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as what i've always said: "i'm UNIQUE and ONE of a KIND"...
i know there something in me... that inspite of whatever may happen in my day, i'm going to stay this way: trying and giving LIFE in the BEST WAY i know how...
keeping my spirits up and all things in perspective...
i know it's going to be OKAY...
i've made it thru difficult things before and i always land on my feet... i may not be dancing; may not be always sure about what to do next... but i always manage to figure things out... especially when i'm able to keep my SENSE of HUMOR and not lose my SMILE...
and if i'll just really think about it... i'll realize that i'm a very STRONG individual who knows what i wants and how to get it the best way i can...
someone who may not have all the answers but who is willing to HOPE, TRY and BELIEVE...
that i can see my way thru just about anything; it just all depends on how i look at it... and when people look at me, all they will see is someone who really is...
PRETTY AMAZING...
Whether i'm trying to endure or striving to endeavor, i'll just be the kind of person who can handle all kinds of WEATHER...



...SOMEONE whose ARMS will HOLD me when i'm WEAK
...SOMEONE whose EYES will SEE my UGLIEST
...SOMEOME whose HEART will LOVE me at my WORST
...coz when i find that SOMEONE, i know it's TRUE LOVE!

...SOMEONE who could DANCE with ME under the NIGHT SKY even without the MOON and the STARS... even without MUSIC playing... even if that SOMEONE can't dance well... but still dance with ME...



.:: Bcoz of Ur Love ::.
how can I see Your face
and receive Your loving grace
when I am here shamed in sin
hurting You deep within

yet everytime I run and flee
You take me home forgiving me
with the skies I feel Your touch
no other love can be this much

You are there as I hide
with Your arms open wide

for You alone have the greatest love
the world has ever known
a love that never ceases to embrace a weary heart
and give a brand new start
provides light where the sun has never shown
now I can understand
that I am here because of Your love

so I take Your gentle hand
only to sin again
and yet You turn then stubbornly
you take me home, forgiving me

how can love as great as this
even want to exist
oh God of all that's good and true
please believe I love You too

though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more

that I am here because...
you are there as I hide with Your arms open wide
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more nothing more

as You take me by the hand
that I am here because of Your love




This is meeh...
My name is...
My kiss is...erotic
My hugs are...warm
My eyes...twinkle in the moonlight
My touch is...heart warming
My smell is...amazing
My smile is...encouraging
My love is...one of a kind
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
sa wakas natapos ko din...


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5:30 AM alarm na cellphone ko... ginigising na ako kasi i promised my friend Arlin na andun na ako sa haus nya by 6AM kasi 7AM ang call time namin sa 7-11 Crossing...
syempre si pasaway na ako sa halip na umuwi ng maaga at matulog para preparation sa climb aba at nagawa pa manood ng MTV concert kaya ayun 1:30AM na ako nakauwi ng dorm... at hindi pa ako naka-pack ng gamit ko kaya pagdating ko pa ako nag-ayos ng lahat ng dadalahin ko at ilagay ang mga ito sa backpack... hehehe (nakalimutan ko kasi mag-pack ng Thursday night... usually kasi i packed my things 2days b4 the climb) kaya ang pasaway na si ako 3AM na ata nakatulog... (waaahhhhh... di ko alam kung ano mangyayari sakin sa trail...)

at exactly 6AM syempre andun na ako kina Arlin pero ang lola ko aba hindi pa tapos mag-prepare... (what's new... peace girl... hehehe) unpacked ulit ako ng backpack ko kasi yung mga foods namin sya ang bumili kaya kailangan namin divide for the two of us... dami pa namin kailangan bilihin kasi nakalimutan ko magdala ng bigas... so daan muna kami ng palengke to buy eggs and rice... yung ibang foods namin for dinner yung groupmates na namin ang bahala... pasaway nga kami kasi...

kaya lang badtrip pagdating namin ng MRT-Buendia station... hindi ba naman kami nakasakay kasi nakita sa bag ni Arlin yung mga canned goods na dala namin... yung sakin kasi naka-ilalim kaya di napansin but then nung check na yung bag nya eh asa top pala kaya napansin so refund namin tiket at nag-bus na lang kaming dalawa papunta ng Crossing... kainis talaga...

pagdating namin ng 7-11, may 4 mountaineers na dun na kasama namin so hindi pa din kami late... hehehe. we decided to have our breakfast muna sa Jollibee kung san nakita din namin yung ibang kasama pa namin... hindi ako nag-dinner ng previous night kaya medyo gutom na din ako and i relly nedd to eat rice for that day para sa mahabaang trail... hehehe...

at exactly 9AM (supposed to be 8AM) umalis na kami ng crossing at byahe na papunta ng Tanay, Rizal dun ang destination namin... since hindi na nasunod ang IT sa simula pa lang late na din kami nakarating ng jump-off... last minute packing at ayos ng gamit...konting pictures muna bago maging madungis ang aming mga looks... hehehe
kaya lang ng magsisimula na kami mag-trek biglang umulan kaya stay muna kasi sa isang kubo at picture picture ulit... hehehe
after 15mins tumigil din ang ulan at start na kami ng trek namin... simula pa lang ng trek puro assault na... (ano ba yan...) at si pasaway na ako aba... mayabang at nauuna sa trail... (hehehe, ayoko ko kasi maiwan sa huli) pero naiwan din naman ako kasi bilis ko mapagod at puro ako pahinga... wala kasi ako training kahit jogging man lang... huhuhu

hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses ako nagpahinga...

hanggang sa makarating kami sa manggahan kung san kami kain ng lunch... nagtatalo talo sila kung dun na lang kami stay for the night tapos assault na lang naim ang summit for the sunset pero since madami lamok at mas feel nila ang camp sa summit we just stayed there for lunch...
at pagdating nga namin dun kanya kanya ng labasan ng mga foods at sabay kain... we stayed there for more than an hour din cguro since nasunod naman namin ang IT namin and we leave manggahan around 3pm na ata...
start na ulit ng trek namin gong to the summit... shocks mas mahirap na at mas madaming pahinga kasi puro assault na talaga... puro batuhan pa at habang umaakyat ko... ang iniisip ko yung pagbaba ko the next day kasi mahihirapan talaga kami pababa lalo na umulan pa so madulas ang mga bato...
pagdating namin sa clearing part about 30mins away to the summit... umulan ng malakas... yung iba tuloy lang sila akyat to the summit pero some of us stayed in the clearing at hinintay na humina ng konti ang ulan pero mukhang hindi hihina kaya basang basa talaga kami... (buti na lang maayos ang packing ng gamit ko...) at pagdating namin ng campsite di pa kami makapag pitch ng tent dahil sa sobrang lakas nga ng ulan... we just rest and wait for the rain to stop... cguro almost 1.5 hours din kami naghintay ng clearing ulit bago tumigil ng tuluyan ang ulan... at ng wala ng ulan dun lang kami nakapag pitch ng tent namin... tapos prepare na for dinner... (hehehe... umaambon pa rin at nakapagpalit na e ng damit kaya d ako masyadong nakatulong sa pagluto ng dinner...)
sarap ng dinner namin... (nilagang baboy, fried chicken at may cream and corn soup pa...) after dinner as usual gusto nila mag-socials (inuman po ito na hanggang umaga...) pero most of us since malamig at masarap matulog di na nag-join ng socials and just stayed inside the tent... hay naku ang mga pasaway ang iingay... sobra... 4am na ata sila nag lights-off kaya naman 8am na mga tulog pa din... di na naman tuloy nasunod ang IT namin... hehehe
we're supposed to break camp ng maaga like 7am kasi maiinit na talaga sa taas pero since mga late na nga nagising mag 9am na ata kami start trek pababa... may mga nauna na bumaba and i was one of them kasi sobrang init na talaga sa taas and maluluto kami pag nag-stay pa kami dun habang hinihintay naim sila mag-packed ng gamit nila...

haaaaayyyy, as expected... hirap ng trail pababa... ang dulas ang ang tarik sobra... konting out balnce lang naku mahuhulog ka na talaga... but still we manage to get down safe and meet some of our friends are waiting for us in the manggahan area... pagdating namin dun nag-iinuman sila and kahit di ako uminom nung gabi sa socials di pa rin ako nakaligtas kasi napa-shot ako ng isa... sakit sa ulo... pagdating ng lahat as manggahan, we decided to continue our trek na pababa kasi gusto din namin makauwi ng maaga...
pabilisan na pababa kasi medyo madali na lang ang trail... hehehe
mga around 11:30 cguro ng makarating kami sa jump-off at dun na din kami nag-ayos ng mga gamit namin at naligo... hehehe
nang okei na kami lahat trek na ulit kami pababa kung san kami sasakay ng jeep pabalik ng crossing... kaya lang pagdating namin dun wala pa yung jeep so we just stayed there at nagkulitan... kain ng kung anu-ano at syempre picture picture (d pwede mawala yun... hehehe)
mga around 3:30PM cguro ng dumating yung jeep at kanya-kanya ng load ng gamit... may mga naiwan pa kasi di rin naman kakasya lahat sa isang jeep lang... habang asa byahe wasted na kaming lahat kaya mga tulog ... hehehe
by 6PM asa crossing na kami at exactly 7PM asa bahay na ako...
super pagod pero kailangan kong ayusin muna ang gamit ko kasi ang dami kong maduming damit...

at dahil nga sobrang pagod ako that night... sarap ng tulog ko... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
paggising ko ng Monday, as usual masakit ang katawan ko...
pero kailangan ko pa rin pumasok...
ayoko na mag-pasaway... balik training na ulit ako...

at hanggang sa susunod na climb ko... hehehe

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 11:25 am
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
.:: beauty of a woman ::.


The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows.
The beauty of a woman
With time, only grows...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:48 pm
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Thursday, August 04, 2005
...isang walang sense na entry...

shocks... August na naman... actually kanina lang ako natauhan na August na pala... hehehe...
yung calendar ko kasi July pa din at kanina ko lang pinalitan...

parang ayaw ko pa nga ilipat yung month kasi isa lang ang ibig sabihin nun...
August na naman at another number na naman ang madadagdag sa age ko...
gosh... 25years old na ako!!!
it's my silver year already...

25 years old na ako this year...
sabi ng mommy ko 23 years old sya ng maging preggy sya sakin kaya super proud sya na 25 years na ako eh wala pa din akong baby... hehehe
natawa na lang ako sa sarili ko habang iniisip ko ang bagay na yun...
less than 2weeks from now magbabago na naman ang number ng age ko na isusulat ko sa lahat ng forms na i-fill-up ko... hehehe
hay naku number lang naman yun eh (as if di affected)... marami naman nagsasabi na i look like only 20years old... hehehe (o di ba)

di ko pa kasi matapos-tapos yung entry ko about sa climb ko last weekend... eh tagal ko na din alang entry d2 kaya naisipan ko na magsulat na lang ng kahit ano... kahit wlang sense... kaya sensya na kayo ha...

hayaan nyo pag natpos ko yung entry ko about dun post ko kagad together with the pics...

o sya tama na ang walang kwentang entry na ito at uuwi na ako...
6:50AM pa lang and2 na ako sa office at ayoko na magpagabi na naman ng uwi...

napansin ko lang ang entry ko pala na sinusundan nito... nagse-sentimyento din ako sa aga ng pagpasok ko...
at uulitin ko lang ulit... haaaaayyyyyyyy

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 07:31 pm
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
...haaaayyyyyy...

haaaaaayyyyy... at exactly 6:45am andito na ako sa office... had no choice eh... huhuhu :-(

anyways, had a great night again last night with my boy-friends... hehehe
kahit wala silang ginawa kundi asarin ako (what's new with that, di kumpleto araw nila pag di nila ako naasar... hehehe) we watched STEALTH kaya lang di naman ganun kaganda yung movie pero okei na din... it's been weeks na din kasi kami di nagkasama-sama. last time kasi si bf#2 lang kasama ko nanood ng THE ISLAND kasi busy yung dalawa... after the movie, uwi na kami... syempre nihatid nila ako sa bahay though gusto nila ako sumama sa kanila pero di pwede kasi kelangan ko nga pumasok ng office ng maaga today... kaya eto ako ngayon... nakatunganga lang dito naghihintay na mag-ring ang telepono kung may problem na itatawag... haaaaayyyyy

cge, kaya ko pa naman eh... hanggang kaya ko pa...
ang tanong masaya pa ba ako???
or wala na lang talaga ako choice...

hay naku... sana lang pwede ko gawin ito in reality... hehehe

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:13 am
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
.:: to you my ANGEL ::.

she says, "wen ur alone, i want you to look at the spaces on ur fingers... remember that once, those spaces fitted mine..."

and he replied, "and mine fitting urs!"

those were our last words to each other...
i don't know kung hanggang kelan... sabi nya TIME will be our only friend when it comes to both of US...

He maybe the most stubborn and selfish person i've ever known...
He maybe the most complicated guy as he says...
He maybe the cause of all my pain and sufferings...
He maybe the one who brought all the tears in my life...
He may not be the one meant for me to spent the rest of my life with...
He may not be there for me always for a reason...

but one thing i am sure of is that...

He's my ANGEL...
The most sweetest angel GOD sent to me...
The angel who showed me that i am capable of loving this much...
The angel who thought me how to be strong inspite of everything that comes...
The angel who cares...
The angel who only wants the best for me...
and most of all the angel who wishes nothing but my happiness...


to you my angel...
THANK YOU for everything...
You know how hard is this for me pero sabi mo nga "we will both get through dis wid HIS help..."

"TILL our TIME comes..."

S-H-M-I-L-Y

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 09:51 am
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005
.:: everything happens for a reason ::.

"Listen carefully to what your heart says, enjoy the feeling of being in love and do not worry too much about how things will work out, do not be afraid to love just because you are afraid to get hurt..."  

Sometimes people come into our life and we know right away that they were meant to be there... to serve some sort of purpose, teach us a lesson or help figure out who we are or who we want to become. We never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, we know that very moment that they will affect our life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to us at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection we realize that without overcoming those obstacles we would never realize our potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people we meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that we experience can create whom we are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts us, betrays us or breaks our heart, forgive them because they have helped us learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom we open our heart.

If someone loves us, we have to love them back unconditionally, not only because they love us, but also because they are teaching us to love and open our heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that we possibly can, for we may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom we have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let ourself fall in love, break free and set our sights high. Hold our head up because wou have every right to.

Tell ourself that we are a great individual and believe in ourself, for if we don't believe in ourself, no one else will believe in us. Create our own life and then go out and live it.


Share this with anyone whom you believe has made a difference in your life!

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see is obstacles."

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 06:53 pm
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.:: do u still want it??? ::.

LOVE...

is a ONE PLEASURE
and a THOUSAND SUFFERINGS...


now, do u still want the PLEASURE???

think about it...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 03:25 pm
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Monday, July 18, 2005
.:: sana lang ::.

sana sa pag-ibig wala nang napaglalaruan... wala nang nasasaktan at wala nang pinapaasa pa... kasi hindi biro ang masaktan... sobrang masakit, sobrang hirap makarecover lalo na pag ang nanakit sayo ay ang isang tao na sobra mong minahal...
sana wala nang naglalaro sa pag-iibig kasi ang paglalaro ay para sa bata lang na walang magawa... kaso parang merong taong talagang nang-aasar... hanggat minamahal mo sila lalo ka nilang niloloko at sinasaktan...

bakit ganun???
hindi ba sila pwedeng makuntento..

bakit nila ginagawa un???
para maging past time lang?!
para masabing may nagmamahal sa kanya?!
para may pang display?!
may masabing may career sila?!

sana wag naman,,dahil ang pag-iibig nararamdamn hindi dahil trip trip lang...
minsan nman may taong gugustuhin ka kasi iniwan xa nung isa...

bakit ganun????
kasi mahal ka na nya o wala lang mapagtripan kaya ka pinagtyatyagaan?!

minsan nman nagpapakatanga ka... pinipilit mo na mahal ka nya kahit alam mong may mahal syang iba...
bat mo gingawa un?!
mas mabuti pang kumalas kesa maging panakip butas...

sana sa mga taong mahilig maglaro sa pag-iibig...
sana maisip nila na may nasasaktan sila at sana alam nila na ok lang umiyak dahil sa taong minamahal nila at sa taong nagmamahal sa kanila kasi mas masakit umiyak dahil nakarma sila...

sana sa mga taong nakabasa nito...
kung isa ka man sa tinutukoy ko...
sana matauhan kana...
kesa sa araw-araw na nabubuhay ka... lagi kang nananakit at balewala sayo ang may nasasaktan..

eto ang tandaan nyo...

"MAS MASARAP UMIYAK DAHIL SA PAGMAMAHAL... KESA UMIYAK DAHIL SA KARMA!!!"

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 07:44 pm
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
i hope & pray

just this morning when i got home from gimik with my college friends i made a decision which i hope is right...
i was about to sleep 'coz i'm already tired na... both mind and body...
but then i get up again, sit in my bed and started to pray to HIM...


"Lord, please don't ever give up on him 'coz i already did that... i can no longer keep my promise that i won't ever give up on him... YOU're the only ONE who knows how much i love him and what i only want is his happiness... but today as his friend, at this very minute i am giving up... i don't know why but as i see him kanina alam ko na he no longer needs me... the way he acts, the way he looked at me, the way he talked to me and the way he treats me most of the time... i am no longer the friend he needs i guess... alam ko madaming beses ko na naramdaman ito pero most of the time binibigyan ko ng justification ang lahat ng nangyayari... maybe because at the back of my mind i'm still hoping that he's still the same old person i used to know... i hope i was wrong for thinking this way... i love him so much to the point that i am being stupid and harsh to myself...
Lord, i know i don't deserve this either... we both know how much YOU love us... alam ko kung gaano kami pareho kalakas sayo... ngayon ko lang po sasabihin ito (though alam ko naman na cguro alam nyo na) na there are times na nagtatampo ako SA'YO kasi minsan feeling ko bias ka... there are times that i kept on asking myself kung bakit kung pareho kami malakas sayo... bakit parang mas malakas pa rin sya... kasi sa kanya 2 kaming concern at nagmamahal and only wants was his happiness pero sya, there are times na he didn't care pero andyan pa rin kami for him...
Lord, today i am giving it all to YOU... it's not that i am tired of him... it's just that at this very moment i realized that as long as im here for him, allowing him to do all those things that we both know is not right he will stay that way which is not what i wanted for him... i know i have no rights to tell or say what was right or wrong for him but only YOU. i maybe selfish for saying this but i guess he really needs sometime to be alone with himself... to know more about his ownself... like what he told me before...
LORD, thanks for everything... for always being there for both of us, though we have failed YOU for so many times...
today LORD, i prayed more for him... more understanding, more patience...
'coz for now LORD, i cannot say that i am still here for him... YOU know how hard doing this for me that's why i am hoping that whatever decision i made right now was the right one for both of us especially for him...
i pray for YOUR enlightenment LORD...
Thank You.
AMEN."

after that prayer di ako nakatulog... kahit anong pilit ko pumikit at pilitin ang isip na makatulog na wala pa din hanggang sa sumikat na ang araw gising pa din ako... i decided to go to office na lang early at umuwi ng province 'coz i know there sumhow makakatulog ako ng maayos... ayoko na muna mag-isip ng kahit ano... cguro tama na muna ang pag-iisip... kung anuman ang mangyari... i know HE has good reasons for it...

as i was writing this one... inaantok pa din ako pero pinilit ko matapos ito... naghihintay ng oras dahil gusto ko na umuwi at gusto ko na matulog...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 01:47 pm
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Friday, July 15, 2005
.:: ikaw, ano gagawin mo??? ::.

"what if you had one day left, what would you do?"

>>last night i watched "If Only" ni Jennifer Lovehewitt with my best buddy. t'was a really nice movie na okei lang kahit ulit-ulitin ko... additional na naman sa collection of beatiful movies na gusto ko... hehehe

neweiz, let's go back with the movie...
i was really touched dun sa ginawa nung guy...
while watching it i kept on asking my buddy kung meron pa ba ganung guy sa mundo ngayon and she just answered me with a smile...

i even asked myself the same question...
"what if i had one day left, what would i do?"

till makauwi ako ng bahay, naglalaro sa isip ko ang tanong na yan...
while having my shower, pinipilit ko pa din masagot...
nakahiga na ako at tulad ng madaming gabi na nagdaan, nakatitig na naman ako sa 4 na sulok ng kawarto... nag-iisip... ano nga ba ang gagawin ko???
ni-assess ko ang nararamdaman ko...
maraming ideas ang pumasok sa isip ko...
ang mga gusto kong gawin... mga gusto kong sabihin...
umaandar ang oras... di ko namalayan past 12am na pala...
pinilit kong pumikit para makatulog na ako pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi talaga ako makatulog... naglalaro pa rin sa isip ko ang lahat ng bagay na gusto kong gawin at sabihin kung sakaling isang araw na lang ang natitira sa buhay ko...

pero kailangan ko pa bang hintayin ang araw na yun???
sa palagay ko hindi na...
habang may oras pa ako gagawin ko na lang ang mga bagay na gusto ko gawin...
at least alam ko na kung sakaling dumating man ang araw na yun... masaya na ako at wala akong regrets na hindi ko nagawa or nasabi...

hindi ko na alam kung anong oras na ako nakatulog pero feeling ko mag-uumaga na yun...
at hanggang ngayon habang ginagawa ko ito... iniisip ko pa din ang lahat...

hindi ko alam kung paao sisimulan pero at least ngayon may idea na ako kung ano ang gusto ko gawin... lam ko naman na di NYA ako papabayaan eh... lam ko na andyan SYA palagi for me...

and tulad pa din ng palagi kong sinasabi...

living for 5 seconds is the same as living for 50 years...
why wait for tomorrow if you can do it now...

LIVE LIFE as IF its your LAST...
'coz YOU'LL never KNOW what YOU'VE got till it's GONE...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:42 pm
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