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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
.:: beauty of a woman ::.
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With time, only grows...
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:48 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: beauty of a woman ::.
Thursday, August 04, 2005
...isang walang sense na entry...
shocks... August na naman... actually kanina lang ako natauhan na August na pala... hehehe...
yung calendar ko kasi July pa din at kanina ko lang pinalitan...
parang ayaw ko pa nga ilipat yung month kasi isa lang ang ibig sabihin nun...
August na naman at another number na naman ang madadagdag sa age ko...
gosh... 25years old na ako!!!
it's my silver year already...
25 years old na ako this year...
sabi ng mommy ko 23 years old sya ng maging preggy sya sakin kaya super proud sya na 25 years na ako eh wala pa din akong baby... hehehe
natawa na lang ako sa sarili ko habang iniisip ko ang bagay na yun...
less than 2weeks from now magbabago na naman ang number ng age ko na isusulat ko sa lahat ng forms na i-fill-up ko... hehehe
hay naku number lang naman yun eh (as if di affected)... marami naman nagsasabi na i look like only 20years old... hehehe (o di ba)
di ko pa kasi matapos-tapos yung entry ko about sa climb ko last weekend... eh tagal ko na din alang entry d2 kaya naisipan ko na magsulat na lang ng kahit ano... kahit wlang sense... kaya sensya na kayo ha...
hayaan nyo pag natpos ko yung entry ko about dun post ko kagad together with the pics...
o sya tama na ang walang kwentang entry na ito at uuwi na ako...
6:50AM pa lang and2 na ako sa office at ayoko na magpagabi na naman ng uwi...
napansin ko lang ang entry ko pala na sinusundan nito... nagse-sentimyento din ako sa aga ng pagpasok ko...
at uulitin ko lang ulit... haaaaayyyyyyyy
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 07:31 pm
soul searcher here...
...isang walang sense na entry...
Thursday, July 28, 2005
haaaaaayyyyy... at exactly 6:45am andito na ako sa office... had no choice eh... huhuhu :-(
anyways, had a great night again last night with my boy-friends... hehehe
kahit wala silang ginawa kundi asarin ako (what's new with that, di kumpleto araw nila pag di nila ako naasar... hehehe) we watched STEALTH kaya lang di naman ganun kaganda yung movie pero okei na din... it's been weeks na din kasi kami di nagkasama-sama. last time kasi si bf#2 lang kasama ko nanood ng THE ISLAND kasi busy yung dalawa... after the movie, uwi na kami... syempre nihatid nila ako sa bahay though gusto nila ako sumama sa kanila pero di pwede kasi kelangan ko nga pumasok ng office ng maaga today... kaya eto ako ngayon... nakatunganga lang dito naghihintay na mag-ring ang telepono kung may problem na itatawag... haaaaayyyyy
cge, kaya ko pa naman eh... hanggang kaya ko pa...
ang tanong masaya pa ba ako???
or wala na lang talaga ako choice...
hay naku... sana lang pwede ko gawin ito in reality... hehehe
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:13 am
soul searcher here...
...haaaayyyyyy...
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
she says, "wen ur alone, i want you to look at the spaces on ur fingers... remember that once, those spaces fitted mine..."
and he replied, "and mine fitting urs!"
those were our last words to each other...
i don't know kung hanggang kelan... sabi nya TIME will be our only friend when it comes to both of US...
He maybe the most stubborn and selfish person i've ever known...
He maybe the most complicated guy as he says...
He maybe the cause of all my pain and sufferings...
He maybe the one who brought all the tears in my life...
He may not be the one meant for me to spent the rest of my life with...
He may not be there for me always for a reason...
but one thing i am sure of is that...
He's my ANGEL...
The most sweetest angel GOD sent to me...
The angel who showed me that i am capable of loving this much...
The angel who thought me how to be strong inspite of everything that comes...
The angel who cares...
The angel who only wants the best for me...
and most of all the angel who wishes nothing but my happiness...
to you my angel...
THANK YOU for everything...
You know how hard is this for me pero sabi mo nga "we will both get through dis wid HIS help..."
"TILL our TIME comes..."
S-H-M-I-L-Y
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 09:51 am
soul searcher here...
.:: to you my ANGEL ::.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
.:: everything happens for a reason ::.
"Listen carefully to what your heart says, enjoy the feeling of being in love and do not worry too much about how things will work out, do not be afraid to love just because you are afraid to get hurt..."
Sometimes people come into our life and we know right away that they were meant to be there... to serve some sort of purpose, teach us a lesson or help figure out who we are or who we want to become. We never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, we know that very moment that they will affect our life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to us at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection we realize that without overcoming those obstacles we would never realize our potential, strength, will power or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.
Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.
The people we meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that we experience can create whom we are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts us, betrays us or breaks our heart, forgive them because they have helped us learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom we open our heart.
If someone loves us, we have to love them back unconditionally, not only because they love us, but also because they are teaching us to love and open our heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that we possibly can, for we may never experience it again.
Talk to people whom we have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let ourself fall in love, break free and set our sights high. Hold our head up because wou have every right to.
Tell ourself that we are a great individual and believe in ourself, for if we don't believe in ourself, no one else will believe in us. Create our own life and then go out and live it.
Share this with anyone whom you believe has made a difference in your life!
"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see is obstacles."
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 06:53 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: everything happens for a reason ::.
.:: do u still want it??? ::.
LOVE...
is a ONE PLEASURE
and a THOUSAND SUFFERINGS...
now, do u still want the PLEASURE???
think about it...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 03:25 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: do u still want it??? ::.
Monday, July 18, 2005
sana sa pag-ibig wala nang napaglalaruan... wala nang nasasaktan at wala nang pinapaasa pa... kasi hindi biro ang masaktan... sobrang masakit, sobrang hirap makarecover lalo na pag ang nanakit sayo ay ang isang tao na sobra mong minahal...
sana wala nang naglalaro sa pag-iibig kasi ang paglalaro ay para sa bata lang na walang magawa... kaso parang merong taong talagang nang-aasar... hanggat minamahal mo sila lalo ka nilang niloloko at sinasaktan...
bakit ganun???
hindi ba sila pwedeng makuntento..
bakit nila ginagawa un???
para maging past time lang?!
para masabing may nagmamahal sa kanya?!
para may pang display?!
may masabing may career sila?!
sana wag naman,,dahil ang pag-iibig nararamdamn hindi dahil trip trip lang...
minsan nman may taong gugustuhin ka kasi iniwan xa nung isa...
bakit ganun????
kasi mahal ka na nya o wala lang mapagtripan kaya ka pinagtyatyagaan?!
minsan nman nagpapakatanga ka... pinipilit mo na mahal ka nya kahit alam mong may mahal syang iba...
bat mo gingawa un?!
mas mabuti pang kumalas kesa maging panakip butas...
sana sa mga taong mahilig maglaro sa pag-iibig...
sana maisip nila na may nasasaktan sila at sana alam nila na ok lang umiyak dahil sa taong minamahal nila at sa taong nagmamahal sa kanila kasi mas masakit umiyak dahil nakarma sila...
sana sa mga taong nakabasa nito...
kung isa ka man sa tinutukoy ko...
sana matauhan kana...
kesa sa araw-araw na nabubuhay ka... lagi kang nananakit at balewala sayo ang may nasasaktan..
eto ang tandaan nyo...
"MAS MASARAP UMIYAK DAHIL SA PAGMAMAHAL... KESA UMIYAK DAHIL SA KARMA!!!"
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 07:44 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: sana lang ::.
Saturday, July 16, 2005
just this morning when i got home from gimik with my college friends i made a decision which i hope is right...
i was about to sleep 'coz i'm already tired na... both mind and body...
but then i get up again, sit in my bed and started to pray to HIM...
"Lord, please don't ever give up on him 'coz i already did that... i can no longer keep my promise that i won't ever give up on him... YOU're the only ONE who knows how much i love him and what i only want is his happiness... but today as his friend, at this very minute i am giving up... i don't know why but as i see him kanina alam ko na he no longer needs me... the way he acts, the way he looked at me, the way he talked to me and the way he treats me most of the time... i am no longer the friend he needs i guess... alam ko madaming beses ko na naramdaman ito pero most of the time binibigyan ko ng justification ang lahat ng nangyayari... maybe because at the back of my mind i'm still hoping that he's still the same old person i used to know... i hope i was wrong for thinking this way... i love him so much to the point that i am being stupid and harsh to myself...
Lord, i know i don't deserve this either... we both know how much YOU love us... alam ko kung gaano kami pareho kalakas sayo... ngayon ko lang po sasabihin ito (though alam ko naman na cguro alam nyo na) na there are times na nagtatampo ako SA'YO kasi minsan feeling ko bias ka... there are times that i kept on asking myself kung bakit kung pareho kami malakas sayo... bakit parang mas malakas pa rin sya... kasi sa kanya 2 kaming concern at nagmamahal and only wants was his happiness pero sya, there are times na he didn't care pero andyan pa rin kami for him...
Lord, today i am giving it all to YOU... it's not that i am tired of him... it's just that at this very moment i realized that as long as im here for him, allowing him to do all those things that we both know is not right he will stay that way which is not what i wanted for him... i know i have no rights to tell or say what was right or wrong for him but only YOU. i maybe selfish for saying this but i guess he really needs sometime to be alone with himself... to know more about his ownself... like what he told me before...
LORD, thanks for everything... for always being there for both of us, though we have failed YOU for so many times...
today LORD, i prayed more for him... more understanding, more patience...
'coz for now LORD, i cannot say that i am still here for him... YOU know how hard doing this for me that's why i am hoping that whatever decision i made right now was the right one for both of us especially for him...
i pray for YOUR enlightenment LORD...
Thank You.
AMEN."
after that prayer di ako nakatulog... kahit anong pilit ko pumikit at pilitin ang isip na makatulog na wala pa din hanggang sa sumikat na ang araw gising pa din ako... i decided to go to office na lang early at umuwi ng province 'coz i know there sumhow makakatulog ako ng maayos... ayoko na muna mag-isip ng kahit ano... cguro tama na muna ang pag-iisip... kung anuman ang mangyari... i know HE has good reasons for it...
as i was writing this one... inaantok pa din ako pero pinilit ko matapos ito... naghihintay ng oras dahil gusto ko na umuwi at gusto ko na matulog...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:47 pm
soul searcher here...
i hope & pray
Friday, July 15, 2005
.:: ikaw, ano gagawin mo??? ::.
"what if you had one day left, what would you do?"
>>last night i watched "If Only" ni Jennifer Lovehewitt with my best buddy. t'was a really nice movie na okei lang kahit ulit-ulitin ko... additional na naman sa collection of beatiful movies na gusto ko... hehehe
neweiz, let's go back with the movie...
i was really touched dun sa ginawa nung guy...
while watching it i kept on asking my buddy kung meron pa ba ganung guy sa mundo ngayon and she just answered me with a smile...
i even asked myself the same question...
"what if i had one day left, what would i do?"
till makauwi ako ng bahay, naglalaro sa isip ko ang tanong na yan...
while having my shower, pinipilit ko pa din masagot...
nakahiga na ako at tulad ng madaming gabi na nagdaan, nakatitig na naman ako sa 4 na sulok ng kawarto... nag-iisip... ano nga ba ang gagawin ko???
ni-assess ko ang nararamdaman ko...
maraming ideas ang pumasok sa isip ko...
ang mga gusto kong gawin... mga gusto kong sabihin...
umaandar ang oras... di ko namalayan past 12am na pala...
pinilit kong pumikit para makatulog na ako pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi talaga ako makatulog... naglalaro pa rin sa isip ko ang lahat ng bagay na gusto kong gawin at sabihin kung sakaling isang araw na lang ang natitira sa buhay ko...
pero kailangan ko pa bang hintayin ang araw na yun???
sa palagay ko hindi na...
habang may oras pa ako gagawin ko na lang ang mga bagay na gusto ko gawin...
at least alam ko na kung sakaling dumating man ang araw na yun... masaya na ako at wala akong regrets na hindi ko nagawa or nasabi...
hindi ko na alam kung anong oras na ako nakatulog pero feeling ko mag-uumaga na yun...
at hanggang ngayon habang ginagawa ko ito... iniisip ko pa din ang lahat...
hindi ko alam kung paao sisimulan pero at least ngayon may idea na ako kung ano ang gusto ko gawin... lam ko naman na di NYA ako papabayaan eh... lam ko na andyan SYA palagi for me...
and tulad pa din ng palagi kong sinasabi...
living for 5 seconds is the same as living for 50 years...
why wait for tomorrow if you can do it now...
LIVE LIFE as IF its your LAST...
'coz YOU'LL never KNOW what YOU'VE got till it's GONE...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:42 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: ikaw, ano gagawin mo??? ::.
Thursday, July 14, 2005
.:: what the... ah ewan ::.
i was reading this article in one of the entries in PEX, when suddenly my phone rangs... and on the other line was him...
haaaaayyyyy, sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko...
bakit ko ba pinapahirapan ang sarili??
bakit ko ba hinayaan na muling magulo ang kahit papano ay nananahimik na pag-iisip ko???
lam ko sumhow naka-move on na ako...
natanggap ko na ang lahat... na kahit anong gawin ko ang nakalipas ay nakalipas na at di na muling magbabalik pa...
alam ko napagod na ako sa lahat ng sakit na naramdaman ko... kung tutuusin dumating na ako sa punto na naging manhid na ako at halos wala ng nararamdaman dahil yun ang gusto ko...
pero bakit eto na naman ako???
haaaaayyyyy, ewan ko ba naman kung bakit pati ang "puso" ko nakikitulad pa sakin na sobrang "pasaway"... di na lang sumunod sa gusto ng "isip" ko...
ewan ko ba kung bakit palagi silang nagtatalo...
"sige, babalikan ko na muna yung ginagawa ko!", sagot ng asa kabilang line
"okei, kala ko ba wala ka ginagawa?", ang tanong ko
ewan ko, di ko na nga alam kung nagkainitindihan kami sa pinag-usapan namain sa phone basta alam ko nagkwento lang ako at nakinig sya... pero maski ako hindi ko alam kung yung lahat ng sinasabi ko eh nagre-register sa utak ko... hindi ko alam kung bakit?
basta... kaya itinuloy ko na lang ang pagbabasa ng article na ito...
at pagkatapos...
sabi ko na naman sa sarili ko...
dapat kasi yung mga nababasa ko... ina-apply ko sa sarili ko...
may sense ba ako???
basta, basahin nyo na lang ito...
LOVING IN A FANTASY WORLD
By Joe D’ Mango
Many of us find it difficult to move on after a failed relationship because we pretend and make ourselves believe that isn’t really over. We still hope that somehow we can work things out and start over again.
There is nothing wrong with loving a person but when this feeling traps us in a world beyond what is real, then we are bound to get hurt. Most of us live in our own fantasies because it is safer there. But, the more time we spend in this make-believe world, the more we drift away from reality and the more we are likely to be imprisoned by our own fears.
Relationships are made and broken everyday. Those who lose it are always faced with a difficult task of moving on alone. What most of us refuse to understand is that we cannot move on without acceptance in our hearts. For as long as we still hold back what isn’t ours anymore, we cannot truly let go.
Letting go means accepting the fact that we are alone now and what used to be "us" will just be "me" and it just has to be like that until we recover from our fall.
Give yourself time to grieve. Like in any fresh wound, the pain will always be there. But after hurting comes healing and after healing comes a new hope to build our lives again.
We can never be certain about relationships because not all of them are made to last our lifetime. But we have to constantly nurture it so it can grow and we can grow old with it.
We should not mourn forever when someone we love leaves us. We fail in our relationships because God has a better plan for us. All we have to do is trust him. Always remember that it is only when we let go that we have the chance to get back what was taken away from us.
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:45 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: what the... ah ewan ::.
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