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as what i've always said: "i'm UNIQUE and ONE of a KIND"...
i know there something in me... that inspite of whatever may happen in my day, i'm going to stay this way: trying and giving LIFE in the BEST WAY i know how...
keeping my spirits up and all things in perspective...
i know it's going to be OKAY...
i've made it thru difficult things before and i always land on my feet... i may not be dancing; may not be always sure about what to do next... but i always manage to figure things out... especially when i'm able to keep my SENSE of HUMOR and not lose my SMILE...
and if i'll just really think about it... i'll realize that i'm a very STRONG individual who knows what i wants and how to get it the best way i can...
someone who may not have all the answers but who is willing to HOPE, TRY and BELIEVE...
that i can see my way thru just about anything; it just all depends on how i look at it... and when people look at me, all they will see is someone who really is...
PRETTY AMAZING...
Whether i'm trying to endure or striving to endeavor, i'll just be the kind of person who can handle all kinds of WEATHER...



...SOMEONE whose ARMS will HOLD me when i'm WEAK
...SOMEONE whose EYES will SEE my UGLIEST
...SOMEOME whose HEART will LOVE me at my WORST
...coz when i find that SOMEONE, i know it's TRUE LOVE!

...SOMEONE who could DANCE with ME under the NIGHT SKY even without the MOON and the STARS... even without MUSIC playing... even if that SOMEONE can't dance well... but still dance with ME...



.:: Bcoz of Ur Love ::.
how can I see Your face
and receive Your loving grace
when I am here shamed in sin
hurting You deep within

yet everytime I run and flee
You take me home forgiving me
with the skies I feel Your touch
no other love can be this much

You are there as I hide
with Your arms open wide

for You alone have the greatest love
the world has ever known
a love that never ceases to embrace a weary heart
and give a brand new start
provides light where the sun has never shown
now I can understand
that I am here because of Your love

so I take Your gentle hand
only to sin again
and yet You turn then stubbornly
you take me home, forgiving me

how can love as great as this
even want to exist
oh God of all that's good and true
please believe I love You too

though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more

that I am here because...
you are there as I hide with Your arms open wide
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more nothing more

as You take me by the hand
that I am here because of Your love




This is meeh...
My name is...
My kiss is...erotic
My hugs are...warm
My eyes...twinkle in the moonlight
My touch is...heart warming
My smell is...amazing
My smile is...encouraging
My love is...one of a kind
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
.:: a reality check in a relationship ::.

"What a girl needs most is love.
What a guy needs most is respect.
The most important thing for a girl is her heart.
For a guy its his ego."

Give your man his own time and space...
Let him have his time for his friends, sports, family, self, and God. The relationship will grow old quickly if lagi kayong magkasama. Give him time to miss you and you'll see how he will love you more. If the guy naman is obsessed and just wants to be with you all the time, tell him you cant respect a "puppy" for long.
Do things differently anytime...
Discover something you both like to do and enjoy it TWOgether.Doon naman sa mga bagay na magkaiba ang hilig nyo, compliment each other by learning about it. If you love someone, yung effort nyo to try will go a looooong way to understanding him later pag may disagreement kayo.
Pray with holding hands...
Sounds corny noh? Maybe, but its very powerful. Pag may takot sa Diyos ang boyfriend mo, kampante ka na di ka nya lolokohin, because he knows God sees everything he does in secret. Ikaw na ang magkusa that before you part after date, with hold hands and eyes closed, pray to God to bless you two. Believe me it's effective. Kailanman, di corny ang magdasal.
Believe in "Magic"...
Kahit di minsan practical o walang logical na dahilan, o matrabaho, o sounds crazy sa iba, do sweet little things for the one you love kahit magmukha ka ng timang. The memories will be fun to recall later in life. True love brings out the best in each other. Find something good in your boyfriend and nurture it, encourage it and syempre, ENJOY it.
It's healthy to fight...
Doon nyo lang maaayos ang mga differences nyo at natetest ang tatag ng relationship. Doon mo rin sya makikilala ng mabuti. Its called test of fire. Di mahalaga how often you fight. What matters is how often you kiss and make up. Mas nakakatakot yung relasyong sobrang perfect at laging masaya. One big fight and that's it! And diba mas kilig yung malambing na... "uy, bati na tayo..."..but don't overdo it.
Don't sweat the small stuff...
Daraan sa iba't-ibang stages ang love especially pag matagal na kayo. Grow with it. Don't expect him to be like nung una. 'Coz like a student, di na ituturo sa grade 6 yung lessons na pang-grade 2. Change WILL happen... you both will change and your love WILL change too. It's up to you na lang if the change will be for the better or for the worse.
Life is about growth...
Grow with it. When break up comes and it's time to say goodbye, don't doubt the love just because it didn't last. May mga bagay sa buhay na di man nagtatagal, it doesn't mean di na ito totoo. Some good things are just never meant to last forever. Okay lang yon. Bless the parting and move on. Expect tears, sorrow, sleepless nights and pain. Ika nga "it's when you hurt the worse that you love the MOST." Kung di ka willing masaktan, wag ka na lang magmahal.

Life is a balance. And love is both holding on and letting go. Know when to fight for your man and when to let him go. God will guide you kung anong dapat gawin sa kung anong sitwasyon. So dapat mataas ang signal ng langit sa cellfone ng puso mo to know His wisdom.


--got this artik from one of the blogs in the bloggie world... i may not be in a relationship right now but still i can rely into into once i hook into another... i know that in one way or another, all of us will be in this kind of situation and i just want to share this to all of you guys out there... maging single or in a relationship man...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 03:39 pm
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Monday, August 22, 2005
.:: a weekend that was ::.

its been a week ko na nararamdaman ang sakit ng katawan ko na ito... di ko na lang pinapansin kasi lam ko na nman na posibleng nabigla lang ulit mga muscles ko dahil sa training... pero grabe di talaga ako pinatulog ng sakit last Saturday evening... buti na lang asa bahay ako...

neways, okei naman ang weekend ko...

gising na ako 5:00am ng Sat again para sa training... i waited for my teammate for almost 15mins kasi sabay ako sa kanya papunta ng CCP... buti na lang din hindi ako masyado nag-row kasi i was already training as a signal (in short tagpag-utos ng gagawin nila... hehehe) nakakatuwa na nakakainis kasi daming beses ako pumalpak sa counting ko... (hello... d naman kasi ganun kadali ang mag-signal... if i were to choose, i'd rather row na lang kesa mag-signal...)
stay din kami sa mabaho at maduming Manila Bay for almost 1.5hours...
sabi nga ng isa sa tema mate ko...
ang rowing ay para sa mga taong gustong gumising ng maaga... para sa maga taong gustong malanghap ang mabahong amoy ng bay, para sa mga taong gustong masigawan at higit sa lahat para sa mga taong gustong sumakit ang katawan... (lalo na pag baguhan ka lang... been there)

after ng training, uwi na ako kasi may appointment pa ako ng 10am sa Robinsons Place-Manila... meet ko kasi yung pinag-orderan ko ng Korean Series na ipapadal ko sa tita ko sa Italy... buti pa yun makakarating na dun... i arrived there early at actually di pa sya bukas at my gosh ang dami na kagad ng tao... kasi naman pala SALE... kaya ayun pagbukas na pagbukas ng mall, nagmamadali ang mga tao... si ako naman nakisabay na din since wala pa sa location yung kausap ko... tingin-tingin at ikot-ikot muna ako... haaayyyy, buti na lang eksakton pera lang ang dala ko at di ko rin dala ang credit card ko... kung nagkataon patay na naman ang budget ko... kaya after ko meet yung kausap ko at makuha yung mga vcd's diretso na ako uwi kesa ma-temp pa ako na bumili kasi may natira pa ako 700 sa wallet ko...

pagdating ko ng dorm, ayos ko lang things ko tapos alis na ulit ako at diretso na ng ofc... i arrived there at exactly 11:55 AM so pwede na ako umalis ng 3:55PM... haaaaayyyy, tagal maghintay ng oras ha tsaka gusto ko na umuwi ng bahay at magpahinga... bigat pa naman ng dala kong bag (2weeks na maduduming damit... hehehe) at exaxtly 3:55PM nga sa swipe machine nag-out na ako... byahe na pauwi ng probinsya... gusto ko man matulog sa bus hindi ko magawa kasi lalaki ang nakatabi ko (mahirap na... hehehe) haaaayyyy, medyo trapik pa sa south super hi-way kaya mag 6PM na ako nakarating ng bahay... sarap ng feeling ng makauwi (ewan ko ba kung bakit masarap sa bahay pero madalang naman ako umuwi dun... ironic no???) kahit basang basa na ng mga laway ng mga bulilit kong pinsan ang pisngi ko s amga kiss nila... wala akong pakialam, kasi ang sarap ng feeling na alam ko na sobrang na-miss nila ako...

kain ako ng dinner... sobrang sarap talaga ng lutong bahay... tinolang native na chicken, ginisang kabute (mushroom) at take note hindi yung asa lata na mushroom ha at tsaka dinuguan... pero sa tinola at ginisang kabute pa lang solve na solve na ako... dami ko na naman nakain
after ko kumain punta ako sa bahay ng lola ko at kumakain na din sila pero may kakaiba dun... may pipino at syempre it's mah favorite kaya kain na naman ako...
after dinner, punta kami ng pinsan ko dun sa isang bahay ng mga pinsan namin na malapit lang kasi may birthday party the following day... may videoke kasi at syempre madaming tao... typical na okasyon sa probinsya... (hindi mo na kailangan magbayad ng makakatulong kasi kusa silang nagdadatingan...) at dun nakita ko din ang mga forever crush... hehehe (hanggang crush lang kasi ako sa kanya kasi lam ko magpinsan kami... hahaha) though sa tuwing magkikita kami at mapapadaan sya sa bahay namin lam ko naman na may lihim din syang pagtingin sakin... (hahaha wish... ) syempre birthday party kaya daming kailangan prepare at tumulong na din kami sa pag-prepare... daming bllopers na nangyari sa preparation hehehe...
10:30PM uwi na kami ng mga mommy ko... pagdating ko ng bahay nanonood pa ng tv sister ko pero di na kaya ng powers ko at sobrang sakit na talaga ng katawan ko kaya natulog na ako...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

7am the next day gising na ako kasi ang iingay na ng mga bata... naglalaro kaya kahit gusto ko pa matulog hindi na din ako makatulog... gumising na lang ako at nakpiaglaro sa kanila... hehehe
after breakfast, prepare na kami para dun sa birthday party ng pinsan ko... sooooobraaaaaang dami ng tao... imagine ba naman na 5baboy na ang kinatay nila nagkulang pa rin kaya nagpahabol at nagkatay pa ulit sila ng isa... my gosh... ibang klase talaga ang handaan sa probinsya... wala ako masabi...
sa sobrang dami ng tao... sobrang init na din kaya naisipan namin na umuwi na lang muna ng bahay mga around 2PM at nood na lang sana kami nung Korean movie na dala ko kaya lang brown-out naman... kainis... natulog na lang ako pero saglit lang din kasi ang init ng panahon... mga after 30mins nagkaroon na ng kuryente kaya ayun tuloy na namin yung panood nung Korean moveis na dala ko... nauna namin pinanood yung "SEAWIND"... okei lang sya hindi ganun kaganda unlike yung sunod na pinanood namin na "A MOMENT TO REMEMBER"... na sa sobrang ganda ng story nya kahit ang tita ko napaiyak... at eto ang isang line dun na hindi ko talaga makalimutan from that movie...

"FORGIVING is giving HATE a piece of empty room in our HEART..."

hindi tuloy ako nakasabay sa pinsan ko ng pagbalik ng Manila dahil tinapos ko sya pero actually ayoko pa naman talaga bumalik ng Manila that time... hehehe
after ng movie, punta ulit kami ng mommy ko dun sa haus ng pinsan ko... at sobrang nagulat ako na gabi na dating at dating pa din ang bisita... my golly gosh talaga... hehehe
ayun, kain na naman sia ako pero desert lang naman habang pinanood ko yung mga nagkakantahan sa videoke... at isa na nga dun yung crush ko... hehehe... buti na lang hindi nya alam na crush ko sya... habang pinapanood ko sila, lumapit sakin yung isang pinsan ko na guy na andun din sa mga nagkakantahan... tagal-tagal ko na din sila hindi nakaka-kwentuhan tulad ng dati na halos palagi kami magkakasama na tumatambay... ngayon kasi sila na lang yun... sabi nga samin (mga forever na tambay sila... hehehe... dun sila masaya eh...) kinumusta nya ako at ang walang kamatayang tanong na

"kelan ka mag-aasawa???"

haaaayyyy, kung pwede ko lang i-taped ang sagot para sa tuwing magtatanong sila eh play ko na lang ang sasabihin ko... sabi ko na lang sa kanya, magahahanap muna ako ng bf bago ako mag-asawa... sabay ngiti na lang sa kanya... tapos sabi nya sakin... "ayan pili ka na sa mga andyan" gusto ko sana ituro sa kanya yung crush ko kaya lang... hehehe
pero natawa ako nung sya mismo ang nagturo sakin sa crush ko... "ayun gusto mo?" sabi nya... kaya lang maysabit pa yan ngayon eh... (aaayyyy, may gf na pala sya...) tapos sabay sagot naman ni crush ng... "pwede naman i-break yun eh..." o di ba sabi ko na nga ba may hidden desire din sya sakin eh... hehehe (sana nga lang pwede kami...) pero puro sulyap na lang ata talaga kami sa isa't isa eh... ng magsawa sila sa pagkanta... kami naman ng mga pinsan ko ang bumanat... kanya-kanya ng pili song na kakantahin pero hindi muna ako kumanta kasi andun pa sya eh... (shy ako sa kanya... hihihi) kaya nung umalis na sila dun lang ako kumanta... tagal din namin nagkantahan at kahit sobrang antok na antok na ako wala akong nagawa kasi hindi maubos-ubos ang number sa screen ng videoke...
exactly 2AM ng makauwi ako ng bahay...
diretso tulog kasi gigising pa ako ng maaga...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

6:00AM an alarm ko pero 5:30 pa lang nagising na ako sa boses ng mga pinsan ko kasi masasaya sila at wala silang pasok... buti pa sila..... waaahhhhhhhhh

samantalang ako...
puyat pero kailangang pumasok...

8:45Am, and2 na ako sa office...
eto inaantok pa din hanggang ngayon...
at buti na lang walang masyadong load at hindi toxic kaya nakakapag-power nap...

haaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy...
gusto ko na umuwi at matulog...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:24 am
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Friday, August 19, 2005
change na naman!!!

pansin nyo change na naman ako ng blog address ko...
sabi kasi ng isang friend ko stop na muna daw ako ng pagsulat sa blog ko para makalimutan ko na sya totally at para wala na din syang updates on my what/whereabouts...

pero hindi ko kaya eh...
hindi ko na kaya ang hindi mag blog...
na-adik na din ata ako dito...

kaya eto binago ko na lang ang url niya... (at wish ko lang hindi na nya malaman ito para wala na din sya mabasa...)
cguro nga tama silang lahat...
tama silang lahat na ako din ang nagpapahirap sa sarili ko for always entertaining the thought of him... (katulad ngayon... but this time it was different i know...)

ilang beses ko na ba binalak i-delete ang blog na ito???
at ilang beses ko na ba inisip na tumigil sa pagsusulat ng tungkol sa kanya...
pero lahat ng yun binalak ko lang dati...
ngunit ngayon desidido na ako...

desidido na ako na tanggalin sya ng tuluyan sa buhay ko...
kung pwede nga lang burahin ko na sya sa ala-ala ko... pero alam ko naman na hindi pwede kasi kahit na ilang beses pa ako makabuo ng 9weeks na novena sa baclaran... malabong mangyari ang gusto ko... ang tanging magagawa ko lang ay ang tulungan ang sarili ko...

tulungan ang sarili ko dahil para din naman sakin ito...
dahil habang patuloy ko syang hinahayaan na maging parte ng buhay ko...
patuloy pa rin akong masasaktan...
sabi nga ng isang friend ko...
"STOP MAKING YOURSELF SPECIAL FOR HIM AND ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU'RE JUST NOBODY TO HIM..."

at yung isang friend ko naman...
"HELP YOURSELF TO HEAL YOUR OWN WOUND..."

buti pa nung bata ako... pag nasusugatan ako nasaktan at umiyak man ako... sandali ko lang nararamdaman... itutulog ko lang pag-gising ko handa na akong masugatan at masaktan ulit...

buti na lang madami akong TRUE FRIENDS...
yung di ako iniiwan...
na kahit paulit-ulit lang ang naririnig nilang rason sakin kung bakit ako umiiyak... patuloy pa din nila akong pinapakinggan...

there are so many reasons nga for me to be happy...
matigas lang kasi ang ulo ko na minsan mas gusto ko yung pansamantalang happiness lang instead of na pang-matagalan...
aminado naman ako na palagi akong nagmamadali eh...
samantalang ako mismo ang palaging nagsasabi na "baby steps lang..."

masama pa din ang loob ko...
mabigat man sa dibdib na may kinikimkim akong sama ng loob ngayon... siguro hayaan ko na lang muna at hintayin na lang na ang panahon ang kusang magpawi nito... hindi naman siguro masama yun lalo na kung para naman ito sa sarili ko...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 07:45 pm
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
.:: beginning today ::.

Beginning today i will no longer worry about yesterday... it is in the past and the past will never change... only i can change by choosing to do so...

Beginning today i will no longer worry about tomorrow... tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it.. i cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today...

Beginning today i will look in the mirror and i will see a person worthy of my respect and admiration... this capable person looking back at me is someone i enjoy spending time with and someone i would like to get to know better...

Beginning today i will cherish each moment of my life... i value the gift bestowed upon me in this world and i will unselfishly share this gift with others...

Beginning today i will make a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries i encounter... i will face challenges with courage and determination... i will overcome what barriers there maybe which hinder my quest for growth and self improvement.

Beginning today i will take the life one day at a time, one step at a time... discouragement will not be allowed to taint my positive self-image, my desire to suceed or my capacity to love...

Beginning today i walk with renewed faith in human kindness... regardless of what has gone before... i believe there is hope for a brighter and better future...

Beginning today i will open my mind and my heart... i will welcome new experiences... i will meet new people... i will not expect perfection form myself nor anyone else: perfection does not exist in an imperfect world... but i will applaud the attempt to overcome human foibles...

Beginning today i am responsible for my own happiness and i will do things that make me happy... admire the beautiful wonders of nature, listen to my favorite music, pet a puppy, soak in a bubble bath... PLEASURE, can be found in the most simple of gestures...

Beginning today i will learn something new; i will try something different; i will savour all the variou flavors life has to offer... i will change what i can and the rest i will let go...

"i will strive to become the best me i can possibly be..."

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:45 pm
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08.17.05...12:00am

i welcomed my birthday with tears in my eyes... but i promised myself that it would be the last time i will cry!!!

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 09:51 am
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Monday, August 15, 2005
jologs na kung jologs...

since wala ako tulog ng Sat night hindi ko na nagawang mag-attend ng training ng rowing...
nagising ako sa text message ng isang college friend ko asking kung asa dorm lang ako... aya kasi sya mag-simba ng afternoon then watch a movie after... since asa bahay mga pinsan ko na nag-stay dun for weekend sinabi ko na lang sa kanya na text ko sya kung wala kami plans for the day...

pero after lunch lumabas kami ng mga pinsan ko... punta kami ng glorietta and decided to watch D'Anothers... i thought after having a not so very nice day the other day, kailangan ko mag-relax at mag-enjoy para di na ako mag-isip ng kung anu-ano pa...
walang scene na hindi ako tumatawa as in humahalakhak pa ata ako... hehehe
i am not fond of watching tagalog movies (unless si Piolo Pascual ang bida... hehehe) pero watching that movie was a good decision i made yesterday...
i don't care kung "jologs" man ang tawag nila sa mga taong nanunuod ng mga ganung klase ng movie pero ang importante nag-enjoy ako at di nasayang ang pera na pinambili ko ng tiket...
habang nanonood ako, naka-ilang miss call ang friend ko sakin cguro naghihintay pa din sya kung matutuloy kaming dalawa... kaya text ko na lang sya na kung gusto nya attend kami ng 7:15 mass sa GBelt since asa Glorietta na din naman ako pero kasama ko pa mga cousin ko... so in short, may commitment pa ako sa kanya after namin manood... pero okei lang

lumabas kami ng movie house past 5pm at yung mga cousin ko they decided na maglalaro na lang sila sa Netopia with my cousin's bf habang kami ng isang pinsan ko ay mag-iikot at maghahanap ng pwede mabili... hay, sumakit na naman ang paa sa kakahanap ng blouse at sya ng shoes...
by 7pm, meet ko na yung friend ko sa near the GBelt chapel...

ganda ng homily ni father...
"see you in heaven..."

after ng mass nauna na umuwi mga cousins ko...
me and my friend had dinner and as usual tulad ng mga weekends na magkasama kaming dalawa, di kami nauubusan ng kwento sa isa't isa...
ewan ko nga ba... hehehe

dapat manonood kami ng movie kaya lang yung 1030 na ulit ang start and naisip namin na masyado na late matatapos kung manonood pa kami... kaya nag-timezone na lang kaming dalawa... nagpalipas ng oras dun at pagkatapos we decided to have coffee na lang... stay kami ng starbucks for more than an hour din siguro...

11:30pm asa bahay na ako...

i thought di na naman ako makakatulog kasi nag-coffee pa ako...
pero i had a very good night sleep...

cguro dahil kay "Jesus Resurrection" ng D'Another's
hehehe...
kidding aside...

cguro dahil nagsimba ako at muli nailapit ko sa kanya ang lahat ng gumugulo sa isip ko...
nakapag-pasalamat sa lahat ng pang-unawa, pag-gabay at walang katapusang biyaya...
at higit sa lahat...
naihingi ko ng tawad ang mga kasalanan na nagawa ko...
 

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 02:05 pm
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
haaaayyyy... another sleepless night...

d na naman ako makatulog...
hindi ko alam kung dahil sa pagod o dahil sa kaka-isip ko sa nangyari sakin ngayong araw na ito...

na-experienced nyo na ba ang magpa-hula???
well, i really have no intention of doing it kasi i do believe that GOD has good plans for me and i don't dwell on that "hula" thing... but what happened to me and my friend arlene today made me really think of it...

after a "not so good day" (wag nyo na lang alamin kung bakit not so good day kasi ayoko na isipin...), we decided to go to Robinsons Place para magpalipas ng oras at sya ng inis or should i say "galit"... yep, she's the one who's really angry on what happend to both of us though i told her already not to 'coz i know that it might really happen and i am ready for it but still i insist, so it's all my fault...
kaya ayun nag-shopping galore na lang kaming dalawa... she helped me na makapili ng shoes and sandals...
tsakit na nga paa ko kaka-sukat ng sapatos hanggang sa makapili sya ng shoes for me which i liked also... after namin magbayad naisip nya na meron sya free movie tiket ng Rob kaya she decided na watch na lang kami ng movie... wala sa plans pero wala naman kami pareho gagawin at gusto namin pareho makalimutan ang nangyari the whole day so nanood kami ng BEWITCHED... it was a nice movie and as usual habang nanonood kami di namin maiwasan dalawa ang mag-comment ng kung anu-ano... hehehe (ang dami kasing dialogue na sapul samin eh...)

after watching we decided to go home na... paglabas namin ng mall nagtatalo kaming dalawa kung magta-taxi or mag-fx kami... but i insist na mag-taxi na lang kami para mas comfortable... pag sakay namin ng taxi i just looked at her and told her something about what happened earlier... then suddenly the taxi driver commented "kinakabahan ka iha cguro malapit na ang bday mo... kelan ba ang bday mo?" tanong ni manong...

nagkatinginan kami ng friend ko and she answered back that it's my bday pero si manong driver hindi convince so he asked again kung kelan bday ko... so para lang wala na discussion i answered him na lang and told him that my birthday will be coming nga on the 17th... i saw him when he looked at me in the mirror and told me this...

"iha, isa kang tanga at bobo pagdating sa pag-ibig... stick to one ka kung magmahal pero ibinibigay mo ang lahat pagdating sa pag-ibig..."

ouch... i looked at my friend and both of us looked at the taxi driver then asked "manong, bakit alam nyo???"

he then started telling me more about myself which are all TRUE...
my way of life, my likes and dislikes... everything as if he knew me a long time ago...
he even told me that i will be out of the country and there, i will meet my destiny and found my true happiness... he told me that i'll get married by the age of 28-30... but i won't get involved into any relationship right now...

i really don't know how to react on everything that he says...
it's all true, sabi ko sa sarili ko...
i just asked him "manong, itinakda ba kami na sumakay sa taxi nyo para malaman ang lahat ng ito???"
he just looked at me in the mirror and answered me with a smile...
he also asked for my friend's birthdate who at first was hesistant to give it but the manong driver insisted for it...
in short, hinulaan din nya yung friend ko at both of us was amazed kasi lahat talaga totoo...
we gave him some other birthdates of other person's that we knew and everything that he told us about those persons are all true on how we knew them...

di ba nakakapagtaka???
pano nalaman ni manong driver ang lahat???
pano nya nasasabi ang lahat ng sinasabi nya samin???

nauna ako bumaba ng taxi pero before ako bumaba he told me one more thing (which i'd rather not write in here...)
and that i guess is the reason why i can't sleep now...

haaaaaayyyyyy...
ayoko paniwalaan ang lahat ng narinig ko...

pero...

andun p din ang pero sa isip ko...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:33 pm
what the soul says (1)  

Friday, August 12, 2005
where would i be???

5 days before my birthday...
i am still thinking what to do on the day of my birthday...
as much as i wanted to spent my birthday with that special person, i know that it can never be and i don't know if it will happen again...
i don't know if i will still be given a chance to celebrate my birthday with that special person just like before...
i can still remember the time when that special person would wake me up at 12:00am on my birthday with a cake, to greet me and give me hugs and kisses...
those two years of spending my birthday with that special person seems like a lifetime for me...

last year i just waited for my birthday, alone in a chapel...
i stayed there til the clock turns 12:00am hoping that he will come but he did not for a reason i guess...

and this year, where would i be when the clock turns to 12:00am of Aug. 17???
i don't know yet...

i'm tired of hoping...


but...
maybe...


just maybe...

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:52 pm
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.:: what's in a name? ::.

hey jan, natuwa din ako kaya i try it also... and sabi mo nga "most" of the results are "true" so i posted it here... hiniram ko na din ang title mo ha... thanks :-)
you guys out there, try nyo din...
here's the link...


There are 15 letters in your name.
Those 15 letters total to 77
There are 6 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 5

The characteristics of #5 are: Expansiveness, visionary, adventure, the constructive use of freedom.

The expression or destiny for #5:
The number 5 Expression endows with the wonderful characteristic of multi-talents and versatility. You can do so many things well. The tone of the number 5 is constructive freedom, and in your drive to attain this freedom, you will likely be the master of adaptability and change. You are good at presenting ideas and knowing how to approach people to get what you want. Naturally, this gives you an edge in any sort of selling game and spells easy success when it comes to working with people in most jobs. Your popularity may lead you toward some form of entertainment or amusement. Whatever you do, you are clever, analytical, and a very quick thinker.

If there is too much of the 5 energy in your makeup, you may express some the negative attitudes of the number. Your restless and impatient attitude may keep you from staying with any project for too long. Sometimes you can be rather erratic and scatter yourself and your energies. You have a hard time keeping regular office hours and maintaining any sort of a routine. You tend to react strongly if you sense that your freedom of speech or action is being impaired or restricted in any way. As clever as you are, you may have a tendency to make the same mistakes over and over again because much of your response is glib reaction rather that thoughtful application. You are in a continuous state of flux brought by constantly changing interests.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 12:31 pm
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
.:: this too shall pass ::.

If I can endure for this minute
Whatever is happening to me,
No matter how heavy my heart is
Or how dark the moment may be-
If I can remain calm and quiet
With all the world crashing about me,
Secure in the knowledge God loves me
When everyone else seems to doubt me.
If I can but keep on believing
What I know in my heart to be true,
That darkness will fade with the morning
And that this will pass away, too-
Then nothing in life can defeat me
For as long as this knowledge remains
I can suffer whatever is happening
For I know God will break all of the chains
That are binding me tight in the darkness
And trying to fill me with fear-
For there is no night without dawning
And I know that my morning is near.

-Anonymous-

SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 05:32 pm
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