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Saturday, September 17, 2005
.:: SomeOne SomeWhere ::.
>> missing the bloggie world so much... it's been a week since my last entry... sobrang toxic kasi ako for the past days learning PHP and VB.Net (kailangan kasi d2 sa office)... for almost a week 10pm na ako nakakauwi ng bahay and no more time for gimiks and to my favorite show PBB(Pinoy Big rother, i miss JB already... hehehe)
and today as i was checking my yahoo mail na paminsan minsan ko na lang magawa (kasi minsan lang may yahoo connection) this message from my inbox got my attention... without any hesitation, i opened and read it... i have no idea who the sender is but it was addressed to me...
Someone Somewhere
Perhaps far, perhaps near
Is made just for me
To share all secrets, to share all sorrows,
To share the happiness, to share tomorrow,
I have a picture in my mind
sometimes I think I have found
Then I think I have to find
She is beautiful, intelligent
She is sweet and innocent
Honest, lovely, true and pure
Of all my pains, she will be cure
If I rise, or I fall
She will be with me
In between no wall
May God help me to reach her
and give her urge to find me
We shall make for both the worlds
A perfect pair
SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE
>> after reading it, i can really feel the HOPE from the writer's heart...
wishing and longing for her special someone to share his life with... this poem may not really meant for me ('coz it came in the internet world... ) but it touches my whole being and i really appreciate that somehow it landed in my inbox... knowing that in the other side of the world there is someone whos like me, is looking forward to meet that special somebody really meant to spend my whole life with...
for those people who kept on asking why i don't have a new boyfriend yet and concluded that maybe i am not yet over with my past...
my answer is just a simple smile and saying that maybe GOD is not yet finished "molding the right man" for me...
"i am not in hurry to meet the person whom i'll spend the rest of my life with... just knowing that he's just right there and like me preparing for the right time to come is enough for me to hold on to..."
 SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 03:40 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: SomeOne SomeWhere ::.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
.:: love will always find a way ::.
It's almost 8pm and my stomach is already screaming for food. It's a Saturday night and eating dinner alone isn't exactly an interesting idea. I have to admit that being single and loveless sometimes sucks.
This is one of those moments where I wish I had someone I could just grab to dinner with. Therefore, I have no other choice but to go to my favorite restaurant and have my fill. After ordering my favorite Caesar's Salad and Chicken Alexander, I noticed an old couple who just came in. They are dressed rather formally as if this ordinary Saturday night calls for such. Though quite thin, the old man still has that stature full of male aura as if he is 40 years younger. He has his right arm wrapped naturally around the shoulder of his wife.
The old woman may have lost the glamour and beauty she once had in her younger years, but she has that smile on her face I could never forget. This is the actual scene as I first saw them. As if destined for me to meet this old couple, the restaurant happens to be full at that time, and being alone, they came directly to my table and asked if they could share it with me. But of course!
This is better than being alone. I just wish these two are still coherent and I wouldn't have to put up with stories of the World War 2 and how they undyingly waited for each other. Gosh! I didn't want to have a scrappy love story s my side dish!
So I sat there silently pretending to be texting. I never had the chance to be close with my grandma and grandpa so I am not so comfortable with the oldies. They started talking about some guy named Jake. He is probably their son who's going to pick them up later. They immediately gave their orders, making side comments about the food and giggling over some silly joke they only understand. How very natural for both of them to be still enjoying each other's company. I sat there envying their exchange.
The old woman talked to me first. Being the woman that she is, she probably read my mind. She said "I am 68 years old and 40years ago, I was also having dinner alone when I realized that I would be happier living the rest of my life with somebody I love". And when she said that, she held the hand of her husband. It was one very unusually striking sentence to have said to a stranger as if she knew me and why I am lone. After some introductions on names, work and family, we have serious discussions about politics and economy. I thought I had some safe topics a hand when suddenly the old man asked me..
"How could a smart and beautiful woman like you be eating alone on a Saturday night?".
Bummer. I am asking the same question myself. Therefore, I get to tell them about my first love gone astray; how unfaithfulness ruined my three-year relationship and how I have never fallen in love again.
Then the old couple told me their story:
OLD MAN: Today is our 40th year wedding anniversary. We were married when we were 28. She wasn't my first love nor I hers. When I fell in love with her, she was still hook up with her first love then. I taught her to bury her past. I made her realized that she has to risk loving again or end up being imprisoned by the wrong notion that true love does not exist. Mr. Right isn't just going to pop up and save her from her distress. She also has to open her eyes to find him and be happy again. I knew that I am her Mr. Right. We led a happy marriage. Even after the first taste of passionate years ebbed, we still enjoyed each other's company, as we remained good friends. But like any other marriages, ours is also not a bed of roses. A highly principled man that I thought I was, I have to admit that I became unfaithful too and bore a son with another woman. The mother happens to be my first love.
It broke my heart as I stared into her eyes and her first teardrops fell when I told her about my son, Jake. I wanted her to scream at me, hit me, and be angry. She just cried and cried. The following morning, she left me with our daughter. It was the end of the world for me...
OLD WOMAN: 40 years ago, I made a decision never to fall in love again. Like you in my teens and early twenties, I once love and lost. We were a perfect couple then. Until I lost my first love to another woman. The excruciating pain of lost love and the reality of betrayal has wounded me deeply. I vowed never to fall in love again. Then my husband came and offered his undying friendship. Yes! We were very good friends first before we became lovers. I prayed to God so He will give me a sign if he is the right man for me. It was a less-than-a-year-romance and we decided to marry. He taught my heart well... well enough to make me whole and find real happiness that true love brings. I finally found my Mr. Right. However, life is not a fairy tale and I have to endure another episode of broken heart. I thought true love is a force field deflecting threats. But maybe his love is not enough to keep his sanctified vow. After 12 years of marriage, I walked out of his life.
Wow! This was only halfway of their story. It was so touching and heartbreaking... but during the whole time that they were talking, they kidded with each other, teased each other with their first love and even pretended to fight. I thought, the story they just shared has made a lasting impression on each of their lives and made their relationship what it is now. I can tell that they have been to worst times indeed, as they came out scarred but beautiful persons. I wanted to go home and cry. I now wish to grow old with someone I love after all.
We were now eating our desserts. I love the chocolate mousse! Hehehe! So dying to hear the rest of their story... I asked them how they reconciled-
"We never did." Said the old man.
I was speechless.
The old man continued... "When I heard that my wife got back from the states after 28 years, I went to see her this morning. An old man saying these things my sound so "corny" but I told her exactly these:
I spent 28 years of my existence without a life because she is my life. And even when she left me and never took me back, she still owns my heart until the day that I will die. Yes, I have been unfaithful because of my lustful desires. But the loyalty of my true love is solely for her. And though I can never undo the mistake I have done, I could not force myself to disengage my love for her. This, I know is true love. Only true love can survive such death that I feel for 28 years when she was not with me by my side.
Today/tonight, I feel alive because she is with me. I am so happy when I saw her still wearing our wedding ring as a pendant in her necklace. This is the first time we have dinner together after she left me. And you are here to witness it.
The old woman simply said,
"I love him too much to be with him again because if I lost him for the 2nd time, I would not be able to bear it. For 28 years, I wondered if he married again or not after our annulment granted. I never asked our daughter. They never talked to me about him. This morning, I do remember it is our anniversary. But I never expected to see him or even talked to him. I saw that he is still wearing our wedding ring.
Oh, the old woman's heart jumped!
We chatted with each other the whole day as we used to do in our younger years. We laughed a lot. We teased each other. We talked about the good times and the odd and how ugly we became. Age may have taken away our physical attributes but it cannot steal away the feelings we have for each other.
"Did we regret the past 28 years? We will not be talking about regrets. Today, we are what we are because of our choices. We cannot change what happened. But we can always change now and tomorrow..."
And so before we left after 2 hours at Blueberry's, they confidently told me these:
Do call us when you decide to marry and we will be there to celebrate it with you. Love will find you because your eyes seek for it. Love will stay with you because your heart willing to give it away.
Choose well and be happy!
What a Saturday night! I came home lighthearted with a new hope.
Love will always find a way...
>>>>> another heart warming story from the bloggie world...
being in the single scene for almost a year and half, sobrang naka-relate ako sa story...
ilang beses na ba ako kumain ng lunch at dinner ng mag-isa??? di ko na ata matandaan... even watching movies pag walang gimik ng friday night maraming beses ko din ginawa... staying in the mall and window shopping na mag-isa para lang magpalipas ng oras at hindi maging idle ang isip eh ginagawa ko din minsan...
i'm not saying that i didn't enjoy those times that i am all alone doing all those things... (only me, myself and i... it's just that sometimes i can't deny to myself na iba pa rin talaga ang feeling na may kasama ako gawin and mga bagay that i enjoyed doing...
pero sabi nga di ba... it's not how long you wait lalo na kung it's worth the wait naman...
madaming beses na akong nagmadali sa mga bagay na gusto ko mangyari sa buhay ko... minsan hindi ko na naiisip na baka may mas magandang plans talaga for me kasi ginagawa ko lang ang mga bagay na maisipan ko... pero still wala naman akong regrets (tulad ng palagi ko sinasabi...) 'coz in one way or another may natutuhan naman ako sa lahat ng nangyari sakin...
and i just wanted to share also this qoute to all my single friends/readers out there who in one way or another is searching for their one true love:
"You have searched for true love in your way. But MY ways are not your ways. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must trust ME with the pen of this precious area of your life. Will you let ME write your love story?" - taken from the book "When GOD Writes your Love Story"
i'm not yet finish reading this book and while reading it, i even asked myself, "am i ready to let HIM do it for me???" and as i open every single pages of this book my heart and mind has been opened also and my views about life and love changes too...
still, there are some questions left unanswered but i should not hold on to those unanswered one but have to accept the fact that maybe those questions should be left that way...
GOD has good plans for you and me...
for all of us...
all we need to do is to let HIM in and trust HIM with all our heart...
here's another one:
"Sometimes when we are in a relationship, we get so completely caught up in our feelings and senses that we squeeze God way into the background. Then, the whole thing becomes a confusing mess. At this point, we may wonder why God is not giving us more direction, but He is always there, just pushed back by us. He is just waiting to be allowed back into first place so we will be able to HEAR what He is saying to us and how he is directing our lives. Only when he is in first place are we ready for a God-written love story. Think about it. When you take God out of the center of your very own world, everything sweet, tender, pure and amazing is sure to follow quickly."
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:14 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: love will always find a way ::.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
LORD, lam ko pong alam mo na yung reason ko kung bakit para sa IYO ito...
YOU really deserve this entry...
just like those times na tumatawag ako sayo pag hindi ko na kaya ang lahat...
For all those times na kailangan KITA, hindi mo ako binigo at iniwan...
Forgive me for all those times na nakikita MO na nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa... for those times na gusto ko na bumigay and those times na nakakalimutan ko IKAW kasi masaya ako...
and today YOU did it again... ibang klase talaga pag IKAW ang kumilos...
speechless na po ako... hindi ko alam kung panong way ko mapaparating sayo yung THANK YOU na gusto ko iparating... lam ko naman po na ginagawa ko pa lang ito, alam mo na kung ano ang gusto ko sabihin...
i just wanted to post this song by Gary V... lam ko kasi na bagay sakin ito eh... :-)
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Take Me Out Of The Dark
Just what is it in me? sometimes I just don't know
what keeps me in your love, why you never let me go
And though you're in me now, I fall and hurt you still
My Lord please show me how to know just how you feel
You have forgiven me too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call a worthy Christian after all
And though I love you so temptations finds it's way to me
Teach me to trust in You with all of my heart
to lean not on my own understanding
coz' I just forget, You won't give me what i can't bear
Take me out of the dark My Lord I don't want to be there,ooh,hah
You never left my side You gave Your hand to me
to hold You,oh Jesus... I'm no longer in the cold
And yet I leave You there when I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You everyday not only when I feel that way
I've never known a man who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet because He loves us so He promised us eternity
And we can have His promise and be His if we have faith and just believe..
Teach us to trust in You with all our heart
to lean not on our own understanding
cause we just forget You won't give us what we can't bear
Take us out of the dark our Lord We don't want to be there
Yeah, My Lord
Teach me to trust in You with all of my heart
to lean not on my own understanding
'cause I just forget You might give me what I can't bear
Take me out of the dark My Lord i don't want to be alone
You take me out of the dark My lord
i don't want to be there, ooh,ooh...hah...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 05:42 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: this is for HIM ::.
Monday, September 05, 2005
--A Prayer of Forgiveness--
Lord Jesus, how difficult for me
to treat with forgiving love
those who have offended me!
Vengeulness rages in my heart, and
in my thirst for getting even, I dare call "justice"
what is only bitter revenge.
But you tell me:
"Relent! Forgive!
Correct your eering brother or sister
with patient love.
Remember the times when you hurt other people,
and your deep yearning to be forgiven.
Remember my command that you treat others
the way you would like to be treated."
Lord, I know your are right.
But you know how hard it is for me
to do as you say.
Help me do just that.
Help me consider not the hurts i suffered,
but the hurt they will suffer in the jail of hell
if they do not stop hurting their neighbor.
Help me be not an instrument of your punishment,
but a channel of your mercy,
a prophet who leads offenders to conversion.
Let my forgiveness of my offenders
be sincere and clad with gentleness --
so sincere that i may wish
and work for their repentance,
so that they and I may be together in heaven
like the BEST of FRIENDS...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:20 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: when I am HURT ::.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
"ber" month na... bilis ng araw!!!
"malamig ang simoy ng hangin... may saya ang bawat damdamin...
ang tibok ng puso sa dibdib... para bang hulog na ng langit...
.....
wala ng kalungkutan... puno ng kasayahan..."
hmmm... "BER" month na!!!
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:14 am
soul searcher here...
"ber" month na... bilis ng araw!!!
Friday, August 26, 2005
.:: love and chocolate ::.
"masarap daw umibig...
may honey, sweetie,
gummybears, cupcake,
sugar at marshmallows pa!
hmmm...
masarap pala!
eh bakit may umiiyak pa?
ahhh...
cguro kc,
sumakit
ngipin nila!!!"
a text message i received last night from a friend while i'm on my way home...
well, after ko mabasa natawa ako at napaisip...
masarap naman talaga ang feeling ng umibig eh...
sometimes it's like eating our favorite chocolate (sounds corny pero totoo...)
hindi natin titigilan ang pagkain nito hanggang hindi natin nauubos pero katulad ng sobrang pagkain ng chocolate meron ito consequence in the end... it's either magsawa na tayo sa chocolate or sumakit ang ipin natin at dahil sa sobrang sakit na naramdaman natin sa pagkain ng chocolate malamang matagalan ulit bago tayo kumain ng favorite chocolate natin...
same goes with love and loving someone...
dadating tayo sa point na may mamahalin tayo na feeling nating "sya na talaga"... at dahil feeling natin na both of you are meant for each other halos ayaw mo na syang mawala sa paningin mo at gusto natin na makasama sya sa lahat ng oras at lahat ng araw... we made them part of our life and sometimes we never notice na sa kanila na umiikot ang mundo natin...
kaya lang tulad nga ng pagkain ng favorite chocolate natin hindi natin namamalayan na meron ding ibang tao sa paligid natin na gusto matikman yung chocolate na kinakain natin or rather gusto tayong bigyan ng ibang klase ng chocolate para matikaman natin... hindi natin napapansin na nababalewala natin sila kasi yung attention natin asa favorite chocolate lang natin...
pero pano nga kung dumating yung point na sumakit na ang ngipin natin because of eating too much of our favorite chocolate or magsawa na tayo at maghanap ng ibang chocolate???
okei lang sana kung magsawa tayo sa favorite chocolate natin kasi ang asa isip natin marami pa naman chocolate na pwede natin i-try tikman, but the problem is... what if wala na magbigay satin ng ibang chocolate kasi nagsawa na sila sa kakahintay na magustuhan natin yung chocolate na willing nilang ibigay???
should we stick to our favorite chocolate kahit nagsasawa na tayo kainin???
but the saddest part i guess is pag dumating yung time na sumakit na ang ngipin natin because of eating too much of it... we have no choice but to suffer for the pain that cause by it... well, kasalanan din naman natin kung bakit masakit d ba? we ate too much and never give some to others... like in love, we gave almost everything without thinking about the others na asa paligid natin... to the point na minsan hindi na natin iniiisip ang pwedeng kahinatnan ng ginagawa natin basta ang alam natin masaya tayo ngayon kasi masarap ang chocolate or rather masarap yung feeling na nararamdaman natin ngayon pero hindi natin naiisip na lahat may katapusan...
kaya ayun masakit na ang ngipin natin dahil sa sobrang pagkain ng chocolate tulad ng sakit na mararamdaman natin pag sobra yung love na binigay natin kasi kahit sa sarili natin wala na tayong tinira... at sa bandang huli iiyak na lang tayo kasi hindi natin alam kung pano ba mawawala yung sakit na nararamdaman natin...
ako mismo minsan ko nang naranasan ang ma-addict sa isang chocolate kasi ang buong akala ko kahit matibay naman ang mga ngipin ko hindi ko mararamdaman na sasakit ito... pero nagkamali ako... dahil kahit na 3x a day pa ako mag-toothbrush para walang cavities na maiwan ang pagkain ko ng favorite chocolate ko...
sumakit pa din ang ngipin ko...
umiyak pa din ako...
at lahat ng cavities na dulot ng pagkain ko ng favorite chocolate ko alam ko na hanggang ngayon and2 pa din sa ngipin ko... pero naisip ko nang pumunta sa dentist ko... magpapalinis ako at papatanggal ko lahat ng cavities na naiwan dun...
hindi pa din ulit ako handang kumain ulit ng chocolate kasi natatakot ako kasi alam ko na pag nakatikim ako ng chocolate na masarap hindi malayong maging favorite ko ulit ito... ganun ako eh... baka sa susunod na sumakit ang ngipin ko hindi na kayanin ng cleaning lang at kailangan pang bunutin ang ngipin ko... ayoko nun kasi ibang klaseng sakit na naman yun...
kaya hanggang candy na lang muna ako ngayon... hehehe
iba't ibang klase ng candy ang titikman ko...
malay ko ba kung hindi lang pala sa chocolate mag-eenjoy ang panlasa ko at andun din sa isa sa mga candy na natikman ko na at matitikman ko pa...
so ano nga ba ano ang lesson???
first, share your chocolate to others... let the chocolate melts into others mouth and not only to yours... it doesn't mean naman na pag ni-share mo sa kanila yung chocolate mo magugustuhan din nila yun... ang mahalaga dun binigyan mo ng pagkakataon ang iba na matikman yung chocolate na nagpapasaya sayo sa tuwing kinakain mo...
second, don't refuse to taste some other chocolate... hindi yung di mo pa nga naitikman eh ayaw mo na kasi gusto mo lang yung favorite mo... who knows may mas masarap pa pala sa chocolate na favorite mo ngayon and yun pala yung chocolate na mag suite talaga sa panlasa mo at nabulag ka lang sa lasa ng favorite chocolate mo...
and last but not the least, let's keep in mind na lahat ng sobra masama... never forget to leave some for others para at least hindi lang ikaw ang sasakit ang ngipin pag nagkataon... may kasama ka na iiyak at pupunta sa dentist para magpa-linis at magpatanggal ng cavities... hehehe (just kidding)
masarap ang chocolate...
masarap magmahal...
but keep in mind that eating too much of it can make our teeth hurt... like loving too much that can make our hearts cry...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:08 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: love and chocolate ::.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
-= what LIFE is all about =-
LIFE isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the colour of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that.
But LIFE is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about TRUST, HAPPINESS, and COMPASSION. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with LOVE. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.
These choices are what life's about. --from Nike Ad
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:38 am
soul searcher here...
-= what LIFE is all about =-
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
just talked to my friend Arlene on the fone and i confess to her that i txted him again but i promise her that i just wanted to let him know what i really feel...
ang bigat nman kasi talaga sa dibdib yung may tinatago akong sama ng loob eh and at the same time i know to myself that i owe him an apologize too for everything that i've said a week ago... and since i know that it's one reason why i do have sleepless nights na naman kaya ayun i made this 10-part long message and sent it to him last night...
"Forgiving is giving hate a piece of empty room in our heart!"
i do hav dat empty room in mine... i just wishd dat i have mine in urs! i thought dat i can live my life now thnkng dat i hate u so much but d more i thnk abt it, d more i can feel this pain inside me! i knw dat SORRY is jst a word and u can only feel d sincerity if u can see it n d eyes of d one hus saying it... bt still, i jst wntd 2 say SORRY for everythng dat i've said... at least d ko man nsabi sayo personally, alam ko sa sarili ko dat i already did wat was d ryt thng 2 do. ang bigat kc sa dibdib ng may sama ng loob at galit n tntago. At ngyon since nsbi ko na, dumating man yung time na mgkta ulit tayo, kya ko ikaw tingnan ng diretso sa mata at hnd ko kailangan umiwas... u're still worth keeping Jet kht na puro pain and tears ang nramdaman ko dhl alam ko na may rason kkng bkt ka dumating sa buhay ko! hbang gngawa ko ito, alam kong isa lang ang dhlan kng bkt ko gngwa ito... dhl mahal pa din kta! naghntay ako at umasa pero ngayon bibitaw na ako sa pangako mo! kng magbago k man masaya na ako kht hnd ko na malaman... hnd ko alam kng hnggang kelan p kta iicpn at mamahalin... basta ang alam ko lang ngyon, ggwin ko ito hndi na para sayo kundi para sa sarili ko... kng anuman yung reason mo kng bkt pinili mo sya at iniwan mo ako, hnd na mahalaga sakin yun! again, SORRY sa mga nasabi ko! and for the last time ssbahin ko ulit sayo ito...
S-H-M-I-L-Y Jet!
can u send my angel back 2 me now? kc i thnk i'll be needing him already knowing na wala kna tlga!"
kaya ayun sabi sakin ng friend ko back to zero na naman daw ako... we're counting the days kasi na hindi ako dapat mag-text or gumawa ng kahit ano para magkaroon kami ng communication... the longest time i did that was 3mos and sabi nya sakin since nakaya ko yun alam nya na mas makakaya ko pa ng mas matagal... i should think about it daw kasi it's for my own sake din naman... well, i know naman na tama sya...
kaya eto start counting and marking my calendar again hanggang sa dumating yung araw na hindi ko na sya maaalala pa...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 04:32 pm
soul searcher here...
back to zero daw ako...
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
.:: a reality check in a relationship ::.
"What a girl needs most is love.
What a guy needs most is respect.
The most important thing for a girl is her heart.
For a guy its his ego."
Give your man his own time and space...
Let him have his time for his friends, sports, family, self, and God. The relationship will grow old quickly if lagi kayong magkasama. Give him time to miss you and you'll see how he will love you more. If the guy naman is obsessed and just wants to be with you all the time, tell him you cant respect a "puppy" for long.
Do things differently anytime...
Discover something you both like to do and enjoy it TWOgether.Doon naman sa mga bagay na magkaiba ang hilig nyo, compliment each other by learning about it. If you love someone, yung effort nyo to try will go a looooong way to understanding him later pag may disagreement kayo.
Pray with holding hands...
Sounds corny noh? Maybe, but its very powerful. Pag may takot sa Diyos ang boyfriend mo, kampante ka na di ka nya lolokohin, because he knows God sees everything he does in secret. Ikaw na ang magkusa that before you part after date, with hold hands and eyes closed, pray to God to bless you two. Believe me it's effective. Kailanman, di corny ang magdasal.
Believe in "Magic"...
Kahit di minsan practical o walang logical na dahilan, o matrabaho, o sounds crazy sa iba, do sweet little things for the one you love kahit magmukha ka ng timang. The memories will be fun to recall later in life. True love brings out the best in each other. Find something good in your boyfriend and nurture it, encourage it and syempre, ENJOY it.
It's healthy to fight...
Doon nyo lang maaayos ang mga differences nyo at natetest ang tatag ng relationship. Doon mo rin sya makikilala ng mabuti. Its called test of fire. Di mahalaga how often you fight. What matters is how often you kiss and make up. Mas nakakatakot yung relasyong sobrang perfect at laging masaya. One big fight and that's it! And diba mas kilig yung malambing na... "uy, bati na tayo..."..but don't overdo it.
Don't sweat the small stuff...
Daraan sa iba't-ibang stages ang love especially pag matagal na kayo. Grow with it. Don't expect him to be like nung una. 'Coz like a student, di na ituturo sa grade 6 yung lessons na pang-grade 2. Change WILL happen... you both will change and your love WILL change too. It's up to you na lang if the change will be for the better or for the worse.
Life is about growth...
Grow with it. When break up comes and it's time to say goodbye, don't doubt the love just because it didn't last. May mga bagay sa buhay na di man nagtatagal, it doesn't mean di na ito totoo. Some good things are just never meant to last forever. Okay lang yon. Bless the parting and move on. Expect tears, sorrow, sleepless nights and pain. Ika nga "it's when you hurt the worse that you love the MOST." Kung di ka willing masaktan, wag ka na lang magmahal.
Life is a balance. And love is both holding on and letting go. Know when to fight for your man and when to let him go. God will guide you kung anong dapat gawin sa kung anong sitwasyon. So dapat mataas ang signal ng langit sa cellfone ng puso mo to know His wisdom.
--got this artik from one of the blogs in the bloggie world... i may not be in a relationship right now but still i can rely into into once i hook into another... i know that in one way or another, all of us will be in this kind of situation and i just want to share this to all of you guys out there... maging single or in a relationship man...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 03:39 pm
soul searcher here...
.:: a reality check in a relationship ::.
Monday, August 22, 2005
.:: a weekend that was ::.
its been a week ko na nararamdaman ang sakit ng katawan ko na ito... di ko na lang pinapansin kasi lam ko na nman na posibleng nabigla lang ulit mga muscles ko dahil sa training... pero grabe di talaga ako pinatulog ng sakit last Saturday evening... buti na lang asa bahay ako...
neways, okei naman ang weekend ko...
gising na ako 5:00am ng Sat again para sa training... i waited for my teammate for almost 15mins kasi sabay ako sa kanya papunta ng CCP... buti na lang din hindi ako masyado nag-row kasi i was already training as a signal (in short tagpag-utos ng gagawin nila... hehehe) nakakatuwa na nakakainis kasi daming beses ako pumalpak sa counting ko... (hello... d naman kasi ganun kadali ang mag-signal... if i were to choose, i'd rather row na lang kesa mag-signal...)
stay din kami sa mabaho at maduming Manila Bay for almost 1.5hours...
sabi nga ng isa sa tema mate ko...
ang rowing ay para sa mga taong gustong gumising ng maaga... para sa maga taong gustong malanghap ang mabahong amoy ng bay, para sa mga taong gustong masigawan at higit sa lahat para sa mga taong gustong sumakit ang katawan... (lalo na pag baguhan ka lang... been there)
after ng training, uwi na ako kasi may appointment pa ako ng 10am sa Robinsons Place-Manila... meet ko kasi yung pinag-orderan ko ng Korean Series na ipapadal ko sa tita ko sa Italy... buti pa yun makakarating na dun... i arrived there early at actually di pa sya bukas at my gosh ang dami na kagad ng tao... kasi naman pala SALE... kaya ayun pagbukas na pagbukas ng mall, nagmamadali ang mga tao... si ako naman nakisabay na din since wala pa sa location yung kausap ko... tingin-tingin at ikot-ikot muna ako... haaayyyy, buti na lang eksakton pera lang ang dala ko at di ko rin dala ang credit card ko... kung nagkataon patay na naman ang budget ko... kaya after ko meet yung kausap ko at makuha yung mga vcd's diretso na ako uwi kesa ma-temp pa ako na bumili kasi may natira pa ako 700 sa wallet ko...
pagdating ko ng dorm, ayos ko lang things ko tapos alis na ulit ako at diretso na ng ofc... i arrived there at exactly 11:55 AM so pwede na ako umalis ng 3:55PM... haaaaayyyy, tagal maghintay ng oras ha tsaka gusto ko na umuwi ng bahay at magpahinga... bigat pa naman ng dala kong bag (2weeks na maduduming damit... hehehe) at exaxtly 3:55PM nga sa swipe machine nag-out na ako... byahe na pauwi ng probinsya... gusto ko man matulog sa bus hindi ko magawa kasi lalaki ang nakatabi ko (mahirap na... hehehe) haaaayyyy, medyo trapik pa sa south super hi-way kaya mag 6PM na ako nakarating ng bahay... sarap ng feeling ng makauwi (ewan ko ba kung bakit masarap sa bahay pero madalang naman ako umuwi dun... ironic no???) kahit basang basa na ng mga laway ng mga bulilit kong pinsan ang pisngi ko s amga kiss nila... wala akong pakialam, kasi ang sarap ng feeling na alam ko na sobrang na-miss nila ako...
kain ako ng dinner... sobrang sarap talaga ng lutong bahay... tinolang native na chicken, ginisang kabute (mushroom) at take note hindi yung asa lata na mushroom ha at tsaka dinuguan... pero sa tinola at ginisang kabute pa lang solve na solve na ako... dami ko na naman nakain
after ko kumain punta ako sa bahay ng lola ko at kumakain na din sila pero may kakaiba dun... may pipino at syempre it's mah favorite kaya kain na naman ako...
after dinner, punta kami ng pinsan ko dun sa isang bahay ng mga pinsan namin na malapit lang kasi may birthday party the following day... may videoke kasi at syempre madaming tao... typical na okasyon sa probinsya... (hindi mo na kailangan magbayad ng makakatulong kasi kusa silang nagdadatingan...) at dun nakita ko din ang mga forever crush... hehehe (hanggang crush lang kasi ako sa kanya kasi lam ko magpinsan kami... hahaha) though sa tuwing magkikita kami at mapapadaan sya sa bahay namin lam ko naman na may lihim din syang pagtingin sakin... (hahaha wish... ) syempre birthday party kaya daming kailangan prepare at tumulong na din kami sa pag-prepare... daming bllopers na nangyari sa preparation hehehe...
10:30PM uwi na kami ng mga mommy ko... pagdating ko ng bahay nanonood pa ng tv sister ko pero di na kaya ng powers ko at sobrang sakit na talaga ng katawan ko kaya natulog na ako...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
7am the next day gising na ako kasi ang iingay na ng mga bata... naglalaro kaya kahit gusto ko pa matulog hindi na din ako makatulog... gumising na lang ako at nakpiaglaro sa kanila... hehehe
after breakfast, prepare na kami para dun sa birthday party ng pinsan ko... sooooobraaaaaang dami ng tao... imagine ba naman na 5baboy na ang kinatay nila nagkulang pa rin kaya nagpahabol at nagkatay pa ulit sila ng isa... my gosh... ibang klase talaga ang handaan sa probinsya... wala ako masabi...
sa sobrang dami ng tao... sobrang init na din kaya naisipan namin na umuwi na lang muna ng bahay mga around 2PM at nood na lang sana kami nung Korean movie na dala ko kaya lang brown-out naman... kainis... natulog na lang ako pero saglit lang din kasi ang init ng panahon... mga after 30mins nagkaroon na ng kuryente kaya ayun tuloy na namin yung panood nung Korean moveis na dala ko... nauna namin pinanood yung "SEAWIND"... okei lang sya hindi ganun kaganda unlike yung sunod na pinanood namin na "A MOMENT TO REMEMBER"... na sa sobrang ganda ng story nya kahit ang tita ko napaiyak... at eto ang isang line dun na hindi ko talaga makalimutan from that movie...
"FORGIVING is giving HATE a piece of empty room in our HEART..."
hindi tuloy ako nakasabay sa pinsan ko ng pagbalik ng Manila dahil tinapos ko sya pero actually ayoko pa naman talaga bumalik ng Manila that time... hehehe
after ng movie, punta ulit kami ng mommy ko dun sa haus ng pinsan ko... at sobrang nagulat ako na gabi na dating at dating pa din ang bisita... my golly gosh talaga... hehehe
ayun, kain na naman sia ako pero desert lang naman habang pinanood ko yung mga nagkakantahan sa videoke... at isa na nga dun yung crush ko... hehehe... buti na lang hindi nya alam na crush ko sya... habang pinapanood ko sila, lumapit sakin yung isang pinsan ko na guy na andun din sa mga nagkakantahan... tagal-tagal ko na din sila hindi nakaka-kwentuhan tulad ng dati na halos palagi kami magkakasama na tumatambay... ngayon kasi sila na lang yun... sabi nga samin (mga forever na tambay sila... hehehe... dun sila masaya eh...) kinumusta nya ako at ang walang kamatayang tanong na
"kelan ka mag-aasawa???"
haaaayyyy, kung pwede ko lang i-taped ang sagot para sa tuwing magtatanong sila eh play ko na lang ang sasabihin ko... sabi ko na lang sa kanya, magahahanap muna ako ng bf bago ako mag-asawa... sabay ngiti na lang sa kanya... tapos sabi nya sakin... "ayan pili ka na sa mga andyan" gusto ko sana ituro sa kanya yung crush ko kaya lang... hehehe
pero natawa ako nung sya mismo ang nagturo sakin sa crush ko... "ayun gusto mo?" sabi nya... kaya lang maysabit pa yan ngayon eh... (aaayyyy, may gf na pala sya...) tapos sabay sagot naman ni crush ng... "pwede naman i-break yun eh..." o di ba sabi ko na nga ba may hidden desire din sya sakin eh... hehehe (sana nga lang pwede kami...) pero puro sulyap na lang ata talaga kami sa isa't isa eh... ng magsawa sila sa pagkanta... kami naman ng mga pinsan ko ang bumanat... kanya-kanya ng pili song na kakantahin pero hindi muna ako kumanta kasi andun pa sya eh... (shy ako sa kanya... hihihi) kaya nung umalis na sila dun lang ako kumanta... tagal din namin nagkantahan at kahit sobrang antok na antok na ako wala akong nagawa kasi hindi maubos-ubos ang number sa screen ng videoke...
exactly 2AM ng makauwi ako ng bahay...
diretso tulog kasi gigising pa ako ng maaga...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
6:00AM an alarm ko pero 5:30 pa lang nagising na ako sa boses ng mga pinsan ko kasi masasaya sila at wala silang pasok... buti pa sila..... waaahhhhhhhhh
samantalang ako...
puyat pero kailangang pumasok...
8:45Am, and2 na ako sa office...
eto inaantok pa din hanggang ngayon...
at buti na lang walang masyadong load at hindi toxic kaya nakakapag-power nap...
haaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy...
gusto ko na umuwi at matulog...
SimpLe ThoughTs by jhenskie posted at exactly 10:24 am
soul searcher here...
.:: a weekend that was ::.
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