as what i've always said: "i'm UNIQUE and ONE of a KIND"...
i know there something in me... that inspite of whatever may happen in my day, i'm going to stay this way: trying and giving LIFE in the BEST WAY i know how...
keeping my spirits up and all things in perspective...
i know it's going to be OKAY...
i've made it thru difficult things before and i always land on my feet... i may not be dancing; may not be always sure about what to do next... but i always manage to figure things out... especially when i'm able to keep my SENSE of HUMOR and not lose my SMILE...
and if i'll just really think about it... i'll realize that i'm a very STRONG individual who knows what i wants and how to get it the best way i can...
someone who may not have all the answers but who is willing to HOPE, TRY and BELIEVE...
that i can see my way thru just about anything; it just all depends on how i look at it... and when people look at me, all they will see is someone who really is... PRETTY AMAZING...
Whether i'm trying to endure or striving to endeavor, i'll just be the kind of person who can handle all kinds of WEATHER...
...SOMEONE whose ARMS will HOLD me when i'm WEAK
...SOMEONE whose EYES will SEE my UGLIEST
...SOMEOME whose HEART will LOVE me at my WORST
...coz when i find that SOMEONE, i know it's TRUE LOVE!
...SOMEONE who could DANCE with ME under the NIGHT SKY even without the MOON and the STARS... even without MUSIC playing... even if that SOMEONE can't dance well... but still dance with ME...
.:: Bcoz of Ur Love ::.
how can I see Your face
and receive Your loving grace
when I am here shamed in sin
hurting You deep within
yet everytime I run and flee
You take me home forgiving me
with the skies I feel Your touch
no other love can be this much
You are there as I hide
with Your arms open wide
for You alone have the greatest love
the world has ever known
a love that never ceases to embrace a weary heart
and give a brand new start
provides light where the sun has never shown
now I can understand
that I am here because of Your love
so I take Your gentle hand
only to sin again
and yet You turn then stubbornly
you take me home, forgiving me
how can love as great as this
even want to exist
oh God of all that's good and true
please believe I love You too
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more
that I am here because...
you are there as I hide with Your arms open wide
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more nothing more
as You take me by the hand
that I am here because of Your love
Lord, You know my heart
And all my desires
And the secret things
I'll never tell Lord,
You know them well
Though I may be young
I see and understand
That at times like sheep we go astray
And things get out of hand
So I promise to be true to YOU
To live my life in purity as unto YOU
Waiting for the day when I hear YOU say
Here is THE ONE I have created
Just for you
Until then, O LORD
I will be content
Knowing that TRUE LOVE will
Will come someday
It will only come from YOU
'Cause I have seen the suffering
That loneliness can cause
When we choose to give our love away
Without a righteous cause
10.01.05 : "i feel all alone" last night me and my friend Arlin watched Dubai... actually biglaan lang kasi yung mga kausap ko na manood ng Transporter 2, nagkaroon ng biglaang lakad kaya ayun... syempre sino pa ba ang hihilahin ko ng friday night... we haven't seen each other for almost 2 weeks na ata pero halos araw araw kami nag-uusap sa phone... kaya ayun ng magkita kami mega chikka ever...
kaya lang something's bothering her...
we both wishes na sana nga hindi kasi syempre maraming pwedeng magbago...
so we just enjoyed the night together...
kaya lang this morning a text message from her makes me "feel alone" again...
it's not that i am not happy for her... kaya lang marami talagang magbabago at hindi maiiwasan... though she kept on telling me na walang magbabago pero i am not really sure...
kailangan ko ng kausap... :sigh:
Lord, please send someody...
10.02.05 : "waiting in vain" bakit waiting in vain???
pardon me guys kung di ko na lang iku-kwento kung bakit eto ang title ko saaraw na ito... meron lang talagang mga situation na minsan i'd rather keep to myself kasi for sure marami na naman mag-tataas ng kilay at magsasabi how stupid am i pag nabasa nila if ever... well, di ko din naman sila masisi if they reacted that way... cguro talagang concern lang sila sakin at sa nararamdaman ko kaya lang minsan ganun talaga eh... okei lang ang masaktan ng paulit-ulit basta naging "masaya" ka naman kahit sa sandaling oras lang... syempre just keep hoping...
keep on hoping that someday...
"i'll get tired waiting..."
10.03.05 : "depression again???" start ng week... wala na naman ako sa sarili ko...
can't eat... can't sleep...
haaaayyyy... inaatake na naman ata ako ng depression...
wag naman sana kasi ayoko na maulit yung nangyari sakin before...
okei naman ako the past few weeks...
sabi ko pa nga "i am loving everything that's happening with my life now" kaya lang minsan di ko talaga maiwasan ang mag-isip ng kung anu-ano...
feeling ko kasi "mag-isa" na naman ako ngayon... :sigh: for a reason na ewan ko ba... haayyyy
di ako makapag-trabaho ng maayos...
10.04.05 : "i love myself more???" sabi ba naman nya sakin kagabi... parang ang "selfish" naman ng dating ko nun... :sigh:
d ko expected na sasabihin nya sakin yun though lam ko di nakakatuwa yung "joke" na ginawa ko sa kanya last night... naiinis lang naman kasi ako sa nangyayari kung bakit ko naisipan na i-text sya ng ganun... lam ko na posibleng seryosohin nya at isipin nya na baka totohanin ko yung mga sinasabi ko sa text... pero hindi ko naman gagawin kasi alam ko na hindi dapat... minsan ko ng ginawa at di ko na uulitin pa... kung nung minsang ginawa ko nasaktan na ako... napaka-stupid ko naman kung gagawin ko ulit the fact na alam ko naman kung ano ang posibleng mangyayari once na gawin ko ulit... tama na yung minsang "magpaka-baba" ako ipamukha sakin na "hindi talaga ako ang mahal nya"... natanggap ko na yun...
pag-uwi ko ng dorm, naabutan ko pa yung soap na "Ikaw ang Lahat sa Akin"
at para ibaling sa iba ang iniisip ko, pinanood ko na lang eto... para akong sinampal sa mukha ng mga dialogue nila...
"kailan daw ba nagiging mali ang magmahal???"
"mali daw ang magmahal pag hindi naaayon ang lahat ng nangyayari... mali daw ang magmahal pag alam mo na may nasasaktang ibang tao... at mali daw ang magmahal pag alam mo na ang taong minamahal mo ay may mahal ng iba..."
shhheeettt...
sabi ko na nga ba eh... dapat di na lang muna ako umuwi...
sa halip na maliwanagan ako... lalo lang ata gumulo ang utak ko...
haaayyy... syempre di na naman ako nakatulog kaya eto...
di pa din ako makapag-trabaho ng maayos...
10.05.05 : "darating pa kaya ang araw na yun???" habang nag-iisip ako ng pwede ko maisulat ngayong araw na ito hindi pa din maalis sa isip ko ang nangyari last Monday night... yung palitan namin ng text messages... haaaaayyyy...
hindi ko alam kung ano ang iisipin ko ngayon... di na naman kasi nagpaparamdam...
"ah, cguro busy lang!?!"
yan na lang ang iniisip ko para kahit papano mawala na yung guilty feeling ko kasi ang iniisip ko ngayon galit sya sakin for what i did... :sigh:
10.06.05 : "watta day?!?" wala ako masulat today...
cguro sa sobrang occupied ng isip ko sa kakaisaip ng mga bagay na hindi ko naman dapat iniisip...
ni hindi ako makapag-trabaho ng maayos...
waaaahhhh... ayoko ng ganito...
Lord, alam ko andyan ka lang... please tell me what to do... please...
10.07.05 : "i saw the sign!!!" i texted him again last night... but still, no reply!!!
sabi ko nga i'd like to think na he's asleep already kaya di nya nabasa yung text ko... ayoko ng ganitong feeling so please... please... please... text me naman kahit blank lang maiintindihan ko na yun...
eto na naman ako at sobrang litong-lito... hindi ko na alam kung ano ang iisipin ko... :sigh:
last Wed nyt as i prayed to HIM, for the second time i asked for a simple sign... it's not that i really do believe in "signs thing"... sabi ko nga minsan i did that kasi para maging malinaw na sakin ang lahat kaya lang parang mas lalo ata ako naguluhan ngayon lalo na ng makita ko yung sign na hiningi ko...
i talked to my friend and somehow medyo nawala ng konti ang pagkalito ko... sabi nya try to ask for another sign... yung something next to impossible...
hmmmm... pwede rin sabi ko
and to end the week...
i will meet my friends tonight to watch a movie sana kaya lang i don't think makakahabol pa ako... the movie was about to start at 7pm pero 7pm na and2 pa ako sa office... emergency meeting pa kasi kami... haaaaaaaayyyy... what a friday night...
sana hindi a lang ako nagising after ng September...
haaaaayyyy Jhen, weirdo ka na naman...
minsan sa buhay kailangan talaga mahaba ang "pisi" ng pasensya otherwise baka hindi mag-laon lahat ng tao kaiinisan ko na...
haaaaaayyy... gusto ko lang magbuhos ng sama ng loob... wala akong ibang way kundi dito...
hindi madaling gumising ng maaga lalo na sa panahon ngayon na masarap talaga ang matulog at magbabad sa kama pero dahil kailangan at wala naman akong choice... kailangan ko pumasok ng maaga...
at exactly 645 am and2 na ako sa office dahil sa isang problem na 3 araw ko na check... sa testing ko naman okei ang lahat pero bakit pag sila na ang nag-process may problema pa din???
ang tanong san ba talaga ang problema???
baka naman kasi sa kanila na kaya hindi namin makita!!!
sa madaling salita pumasok nga ako ng maaga para malaman kung ano talaga ang dahilan ng problema... at nakita ko nga... may problema nga pero ang tanong bakit pa din???
yung sa ibang client naman okei so possible na ang client na ito ang may problema...
inalam ko ang problema na malaki ang possibility na sa client side nga...
pero bakit ganun???
parang lumalabas na ako pa din ang may problema???
tama ba namang sisimangutan ka pa habang ipinapaliwanag mo kung ano ang findings na nakita mo???
posibleng mali at posibleng tama din ang findings ko pero bakit naman ganun ang reaction???
haaaaayyy...
hindi madaling gumising ng maaga at maghanap ng sagot sa isang problema na hindi mo alam kung saan sisimulan...
kailangan talaga sa buhay na ito mahaba ang pasensya...
yun lang po...
pasensya na kayo at sa umagang ito sama pa ng loob ang mababasa nyo dito...
for almost a month i started turning-off my cellphone everytime i go to sleep...
the reason why i did that is "partly" ayoko na maistorbo yung tulog ko kasi a single beep of my fone really awakens me at ang hirap na makatulog ulit once na magising na ako and the reason why i end up feeling "sleepy" every morning...
pero last night hindi ko ginawa...
after texting some of my friends a gudnyt qoutes, i just put my phone in silent mode...
cguro subconciously, there i was waiting for a reply since alam ko na naka-silent mode lang ang phone, ko i checked it almost every minute... (hehehe... weird ko noh???)
hanggang sa makatulog na ako...
around 4am nagising ako for no reason at all...
i grabbed my cellphone and checked if somebody cares to reply in one of my messages...
and oh... there is...
since i have this application on my phone that display the sender's name even before i open my inbox, na-recognized ko kagad kung kanino galing yung message...
at kahit sobrang antok pa ako...
i managed to read the message...
"in times our lives will b much simplr!
ur happy,
im happy
and all d things we will do will make us happy!"
and even reply to it...
"am glad to know that u're happy... have a nice weekend!"
after i replied to the message di na din ako nakatulog ulit...
i was thinking and told myself...
if he's happy already tulad ng sinasabi nya, i guess he no longer needs me...
well, sinungaling ko naman pag sinulat ko dito na okei lang kung hindi na nya ako kailangan kasi masaya na sya at kuntento na sya... pero napaka-selfish ko naman kung iisipin ko na sana hindi sya palagi okei para naalala nya ako... which is ayoko din naman na mangyari kasi all i wanted is for him to be happy...
haaaaaaaayyyyy, weird ko talaga...
all i can do now is to keep all the feelings by myself to make things uncomplicated or even worse... i know deep inside that i cannot do those things that i kept on telling myself just to forget him 'coz for once i don't really want to forget him...
i don't wanna fight this feeling anymore...
why should i???
i still love him... that's the truth...
and i know that he feels the same for me, though it's not the same kind of love that i have for him...
he's happy...
i'm happy...
it may not be the same happiness i felt when i am with him...
but what we have now is enough for me to keep myself in... SILENT MODE...
>> missing the bloggie world so much... it's been a week since my last entry... sobrang toxic kasi ako for the past days learning PHP and VB.Net (kailangan kasi d2 sa office)... for almost a week 10pm na ako nakakauwi ng bahay and no more time for gimiks and to my favorite show PBB(Pinoy Big rother, i miss JB already... hehehe)
and today as i was checking my yahoo mail na paminsan minsan ko na lang magawa (kasi minsan lang may yahoo connection) this message from my inbox got my attention... without any hesitation, i opened and read it... i have no idea who the sender is but it was addressed to me...
Someone Somewhere
Perhaps far, perhaps near
Is made just for me
To share all secrets, to share all sorrows,
To share the happiness, to share tomorrow,
I have a picture in my mind
sometimes I think I have found
Then I think I have to find
She is beautiful, intelligent
She is sweet and innocent
Honest, lovely, true and pure
Of all my pains, she will be cure
If I rise, or I fall
She will be with me
In between no wall
May God help me to reach her
and give her urge to find me
We shall make for both the worlds
A perfect pair SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE
>> after reading it, i can really feel the HOPE from the writer's heart...
wishing and longing for her special someone to share his life with... this poem may not really meant for me ('coz it came in the internet world... ) but it touches my whole being and i really appreciate that somehow it landed in my inbox... knowing that in the other side of the world there is someone whos like me, is looking forward to meet that special somebody really meant to spend my whole life with...
for those people who kept on asking why i don't have a new boyfriend yet and concluded that maybe i am not yet over with my past...
my answer is just a simple smile and saying that maybe GOD is not yet finished "molding the right man" for me...
"i am not in hurry to meet the person whom i'll spend the rest of my life with... just knowing that he's just right there and like me preparing for the right time to come is enough for me to hold on to..."
It's almost 8pm and my stomach is already screaming for food. It's a Saturday night and eating dinner alone isn't exactly an interesting idea. I have to admit that being single and loveless sometimes sucks.
This is one of those moments where I wish I had someone I could just grab to dinner with. Therefore, I have no other choice but to go to my favorite restaurant and have my fill. After ordering my favorite Caesar's Salad and Chicken Alexander, I noticed an old couple who just came in. They are dressed rather formally as if this ordinary Saturday night calls for such. Though quite thin, the old man still has that stature full of male aura as if he is 40 years younger. He has his right arm wrapped naturally around the shoulder of his wife.
The old woman may have lost the glamour and beauty she once had in her younger years, but she has that smile on her face I could never forget. This is the actual scene as I first saw them. As if destined for me to meet this old couple, the restaurant happens to be full at that time, and being alone, they came directly to my table and asked if they could share it with me. But of course!
This is better than being alone. I just wish these two are still coherent and I wouldn't have to put up with stories of the World War 2 and how they undyingly waited for each other. Gosh! I didn't want to have a scrappy love story s my side dish!
So I sat there silently pretending to be texting. I never had the chance to be close with my grandma and grandpa so I am not so comfortable with the oldies. They started talking about some guy named Jake. He is probably their son who's going to pick them up later. They immediately gave their orders, making side comments about the food and giggling over some silly joke they only understand. How very natural for both of them to be still enjoying each other's company. I sat there envying their exchange.
The old woman talked to me first. Being the woman that she is, she probably read my mind. She said "I am 68 years old and 40years ago, I was also having dinner alone when I realized that I would be happier living the rest of my life with somebody I love". And when she said that, she held the hand of her husband. It was one very unusually striking sentence to have said to a stranger as if she knew me and why I am lone. After some introductions on names, work and family, we have serious discussions about politics and economy. I thought I had some safe topics a hand when suddenly the old man asked me..
"How could a smart and beautiful woman like you be eating alone on a Saturday night?".
Bummer. I am asking the same question myself. Therefore, I get to tell them about my first love gone astray; how unfaithfulness ruined my three-year relationship and how I have never fallen in love again.
Then the old couple told me their story:
OLD MAN: Today is our 40th year wedding anniversary. We were married when we were 28. She wasn't my first love nor I hers. When I fell in love with her, she was still hook up with her first love then. I taught her to bury her past. I made her realized that she has to risk loving again or end up being imprisoned by the wrong notion that true love does not exist. Mr. Right isn't just going to pop up and save her from her distress. She also has to open her eyes to find him and be happy again. I knew that I am her Mr. Right. We led a happy marriage. Even after the first taste of passionate years ebbed, we still enjoyed each other's company, as we remained good friends. But like any other marriages, ours is also not a bed of roses. A highly principled man that I thought I was, I have to admit that I became unfaithful too and bore a son with another woman. The mother happens to be my first love.
It broke my heart as I stared into her eyes and her first teardrops fell when I told her about my son, Jake. I wanted her to scream at me, hit me, and be angry. She just cried and cried. The following morning, she left me with our daughter. It was the end of the world for me...
OLD WOMAN: 40 years ago, I made a decision never to fall in love again. Like you in my teens and early twenties, I once love and lost. We were a perfect couple then. Until I lost my first love to another woman. The excruciating pain of lost love and the reality of betrayal has wounded me deeply. I vowed never to fall in love again. Then my husband came and offered his undying friendship. Yes! We were very good friends first before we became lovers. I prayed to God so He will give me a sign if he is the right man for me. It was a less-than-a-year-romance and we decided to marry. He taught my heart well... well enough to make me whole and find real happiness that true love brings. I finally found my Mr. Right. However, life is not a fairy tale and I have to endure another episode of broken heart. I thought true love is a force field deflecting threats. But maybe his love is not enough to keep his sanctified vow. After 12 years of marriage, I walked out of his life.
Wow! This was only halfway of their story. It was so touching and heartbreaking... but during the whole time that they were talking, they kidded with each other, teased each other with their first love and even pretended to fight. I thought, the story they just shared has made a lasting impression on each of their lives and made their relationship what it is now. I can tell that they have been to worst times indeed, as they came out scarred but beautiful persons. I wanted to go home and cry. I now wish to grow old with someone I love after all.
We were now eating our desserts. I love the chocolate mousse! Hehehe! So dying to hear the rest of their story... I asked them how they reconciled-
"We never did." Said the old man.
I was speechless.
The old man continued... "When I heard that my wife got back from the states after 28 years, I went to see her this morning. An old man saying these things my sound so "corny" but I told her exactly these:
I spent 28 years of my existence without a life because she is my life. And even when she left me and never took me back, she still owns my heart until the day that I will die. Yes, I have been unfaithful because of my lustful desires. But the loyalty of my true love is solely for her. And though I can never undo the mistake I have done, I could not force myself to disengage my love for her. This, I know is true love. Only true love can survive such death that I feel for 28 years when she was not with me by my side.
Today/tonight, I feel alive because she is with me. I am so happy when I saw her still wearing our wedding ring as a pendant in her necklace. This is the first time we have dinner together after she left me. And you are here to witness it.
The old woman simply said,
"I love him too much to be with him again because if I lost him for the 2nd time, I would not be able to bear it. For 28 years, I wondered if he married again or not after our annulment granted. I never asked our daughter. They never talked to me about him. This morning, I do remember it is our anniversary. But I never expected to see him or even talked to him. I saw that he is still wearing our wedding ring.
Oh, the old woman's heart jumped!
We chatted with each other the whole day as we used to do in our younger years. We laughed a lot. We teased each other. We talked about the good times and the odd and how ugly we became. Age may have taken away our physical attributes but it cannot steal away the feelings we have for each other.
"Did we regret the past 28 years? We will not be talking about regrets. Today, we are what we are because of our choices. We cannot change what happened. But we can always change now and tomorrow..."
And so before we left after 2 hours at Blueberry's, they confidently told me these:
Do call us when you decide to marry and we will be there to celebrate it with you. Love will find you because your eyes seek for it. Love will stay with you because your heart willing to give it away.
Choose well and be happy!
What a Saturday night! I came home lighthearted with a new hope. Love will always find a way...
>>>>> another heart warming story from the bloggie world...
being in the single scene for almost a year and half, sobrang naka-relate ako sa story...
ilang beses na ba ako kumain ng lunch at dinner ng mag-isa??? di ko na ata matandaan... even watching movies pag walang gimik ng friday night maraming beses ko din ginawa... staying in the mall and window shopping na mag-isa para lang magpalipas ng oras at hindi maging idle ang isip eh ginagawa ko din minsan...
i'm not saying that i didn't enjoy those times that i am all alone doing all those things... (only me, myself and i... it's just that sometimes i can't deny to myself na iba pa rin talaga ang feeling na may kasama ako gawin and mga bagay that i enjoyed doing...
pero sabi nga di ba... it's not how long you wait lalo na kung it's worth the wait naman...
madaming beses na akong nagmadali sa mga bagay na gusto ko mangyari sa buhay ko... minsan hindi ko na naiisip na baka may mas magandang plans talaga for me kasi ginagawa ko lang ang mga bagay na maisipan ko... pero still wala naman akong regrets (tulad ng palagi ko sinasabi...) 'coz in one way or another may natutuhan naman ako sa lahat ng nangyari sakin...
and i just wanted to share also this qoute to all my single friends/readers out there who in one way or another is searching for their one true love:
"You have searched for true love in your way. But MY ways are not your ways. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must trust ME with the pen of this precious area of your life. Will you let ME write your love story?" - taken from the book "When GOD Writes your Love Story"
i'm not yet finish reading this book and while reading it, i even asked myself, "am i ready to let HIM do it for me???" and as i open every single pages of this book my heart and mind has been opened also and my views about life and love changes too...
still, there are some questions left unanswered but i should not hold on to those unanswered one but have to accept the fact that maybe those questions should be left that way...
GOD has good plans for you and me...
for all of us...
all we need to do is to let HIM in and trust HIM with all our heart...
here's another one:
"Sometimes when we are in a relationship, we get so completely caught up in our feelings and senses that we squeeze God way into the background. Then, the whole thing becomes a confusing mess. At this point, we may wonder why God is not giving us more direction, but He is always there, just pushed back by us. He is just waiting to be allowed back into first place so we will be able to HEAR what He is saying to us and how he is directing our lives. Only when he is in first place are we ready for a God-written love story. Think about it. When you take God out of the center of your very own world, everything sweet, tender, pure and amazing is sure to follow quickly."
LORD, lam ko pong alam mo na yung reason ko kung bakit para sa IYO ito...
YOU really deserve this entry...
just like those times na tumatawag ako sayo pag hindi ko na kaya ang lahat...
For all those times na kailangan KITA, hindi mo ako binigo at iniwan...
Forgive me for all those times na nakikita MO na nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa... for those times na gusto ko na bumigay and those times na nakakalimutan ko IKAW kasi masaya ako...
and today YOU did it again... ibang klase talaga pag IKAW ang kumilos...
speechless na po ako... hindi ko alam kung panong way ko mapaparating sayo yung THANK YOU na gusto ko iparating... lam ko naman po na ginagawa ko pa lang ito, alam mo na kung ano ang gusto ko sabihin...
i just wanted to post this song by Gary V... lam ko kasi na bagay sakin ito eh... :-)
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Take Me Out Of The Dark
Just what is it in me? sometimes I just don't know
what keeps me in your love, why you never let me go
And though you're in me now, I fall and hurt you still
My Lord please show me how to know just how you feel
You have forgiven me too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call a worthy Christian after all
And though I love you so temptations finds it's way to me
Teach me to trust in You with all of my heart
to lean not on my own understanding
coz' I just forget, You won't give me what i can't bear
Take me out of the dark My Lord I don't want to be there,ooh,hah
You never left my side You gave Your hand to me
to hold You,oh Jesus... I'm no longer in the cold
And yet I leave You there when I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You everyday not only when I feel that way
I've never known a man who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet because He loves us so He promised us eternity
And we can have His promise and be His if we have faith and just believe..
Teach us to trust in You with all our heart
to lean not on our own understanding
cause we just forget You won't give us what we can't bear
Take us out of the dark our Lord We don't want to be there
Yeah, My Lord
Teach me to trust in You with all of my heart
to lean not on my own understanding
'cause I just forget You might give me what I can't bear
Take me out of the dark My Lord i don't want to be alone
You take me out of the dark My lord
i don't want to be there, ooh,ooh...hah...
Lord Jesus, how difficult for me
to treat with forgiving love
those who have offended me!
Vengeulness rages in my heart, and
in my thirst for getting even, I dare call "justice"
what is only bitter revenge.
But you tell me: "Relent! Forgive!
Correct your eering brother or sister
with patient love.
Remember the times when you hurt other people,
and your deep yearning to be forgiven.
Remember my command that you treat others
the way you would like to be treated."
Lord, I know your are right.
But you know how hard it is for me
to do as you say.
Help me do just that.
Help me consider not the hurts i suffered,
but the hurt they will suffer in the jail of hell
if they do not stop hurting their neighbor.
Help me be not an instrument of your punishment,
but a channel of your mercy,
a prophet who leads offenders to conversion.
Let my forgiveness of my offenders
be sincere and clad with gentleness --
so sincere that i may wish
and work for their repentance,
so that they and I may be together in heaven
like the BEST of FRIENDS...
"malamig ang simoy ng hangin... may saya ang bawat damdamin...
ang tibok ng puso sa dibdib... para bang hulog na ng langit...
.....
wala ng kalungkutan... puno ng kasayahan..."
hmmm... "BER" month na!!!
ang ibig sabihin malapit na naman ang Pasko...
at sabi nga sa kanta, malamig na naman ang simoy ng hangin at syempre eto ang panahon na masarap ang matulog at nakakatamad ang bumangon sa umaga... (lalo na kung may katabi at kayakap ka sa pagtulog...)
sana lang totoo din ang sabi sa kanta na sa tuwing sasapit ang panahon ng Pasko masaya ang lahat ng tao... kaya lang mukhang sa kanta lang yun eh... *sigh
sa kabilang banda...
bakit ba parang ang bilis-bilis ng araw???
parang kelan lang pumasok ang year 2005 tapos ngayon matatapos na ulit...
hindi ko nga maalala kung meron ba akong nagawa kahit isa man lang sa mga new years resolution ko... hehehe
hmmm... sana lang kaya ko sabayan ang bilis nito... hehehe
wish ko lang na sana sa paglipas ng bawat araw isa-isa kong nakakalimutan ang lahat ng mga bagay na dapat ko ng kalimutan...
hahaha... senti mode na naman ba ako???
hindi no!!!
sabi nga mga friends ko "blooming" daw ako dis past few days eh... (palakpak naman ang tenga ko at di matawaran ang ngiti... hehehe)
hmmm, marunong lang talaga ako magdala pero dami ko rin kaya problema... *sigh
wala lang ako magawa kaya eto kahit walang sense ang pumapasok sa isip ko sa mga oras na ito... sinusulat ko pa din...
sumasakit na kasi ang ulo ko sa kaka-aral ng PHP... haaaayyyyyy
wala na akong maisip na mailagay pa...
sabay-sabay na lang nating hintayin ang pagsapit ng Pasko...
Merry Christmas in Advance na lang sa lahat... hehehe
SimpLe ThoughTs by 
:sigh: 
