home when one of my friend texted me that GLOBE GenTxt is giving free tickets for the advance screening of STARWARS 3 - Revenge of the Sith at Greenbelt 3 Cinema 2... at first i don't want to believe him and was hesitant to go there.... but then he insisted that it's true 'coz they already have the ticket...
and to make the story short... instead of going home, i went there to see it for myself.
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it's already 8:30pm when i reach GB3 and syempre ng makita ko na may event nga na on-going sponsored by GLOBE, hanap ko kagad yung booth kung san they're giving free tickets... just have to show them ur GenTxt Card or the text message form GenTxt confirming that ur a registered GenTxter... i thought i was late kasi wlang ng pila ang booth pero i tried pa din and ayun paglapit ko sa booth swerte ko nakaabot pa ako...
and yun nakanood nga ako ng Starwars ng free and it was even my first time to watch a free movie na hindi treat... hehehe...
the movie lasted for almost 2 1/2 hours but it's really worth it... at kahit na umuwi na naman ako ng sobrang late (what's new?) okei lang kasi super sulit naman...
it's the power of technology...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 07:55 pm
soul searcher here...
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005
"Jhen, pano kung ligawan kita?"
tanong sa akin last night (actually it's already past 12am) habang tinatahak namin ang isang street sa may Tayuman... pauwi na kami galing sa bahay ng isang friend namin who got married yesterday. wala na ako balak pumunta since late na ako nakaalis ng office tapos umuulan pa at baha sa may Buendia... i decided na di na lang punta dun so i texted them na malabo na nga ako makapunta since umuulan pa din...
pero ang mga mokong ni-challenge ako...
"isang sakay na lang yan Jhen, mountaineer ka... mag-taxi ka na lang papunta dito...", a text message i receive habang nagpapalit ako ng damit pagdating ko ng dorm... matutulog sana muna ako since hindi pa luto ang dinner si ako naman na-challenge kaya ayun... mabilis nagpalit ng damit and in 15mins or less andun na ako sa Buendia station ng LRT at bumibili ng tiket going to Tayuman.
pagdating ko ng Jollibee-Tayuman, txt ko sila na sunduin na nila ako dun since hindi ko kabisado pagpunta sa bahay. at nagulat ako ng yung 2 friend ko pang girl ang sumundo sakin... mga pasaway talaga ng mga mokong... pagdating ko ayun busy sa pag-iinom... what's new eh buhay na nila ang alak... hehehe...
kwentuhan to the maxx... kanya-kanyang bangka sa kwentuhan kahit pauli-ulit lang naman ang topic sa tuwing nag-iinuman...
akala ko ubusin lang nila yung red horse tapos uuwi na kami.. eh after ng redhorse nagulat na lang ako ng may nakalabas pang Emperador (Long Neck) sa table... at ayun uubusin pa daw nila yun... may magagawa pa ba kami... sa madaling salita stay pa din kami ng matagal dun at napainom pa ako ng hindi oras kasi ayaw nila pumayag na hindi ako shot kahit isa lang... eh di pagbigyan ng wala ng debate...
at excatly 1130(sa relo ko) ng makita ko na wala na laman ang bote ng empe... so i guess uwian na ito... feeling ko nga gusto na talaga magpahinga ng parents ng friend ko kasi masyado kami magugulo... hehehe
ang tagal ng paalaman... parang ayaw pa nila umuwi kaya nagpauna na kami nagpaalam at bumaba ng bahay... siguro mga 15mins pa din kami naghintay sa baba...
okei balik na tayo dito... "Jhen, pano kung ligawan kita?"
tanong sakin habang naglalakad kami... lam ko may inom sya pero hindi lang yun ang unang beses nya ako tinanong ng ganun...
minsan hindi ko alam kung seryoso sya or nagbibiro lang...minsan hindi ko alam kung nagti-trip lang ba sya or gusto lang nya makita ang reaction ko once tanungin nya ako about sa bagay na yun...
tulad ng palagi kong ginagawa "SMILE" lang ang sagot ko... sabay tanong ng "OK K LANG?"
ewan ko kung bakit pero sa loob ng isang taon na nakilala ko sya... hindi naman sya yung tipo ng lalaki na mahirap mahalin... lagi ko nga sinasabi sa kanya na "amazed" ako sa kanya kasi sa lahat ng pinagdaanan nya... nakikita ko na matatag pa din sya!
honestly, kung ia-asses ko ang nararamdaman ko alam ko na kahit papano may "space" sya sa buhay ko... may mga times na minsan gusto ko seryoso kami mag-usap kasi pag seryoso kami nag-uusap may sense lahat... naiinis ako pag inaasar nya ako though alam ko naman na gusto lang nya makuha ang attention ko...
dati constant companion ko sya nung mga panahong hindi pa ako totaly nakaka-recover sa lahat ng pinagdaanan ko... somehow alam nya ang lahat ng sakit na naramdaman ko...
maraming beses na nya ako tinanong kung bakit ko daw kailangan pahirapan ang sarili ko... hindi lang isa or dalawang beses nya ako sinabihan na "bato" daw ako at "manhid"...
hindi na bago sakin ang marinig ang salitang bato at "manhid" dahil cguro nga ganun na ako ngayon... kailangan ko ng maging "bato" para mas maging matatag na ako sa lahat ng pagdadaanan ko pa... at hindi din naman siguro masama ang maging "manhid" ako kung para naman sa sarili ko ang ginagawa ko...
pero minsan hindi ko din maiwasan tanungin ang sarili ko kung hanggang kelan ako magiging "bato" at "manhid"... hanggang kelan ko isasantabi ang tunay na nararamdaman ko dahil lang sa isang nakaraan... hanggang kelan ko itatago at ipipilit sa sarili ko na kaya ko talaga ang mag-isa at hindi ko na kailangang pasukin ulit ang "masalimuot na mundo ng pag-ibig" kung sa araw-araw ng buhay ko alam ko na "may minamahal" ako pero ayoko na maramdaman nya ang pagmamahal ko...
"hindi dahil takot ako na hindi nya suklian ang pagmamahal ko kundi dahil alam ko na pag muli akong nagmahal kaya ko pa ding ibigay ang lahat-lahat at baka wala na naman matira para sa sarili ko..."
mahirap na kasi baka sa ikalawang pagkakataon na sumugal ako wala na talaga matira para sa sarili ko... kawawa naman si "ako"...
kung darating man ang pagkakataon na handa na akong isugal muli ang lahat-lahat siguro naman "karapat-dapat" na talaga "sya"...
"sya" na handa akong mag-invest ng full time at emotions ko...
"sya" na handang mapikon pero tatanggapin ako at ang kakulitan ko...
"sya" na iiyak dahil sa kakatawa sa lahat ng jokes ko...
at higit sa lahat...
"sya" na deserving ng lahat-lahat ng kaya ko ibigay kahit hindi nya matumbasan basta alam ko na na-aapreciate nya...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:18 am
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Monday, May 16, 2005

"What man is a man who doesn't make the world better..."
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:14 pm
soul searcher here...
!?!
STOP COMPARING
by: Bo Sanchez
We live in a pathologically dissatisfied world. And I'm going to tell you why. Because we love to compare. Go around the world and discover that people aren't happy with their bodies.
Filipinos want to be fair-complexioned like Westerners, and so buy bleaching stuff. Westerners want to own bronzed bodies like ours, and so purchase tanning lotions.
Those with moles have them removed, while those who don't strategically implant beauty spots.
Some people want to shed a few pounds to look like Ally McBeal, while others want to gain some baby fat to look like Drew Barrymore.
When are we ever going to stop and simply be happy with how we look? We live in a sick world. I tell you. And that sickness is comparisonitis.
Take a look at wealth. When we drive our old Toyota, it really suits us fine. We feel blessed in fact when the rain pours outside and we feel snug and cozy on its faded upholstered seats.
But the moment we see our own officemate (or neighbor, or buddy, or cousin, or brother) drive his sleek sky-blue, four-door, four-wheel-drive Rav4, we automatically feel like third class children of God. Next time we drive our bumpy, noisy, rusted, dilapidated Toyota (notice how all the defects come out all of a sudden?), we feel deprived, dispossessed, pariah, debased, and only a little higher than the insects of the earth.
Listen carefully. Bill Gates' total assets are worth $60 billion. That's more than the GNP of some small countries. Tiger Woods earns $80 million simply by smiling on TV in a Nike shirt. And the stars of the sitcom Friends are paid $50,000 per episode! My point? No matter how hard you work, there'll still be some people who will be richer than you are.
And there'll be some people who will be more beautiful, have more sex appeal, have more boyfriends/girlfriends, and have more problems.
Try it for once. Stop looking around. Don't compare!
Don't compare her nose with your nose.
Don't compare his wife with your wife.
Don't compare his salary with your salary.
Don't compare her breast size with your breast size.
Don't compare her kid's report card with your kid's report card.
Don't compare his prayer group with your prayer group.
Don't compare her/his cellulite deposits with your cellulite deposits.
Stop comparing and start living and you'll be happier with your life.
This is crucial: The most difficult thing in the world is to be who you are not. Pretending and trying to be someone else is the official pastime of the human race. (I don't think dogs and
cats and cows and horses have this problem).
And the easiest thing in the world is to be yourself. Be happy. Live!
There must be a reason why God made you tall or short or fat or thin or bumpy all over.
Love who you are!
P.S.
...this one was sent to me just this morning and i find it so nice that's why i wanted to share it to all of you guys out there...
Bo Sanchez, a lay minister who writes for the KERYGMA, a Catholic inspirational magazine is one my favorite writer. All his books really made me feel closer to GOD...
Last 2 weeks ago, i attended the Kerygma Feast and for almost 2 1/2 hours mass and listening to the speaker, there are so much that i've learned and that event draw me closer to HIM. It's not my first time to attend a Keryma feast but it's always different and i will look forward for the next month's FEAST...
KERYGMA FEAST
Every 1st Sunday of the Month
8am to 10 am * 10am to 12 pm * 3 to 5pm
Bulwagang Heneral Arturo Enrile, Camp Aguinaldo, Edsa, QC
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:20 am
soul searcher here...
.:: Comparisonitis ::.
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