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as what i've always said: "i'm UNIQUE and ONE of a KIND"...
i know there something in me... that inspite of whatever may happen in my day, i'm going to stay this way: trying and giving LIFE in the BEST WAY i know how...
keeping my spirits up and all things in perspective...
i know it's going to be OKAY...
i've made it thru difficult things before and i always land on my feet... i may not be dancing; may not be always sure about what to do next... but i always manage to figure things out... especially when i'm able to keep my SENSE of HUMOR and not lose my SMILE...
and if i'll just really think about it... i'll realize that i'm a very STRONG individual who knows what i wants and how to get it the best way i can...
someone who may not have all the answers but who is willing to HOPE, TRY and BELIEVE...
that i can see my way thru just about anything; it just all depends on how i look at it... and when people look at me, all they will see is someone who really is...
PRETTY AMAZING...
Whether i'm trying to endure or striving to endeavor, i'll just be the kind of person who can handle all kinds of WEATHER...



...SOMEONE whose ARMS will HOLD me when i'm WEAK
...SOMEONE whose EYES will SEE my UGLIEST
...SOMEOME whose HEART will LOVE me at my WORST
...coz when i find that SOMEONE, i know it's TRUE LOVE!

...SOMEONE who could DANCE with ME under the NIGHT SKY even without the MOON and the STARS... even without MUSIC playing... even if that SOMEONE can't dance well... but still dance with ME...



.:: Bcoz of Ur Love ::.
how can I see Your face
and receive Your loving grace
when I am here shamed in sin
hurting You deep within

yet everytime I run and flee
You take me home forgiving me
with the skies I feel Your touch
no other love can be this much

You are there as I hide
with Your arms open wide

for You alone have the greatest love
the world has ever known
a love that never ceases to embrace a weary heart
and give a brand new start
provides light where the sun has never shown
now I can understand
that I am here because of Your love

so I take Your gentle hand
only to sin again
and yet You turn then stubbornly
you take me home, forgiving me

how can love as great as this
even want to exist
oh God of all that's good and true
please believe I love You too

though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more

that I am here because...
you are there as I hide with Your arms open wide
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more nothing more

as You take me by the hand
that I am here because of Your love




This is meeh...
My name is...
My kiss is...erotic
My hugs are...warm
My eyes...twinkle in the moonlight
My touch is...heart warming
My smell is...amazing
My smile is...encouraging
My love is...one of a kind
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
.:: what the... ah ewan ::.

i was reading this article in one of the entries in PEX, when suddenly my phone rangs... and on the other line was him...
haaaaayyyyy, sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko...
bakit ko ba pinapahirapan ang sarili??
bakit ko ba hinayaan na muling magulo ang kahit papano ay nananahimik na pag-iisip ko???
lam ko sumhow naka-move on na ako...
natanggap ko na ang lahat... na kahit anong gawin ko ang nakalipas ay nakalipas na at di na muling magbabalik pa...
alam ko napagod na ako sa lahat ng sakit na naramdaman ko... kung tutuusin dumating na ako sa punto na naging manhid na ako at halos wala ng nararamdaman dahil yun ang gusto ko...
pero bakit eto na naman ako???
haaaaayyyyy, ewan ko ba naman kung bakit pati ang "puso" ko nakikitulad pa sakin na sobrang "pasaway"... di na lang sumunod sa gusto ng "isip" ko...
ewan ko ba kung bakit palagi silang nagtatalo...

"sige, babalikan ko na muna yung ginagawa ko!", sagot ng asa kabilang line
"okei, kala ko ba wala ka ginagawa?", ang tanong ko

ewan ko, di ko na nga alam kung nagkainitindihan kami sa pinag-usapan namain sa phone basta alam ko nagkwento lang ako at nakinig sya... pero maski ako hindi ko alam kung yung lahat ng sinasabi ko eh nagre-register sa utak ko... hindi ko alam kung bakit?

basta... kaya itinuloy ko na lang ang pagbabasa ng article na ito...
at pagkatapos...
sabi ko na naman sa sarili ko...
dapat kasi yung mga nababasa ko... ina-apply ko sa sarili ko...

may sense ba ako???
basta, basahin nyo na lang ito...


LOVING IN A FANTASY WORLD
By Joe D’ Mango


Many of us find it difficult to move on after a failed relationship because we pretend and make ourselves believe that isn’t really over. We still hope that somehow we can work things out and start over again.

There is nothing wrong with loving a person but when this feeling traps us in a world beyond what is real, then we are bound to get hurt. Most of us live in our own fantasies because it is safer there. But, the more time we spend in this make-believe world, the more we drift away from reality and the more we are likely to be imprisoned by our own fears.

Relationships are made and broken everyday. Those who lose it are always faced with a difficult task of moving on alone. What most of us refuse to understand is that we cannot move on without acceptance in our hearts. For as long as we still hold back what isn’t ours anymore, we cannot truly let go.

Letting go means accepting the fact that we are alone now and what used to be "us" will just be "me" and it just has to be like that until we recover from our fall.

Give yourself time to grieve. Like in any fresh wound, the pain will always be there. But after hurting comes healing and after healing comes a new hope to build our lives again.

We can never be certain about relationships because not all of them are made to last our lifetime. But we have to constantly nurture it so it can grow and we can grow old with it.

We should not mourn forever when someone we love leaves us. We fail in our relationships because God has a better plan for us. All we have to do is trust him. Always remember that it is only when we let go that we have the chance to get back what was taken away from us.

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:45 pm
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
.:: d' conversation ::.

a friend of mine asked me, "mahal mo pa ba?"
then i replied, "sobra..." 
she then asked me again, "ba't di mo ipaglaban?"
i just whispered, "masaya na sya, ayoko nang guluhin pa!"

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:51 pm
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
...i know it's worth the wait...

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me. if like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you.  
 
I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions. Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person.... and since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is! 

You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. 

I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here ... patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.
 
At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. 

And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you! 

In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:57 pm
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.:: just keeping myself busy ::.

wala na naman ako magawa...
buti na lang nakita ko ang site na ito...
ART.COM at since wala ako ginagawa and wanted to keep myelf busy naisipan ko na lang mag paint... hehehe

at ito nga yung nagawa ko... if you wanna see how i did those pics... just click on the link under every pictures...
magandang pampalipas oras at pantanggal ng depression...

paintings by JhenSkie through the help of ART.com


SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:32 pm
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Friday, July 08, 2005
i'LL miss whoppi for sure :-(

this morning my mom texted me that my dog "whoopi" was not feeling well "matamlay daw at kahapon pa ayaw kumain". i told my mom na painumin ng gatas at pag hindi pa rin kumain i-dala na nila sa vet... i haven't receive any text message again from her again after that...

tapos kanina lang mga 20mins ago, nag-txt ulit mommy ko na wala na si whoopi ko...
shocks... sobrang nagulat ako at naiinis sa sarili ko kasi wala man lang ako nagawa... 2 weeks ago lang nung huli ako umuwi sa bahay ako pa yung nagpaligo sa kanya tapos bilihan ko pa sya ng bagong neck bracelet para maipasyal sya ng kapatid ko... tapos bigla na lang ngayon wala na sya...
naiiyak din ako... my mom kept on texting me kasi alam nya na sobra akong maapektuhan once na malaman ko ang nangyari but then she told me na cguro daw "whoopi just save one life in our family".
cguro nga tama ang mommy ko pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan ang malungkot... actually habang ginagawa ko ito, naiiyak ako...
wala na akong papaliguan at susuklayan pag uuwi ako ng bahay... wala lang kakagat sa slippers ko at wala na akong hahabulin pag nakakalabas sya sa kulungan nya...
shocks, mami-miss ko talaga si whoppi... till now hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano ang talagang nararamdaman ko pero cguro nga i just have to accept na lang na hanggang dun na lang talaga ang life nya...
sabi ng isang friend ko "ayaw mo nun at least pagdating mo dun (...pertaining to heaven i guess) may pet ka na naghihintay sayo..."

pero hindi talaga cguro ganun kadali tanggapin na nawalan na naman ako ng isang mahalagang parte ng buhay ko... for almost a year and half of having her... lam ko malaki ang naging part nya sa life ko... yung time ang emotions i spent with her...
pero ngayon wala na...
tanging memories na naman nya ang naiwan...

for sure... i will miss her :-(



SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 05:32 pm
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Thursday, July 07, 2005
.:: and YES it's TRUE :-) ::.

hhhaaaaayyyyy... after 2 days of having flu... finally, i'm quite okei na... masyado kasi "pasaway" si jhenskie eh... hehehe
but neways, i have this article i received from a friend and i find it interesting so i decided to share it to all my(especially "single") friends out there... and i dunno if this was already posted in one of the blog in the bloggie world but for me it does make sense (it's not just bcoz i am single now) but i guess it really talks about the reality of being single for a moment...

so here it goes...

--oooooooo-oooooooo-oooooooo-oooooooo-oooooooo-oooooooo-oooooooo-

Blessings of being single

Message (i guess from the author): Too often people want what they want, or think they want at the moment, which is usually "happiness" right now. The irony of their impatience is that only by learning to wait, and by willingness to accept the bad with the good do we usually attain those things that are truly worthwhile. I have a blessing which is sometimes seen as a curse. I am blessed with the gift of being single.
For most of us twenty-something young professionals, it seems the world has already come up with it's own set of expectations on how we should live life. The world expects us to finish school in our early twenties, get a job, find the love of our lives by the time we reach our mid-twenties, marry and have kids. But the thing is, not everyone sees their dreams come true in the same way. In this article, I shall try to endeavor to change the way the world looks at being single.

The Art of Contentment
For most of us, being single will be more of a phase than a final destination. This is the best place to practice the art of contentment. Someday, I'm sure most of us will fall in love and get married. But the thing is, love will always be tested. Someone more handsome, more charming, richer, funnier, sweeter would come along. If you have not practiced the art of contentment as a single person, chances are you would be tempted to want that and not cherish your chosen one. Practicing the Art of Contentment as a single person means that you take what life gives you, good or bad, you're willing to see it through. It means you don't walk away everytime things get tough because it builds in you patience, perseverance, understanding and a hundred different virtues that people in a hurry will never have. Being single means you would find how it feels to be alone thus, allowing you to cherish every moment you spend with your chosen one.

The art of contentment means you wouldn't mind if life had to make you wait for so long to find the love of your life, because you know that the waiting would only make the finding much sweeter.

A Time to Know Yourself Better
Being single is a time of your life when you can get to know yourself better. You can pursue different interest and passions without having to ask another person's approval. It is a phase when you can keep focus on other things, discover your potentials and talents, and see yourself become more than what you expect to be. Allow yourself to surprise you. Stop wasting precious energy trying to figure out why you're still romantically unattached. It's all in the mind. Take the time to go see your friends, spend time with your family, do charity work and you will realize that you are not, and never for one moment, was alone. Try to get to know yourself first before you try to get to know other people.
To be truly loved means to be known and accepted for who you are.
How do you expect other people to know you and to love you, when you don't even know who you are?

A Choice Between Good and Best
Sometimes the dilemmas we face are not between what is absolutely bad and absolutely good. Sometimes, it's between good and best. Treat this stage of your life as a phase to evaluate who is good for you and who is best for you. Sometimes, you won't hear music, or feel magic to know who's best for you. The heart just knows and it doesn't need any romantically charged scenario to decide on the matter. Trust in your heart, and trust that time will eventually lead you to, not to the perfect partner, but to the most suitable partner for you.
Being single is a phase of life that we need to be thankful for, because being single means our hearts have yet to choose the best one for us.

Almost a non-committal. Jane Austen once wrote, that it is a truth universally acknowledged that a single man (or in our times a woman), in possession of a good fortune is in search of a spouse (just to be politically correct). Well, that was what the old school wanted us to believe in. Married life is a path most of us would take. However, it is not the only path there is. Relieve yourself of the pressure and stop making every single, straight guy friend a prospect. You have no business "entrapping" them and asking (which is more like "putting a gun in the head") them of their exclusive attention, if you're not ready for commitment yourself. Sometimes, when you spend too much time trying to find a boyfriend, you normally end us marrying the first loser who comes to your door.

Take your time, the world will wait. Being married doesn't guarantee that it will make your life happy. It doesn't guarantee anything at all.
Sometimes, it only brings two miserable people together only to make their life even more miserable. Without the right intention, the emotional maturity, financial security and of course, unwavering love, you're better off unattached.

Living Life
Don't put your life on hold for Mr. Right but don't let it waste away with Mr. Wrong. Life is about things that you do and happen to you everyday. It's not about the things that could have happened but never did, or things that you think would happen in the future. Live life now. Live it to the fullest and stop beating yourself up, trying to be perfect on a Saturday night date. Allow life to surprise you with it's most wonderful blessings.

"Knowing that there are actually more options in life will empower you and will give u more chances to make better choices"

To all of us, be aware that there are a lot of options out there...taking the path of early marriage or submitting yourself to it as an escape from the hard economic conditions of our country will not make things any better...empower urselves!

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 03:28 pm
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Tuesday, July 05, 2005
...Smell of Rain...

...rainy season again and this one is just right to feel the warmth and love of GOD for all of us...

A cold March wind danced around the dead of night in Dallas as the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Diana Blessing. Still groggy from surgery, her husband David held her hand as they braced themselves for the latest news. That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forced Diana, only 24-weeks pregnant, to undergo an emergency cesarean to deliver the couple’s new daughter, Danae Lu Blessing.

At 12 inches long and weighing only one pound and nine ounces, they already knew she was perilously premature. Still, the doctor’s soft words dropped like bombs.
"I don’t think she’s going to make it,"‘ he said, as kindly as he could. "There’s only a 10-percent chance she will live through the night, and even then, if by some slim chance she does make it, her future could be a very cruel one."
Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctor described the devastating problems Danae would likely face if she survived.
She would never walk, she would never talk, she would probably be blind, and she would certainly be prone to other catastrophic conditions from cerebral palsy to complete mental retardation, and on and on.

"No! No!" was all Diana could say. She and David, with their
5-year-old son Dustin, had long dreamed of the day they would have a daughter to become a family of four. Now, within a matter of hours, that dream was slipping away.

Through the dark hours of morning as Danae held onto life by the thinnest thread, Diana slipped in and out of sleep, growing more and more determined that their tiny daughter would live and live to be a healthy, happy young girl.
But David, fully awake and listening to additional dire details of their daughter’s chances of ever leaving the hospital alive, much less healthy, knew he must confront his wife with the inevitable.
David walked in and said that we needed to talk about making funeral arrangements.

Diana remembers, "I felt so bad for him because he was doing everything trying to include me in what was going on, but I just wouldn’t listen, I couldn’t listen. I said, ‘No, I don’t want to listen to what the doctors say; Danae is not going to die! One day she will be just fine, and she will be coming home with us!’"
As if willed to live by Diana’s determination, Danae clung to life hour after hour, with the help of every medical machine and marvel her miniature body could endure. But as those first days passed, a new agony set in for David and Diana. Because Danae’s underdeveloped nervous system was essentially ‘raw,’ the lightest kiss or caress only intensified her discomfort, so they couldn’t even cradle their tiny baby girl against their chests to offer the strength of their love. All they could do, as Danae struggled alone beneath the ultraviolet light in the tangle of tubes and wires, was to pray that God would stay close to their precious little girl.
There was never a moment when Danae suddenly grew stronger. But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce of weight here and an ounce of strength there. At last, when Danae turned two months old, her parents were able to hold her in their arms for the very first time.
And two months later, though doctors continued to gently, but grimly warn that her chances of surviving, much less living any kind of normal life, were next to zero.
Danae went home from the hospital, just as her mother had predicted.
Today, five years later, Danae is a petite but feisty young girl with glittering gray eyes and an unquenchable zest for life. She shows no signs, whatsoever, of any mental or physical impairment. Simply, she is everything a little girl can be and more, but that happy ending is far from the end of her story.
One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving, Texas, Danae was sitting in her mother’s lap in the bleachers of a local ballpark where her brother Dustin’s baseball team was practicing.
As always, Danae was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby when she suddenly fell silent.


Hugging her arms across her chest, Danae asked, "Do you smell that?" Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm, Diana replied, "Yes, it smells like rain." Danae closed her eyes and again asked, "Do you smell that?" Once again Diana said, "Rain." Still caught in the moment, Danae shook her head, patted her thin shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced, "No, it smells like Him….It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest."

Tears blurred Diana’s eyes as Danae then happily hopped down to play with the other children Before the rains came, her daughter’s words confirmed what Diana and all the members of the extended Blessing family had known, at least in their hearts, all along. During those long days and nights of her first two months of her life, when her nerves were too sensitive for them to touch her, God was holding Danae on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well.

No wonder everyone loves the smell of rain!

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 06:28 pm
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Monday, July 04, 2005
...as ALWAYS...

"come to me all of you who are tired of carrying heavy loads... for my yoke i will give you is easy and my burden is light... come to me and i will give you rest..."

wala na naman ako sa sarili ko paggising ko kaninang umaga... cguro dahil na din sa ilang oras lang na tulog ko... di ko alam pano ko sisimulan ang araw... gising na ako pero wala akong lakas na kumilos :-( at nakaupo lang ako sa bed ko at nag-iisip hanggang sa pinansin ako ng pinsan ko at  namalayan na parang wala pa ako sa sarili ko ng mga oras na yun... dun pa lang ako kumilos at bumaba para mag-prepare kasi kailangan pumasok...
ewan ko kung bakit ganito na naman ang nararamdaman ko... okei naman ako nung umaga, lumabas pa nga kami ng isang friend ko at nanood kami ng movie, ikot-ikot sa mall tapos nagsimba at kumain ng dinner... (actually yan yung topic ng Gospel yesterday...)

eto na naman yung mga times na kung pwede lang ako mag-disappear at pumunta sa isang lugar na ako lang ang andun, ginawa ko na...
lam ko hindi lang katawan at isip ko ang pagod ng mga oras na ito...

but whatever feelings i have for now... lam ko makakayanan ko pa rin lahat ito... kasi alam ko na hindi ako nag-iisa...

alam ko na andyan SYA...
mamaya lang cguro okei na ako...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:40 am
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Saturday, July 02, 2005
.:: for all my GUY-friends out there! ::.

If a girl cries in front of you, it means that she can't take it anymore.
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of ur life.
If you let her go, it will be hard for her to go back to being herself with you once again.

A girl wont cry easily, except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily, only when she loves u the most, she will put down her ego.

If a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly, cause she's the one who is WILLING to stay with you for the rest of your life.
If a girl cries because of you, please dont give her up, maybe because of your decision, you'll RUIN her life.
When she cries right in front of you, when she cries bcause of you, look into her eyes, can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?

Think. Which other girl has cried with pure sincerity, in front of you, and because of you?

She cries not because she is weak. She cries not because she wants sympathy or pity.
She cries because crying silently is no longer possible.
The pain, hurt and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, think about it. If a girl cries her heart out to you, and all because of you, it's time to look back on what you have done, only u will know the answer to it. Do consider it cause one day, it may be too late for regrets.

It may be too late to say "I'm sorry"...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:28 pm
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Thursday, June 30, 2005
.:: a night wid my boy-friends ::.

yep i was with my boy-friends last night... nood kasi kami "War of the Worlds" sa Glorietta... at as usuall rose among the thorns na naman ako... hehehe

akala ko nga di pa matutuloy kasi ng text ko sila na may magandang movie na ulit kasi showing na nga WoW sabi ko watch na kami kasi the last time inaya ko sila manood ng movie (Monster in Law) ayaw nila kasi puro daw ka-okrayan yun... well, expected ko na naman yun eh... tapos yun nga text ko sila after lunch abiut it tapos pinag-pasapasahan ba naman ako... sabi ni bf#1 tanungin ko daw si bf#2 sabi naman ni bf#2 tanungin ko si bf#3 at pag pumayag si bf#3 txt ko kagad sya... sabay sabay ko naman sila text pero si bf#3 ang tagal sumagot so ni-text ko na lang ulit sya at sabi ko "sa kanya nakasalalay kung manonood kami ng movie kaya sana naman sumagot sya..." at buti naman sumagot nga si bf#3 kaya lang eto ang sagot nya... "txt u l8r my kausap kc ako pg d 2loy tau 22loy ok" kaya nag-txt ulit ako kay bf#2 na sabi ko "w8 daw natin yung txt nya kc daw may kausap sya. pag d daw n2loy, nonood tau. so waiting tayou ngayon!"... so sa madaling salita waiting nga kami...

tapos mga around 5:30PM nag-txt na si bf#3 tinatanong ako kung wat tym daw ako uwi... so it means 2loy kami... assuming na ako... hehehe so sinabi ko na pwede na ako mag-out ng 6PM at sabay na kami punta ng Glorietta at txt ko na lang si bf#1 at bf#2 since magkasama naman sila at magkita na lang kami sa may Alabang...

dahil may last minute meeting pa kami 6:15 na ako naka-out sa office tapos pagbaba ko pa sobrang lakas ng ulan kaya tinawagan ko na si bf#3... tinanong ko kung asan na sya eh ang sagot nya sakin tanong din kung asan na daw ako... eh di sabi ko asa ofc pa kasi malakas ang ulan... sabi ko sunduin na lang nya ako kaya lang ayaw naman nya kasi daw ma-trapik at ma-trapik naman talaga... so hintay ko lang hina ng konti ang ulan at buti na lang umuwi na din isang ofcmate ko na may payong eh wala akong payong kaya nakisabay na lang ako sa kanya...
buti na lang pagdating ko ng Alabang medyo mahina na ang ulan at pagdating ko sa meeting place namin andun na si bf#3... so byahe na kami papunta ng Glorietta para meet si bf#1 at bf#2... hehehe

habang asa byahe kami tinawagan ko pa si bf#2 at tinanong kung asan na sila eh nagbibihis pa lang daw at tutal asa expressway pa lang din naman kami kaya okei lang... sinabi ko na lang na kung sino ang mauna sa amin bumili na ng tiket kasi baka maubusan na naman kami tulad ng nangyari before... tapos ng malapit na kami ng magallanes tinanong ako ni bf#3 kung asan na daw sila kasi kung di pa sila nakakaalis ng bahay eh susunduin na lang namin sila... so ni-text ko si bf#2 kaya lang ang tagal mag-reply kaya nag-diretso na din kami ng Glorietta... nagtalo pa nga kaming dalawa kung san kami manonood kasi ayaw nya ng G4 kasi masyado daw mahal kaya lang 730 yung time sa G1 eh wala pa si bf#2 at bf#3 kaya sa G4 pa din kami syempre... hehehe medyo matagal pa hihintayin namin kasi 850 pa start ng movie kaya naisip ko palipas na lang muna kami ng oras  sa timezone (tulad ng palagi ko ginagawa pag ako lang mag-isa ang nonood at medyo matagal pa mag-start ang movie...) di dala ni bf#1 card nya kaya yung sakin ang ginamit namin pero sya ang nagpa-load... tapos aya ko sya laro kami ng basketball (yabang ko... as if naman matatalo ko sya...) aba ang mokong at magaling din pala mag-basketball... half lang ng score nya ang score ko pero at least umabot ako sa average points ko... hehehe
tapos lipat kami dun sa isang basketball kasi mas mura daw (kuripot talaga) pero dami pa naglalaro kasi laro muna kami ng "daytona" (as if naman matatalo ko sya eh driver yun...hehehe)
tapos laro na sya ng basketball at ako umikot-ikot na lang sa timezone habang hinhintay namin si bf#1 at bf#2... hanggang sa 2matawag na pala si bf#2 eh di ko masyado narinig kaya di ko nasagot kagad... asan na daw kami eh di sabi ko puntahan na lang nila kami ng timezone tapos ayun pagdating nilang 2 naglaro silang 3 ng basketball and after laro naman kami apat ng "rally" hehehe... cguro iniisip nila na tatalunin nila akong tatlo... hehehe sorry na lang sila kasi for 2 games na magkasunod parehong 2nd ang place ko...(praktisado ata ako  sa daytona... hehehe)

lapit na mag-start yung movie at sobrang haba na ng pila kaya naisipan na namin ang pumila... tagal tagal pa din pinaghintay namin at ang mga pasaway kung kelan malapit na pumasok saka nakaisip na bumili ng food... haaaaayyyyy... mga pasaway talaga...

dami tao sa loob... medyo sa harapan na nga yung nakuha namin na upuan pero okei lang kesa naman tumayo kami... ng malapit na mag-start ang movie tumunog ang cellphone ko at nagulat ako kasi yung text message galing sa isang bf ko pa... (sabihin na nating bf#4... hehehe) tinatanong nya kung asan ako at ano ginagawa ko... pero natunugan ko na bakit ganun ang tanong nya kasi lam ko naman na alam nya kung asan ako at sino mga kasama ko... siguro gusto lang nya i-confirm... kasi naman bakit hindi sumama eh inaya naman pala sya ni bf#2... (gusto nya kasi palagi akong masolo... hehehe)

start na ang movie... katabi ko si bf#2 sa left at si bf#1 sa right... si bf#1 di mapakali kasi maya't maya tumutunog ang cellphone nya... guess kung sino... hehehe (yung girlfriend nya... hahaha) di kasi alam na manonood sya ng sine... kaya ayun ang mokong di alam pano magdadahilan... nakaktawa noh... hanggang sa hindi na din nakatiis at lumbas si bf#1 at pagbalik nakasimangot na... hehehe tapos maya ng konti si cellphone naman ni bf#2 ang tumutunog... guess who ulit... (girlfriend pa din ng bf#1) at habang nag-uusap sabi sakin ni bf#1 wag daw ako maingay at baka marinig boses ko... hehehe

tapos ayun after nood na ulit kami... wala na tumawag sa isa man sa kanila...
okei lang yung movie pero di pa din maiiwasang ang mga comment...
tama si bf#1 kung hindi lang si Tom Cruise ang bida dun, for sure di sya kikita... hehehe pero in fairness naman kay Steven Spielberg, maganda ang pagkagawa nya... yung story nga lang ang walang dating...

tapos umuwi na kami... di na kami nahatid ni bf#1 katulad ng usual nyang ginagawa kasi may pupuntahan pa syang importante... so kasabay ko umuwi si bf#2 at bf#3...

pagdating ko ng dorm... sobrang antok na ako...
pero syempre di ko nakalimutan i-text mga bf ko para mag-thank you for spending their time with me... hehehe
bago kami naghiwa-hiwalay... tanong ko sa kanila ano ba ang sunod na movie... hehehe

that's all... mahaba na sobra ang kwento ko... (d naman obvious jhen...)
pero happy ako kasi andyan sila palagi kahit minsan alam ko na nakukulitan na sila sa akin...

thanks mga bro... till next movie date natin... :-)

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:03 pm
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