as what i've always said: "i'm UNIQUE and ONE of a KIND"...
i know there something in me... that inspite of whatever may happen in my day, i'm going to stay this way: trying and giving LIFE in the BEST WAY i know how...
keeping my spirits up and all things in perspective...
i know it's going to be OKAY...
i've made it thru difficult things before and i always land on my feet... i may not be dancing; may not be always sure about what to do next... but i always manage to figure things out... especially when i'm able to keep my SENSE of HUMOR and not lose my SMILE...
and if i'll just really think about it... i'll realize that i'm a very STRONG individual who knows what i wants and how to get it the best way i can...
someone who may not have all the answers but who is willing to HOPE, TRY and BELIEVE...
that i can see my way thru just about anything; it just all depends on how i look at it... and when people look at me, all they will see is someone who really is... PRETTY AMAZING...
Whether i'm trying to endure or striving to endeavor, i'll just be the kind of person who can handle all kinds of WEATHER...
...SOMEONE whose ARMS will HOLD me when i'm WEAK
...SOMEONE whose EYES will SEE my UGLIEST
...SOMEOME whose HEART will LOVE me at my WORST
...coz when i find that SOMEONE, i know it's TRUE LOVE!
...SOMEONE who could DANCE with ME under the NIGHT SKY even without the MOON and the STARS... even without MUSIC playing... even if that SOMEONE can't dance well... but still dance with ME...
.:: Bcoz of Ur Love ::.
how can I see Your face
and receive Your loving grace
when I am here shamed in sin
hurting You deep within
yet everytime I run and flee
You take me home forgiving me
with the skies I feel Your touch
no other love can be this much
You are there as I hide
with Your arms open wide
for You alone have the greatest love
the world has ever known
a love that never ceases to embrace a weary heart
and give a brand new start
provides light where the sun has never shown
now I can understand
that I am here because of Your love
so I take Your gentle hand
only to sin again
and yet You turn then stubbornly
you take me home, forgiving me
how can love as great as this
even want to exist
oh God of all that's good and true
please believe I love You too
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more
that I am here because...
you are there as I hide with Your arms open wide
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more nothing more
as You take me by the hand
that I am here because of Your love
Letting go... isn't to forget...
it isn't to think about or ignore...
it doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret...
it isn't winning and it isn't losing...
it isn't about pride and its not about how i appear...
it isn't about obsessing or dwelling on the past...
it isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts...
it doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness...
it isn't giving in or giving up...
it isn't about loss and it's not defeat.
Letting go...
is to cherish memories and to overcome and move on...
it is having an open mind and confidence in the future...
it is accepting...
it is learning and experiencing and growing...
it is to be thankful for the experiences that made me laugh, made me cry
and made me grow...
it is about all that i have, all that i had and all that i will soon gain...
it is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving...
it is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy...
Letting go...
is to open a door, to clear a path and to SET MYSELF FREE...
that's why GIVING UP should not be an issue...
'coz in the first place i don't need to give up...
"...he learned the most important part of the language that all the world spoke-the language that everyone on earth was capable of understanding in their heart. It was LOVE. Something older than humanity, more ancient than the desert. Something that exerted the same force whenever two pairs of eyes met, as had theirs here at the well. She smiled, and that was certainly an omen-the omen he head been awaiting, without even knowing he was for all of his life." -Paulo Coehlo
>> another inspiring story from the bloggie world... just wanted to share it to you guys out there... enjoy reading
A ninety-one year old woman died after living a long dignified life.When she met GOD she asked him something that had long bothered her:
If Man was created in God's image, and if all men are created equal, why do people treat each other so badly?
God replied that EACH PERSON WHO ENTERS OUR LIFE HAS A UNIQUE LESSON TO TEACH US. And it is only through these lessons that we learn about life, people, relationships and God. This confused the woman, so God began to explain:
WHEN SOMEONE LIES TO YOU, it teaches you that things are not always as they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know their heart. And remove your own masks to let people know yours.
WHEN SOMEONE STEALS FROM YOU, it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have, for you never know when you might lose it. And never, ever take your friends and family for granted because today is the only guarantee you have.
WHEN SOMEONE INFLICTS AN INJURY UPON YOU, it teaches you that the human state is a fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best you can, it's the only thing you are sure to have forever.
WHEN SOMEONE MOCKS YOU, it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, don't judge them by how they look or act; instead base your opinion on the contents of their heart.
WHEN SOMEONE BREAKS YOUR HEART, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that person will love you back. But don't turn your back on love because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings will make up for all the past hurts put together. A hundredfold!
WHEN SOMEONE HOLDS A GRUDGE AGAINST YOU, it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is the most difficult and courageous thing Man can do.
WHEN A LOVED ONE IS UNFAITHFUL TO YOU, it teaches you that resisting temptation is Man's greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptation. By doing so you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.
WHEN SOMEONE CHEATS ON YOU, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about our success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.
WHEN SOMEONE RIDICULES YOU, it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.
Upon hearing the Lord's wisdom, the old woman became concerned that there were no lessons to be learned from Man's good deeds.
God replied that Man's capacity to love is the greatest gift he has. At the root all kindness is love, and EACH ACT OF LOVE ALSO TEACHES US A LESSON.
The woman's curiosity deepening, God once again began to explain:
WHEN SOMEONE LOVES US, it teaches us that love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness and acceptance can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one less evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.
When you enter someone's life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, CONSIDER THAT YOUR LESSON WILL BE.
Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality?
When you die will your life have resulted in more loving or hurting?
More comfort or pain?
More joy or sadness?
Each one of us has power over the balance of love in the world. Use it wisely. Don't miss an opportunity to nudge the world's scale in the right direction.
"A man can't stop people from having a bad opinion about him but he can stop them from being right"
in the movie Truth About Love, it says that "MEN like YOU doesn't change!"
but i believe there's always an exception...
i still do have faith in YOU... i know that ONE DAY i will see YOU trully HAPPY and CONTENT with whoever you are with and whatever you have...
"The most painful thing aside from being brokenhearted is waiting for something that we never know if it would happen again…" :sigh:
Oh my... Please tell me something I don’t know yet.
They say that the solution is so easy: to be stupid for not having thought of it…
Don’t wait...
then...
Maybe, the hurting will stop.
Along with every feeling left with us.
When we became numb and unfeeling, but at least there’d be no pain. When we have the choice to be happy or not be happy, it would be a good advice to chose the former,
but why is it despite our being rational, we still choose to be miserable???
why can’t we just say to ourselves to STOP!?!
'Coz f**k it’s hurting us so badly.
Why do we chose to linger?
Is it because we’re still hoping that maybe, it’ll come back, and when it does, we just have to be there so it wud know that we have waited & it’ll never leave us again…?
But if we want it back s0oooooo... soooo bad, why aren’t we doing something about it?
why wait, when we can just ask them upfront if it wants to be back or if they don’t want to...
then just say goodbye, and leave...
then try to forget.
Because remembering just makes it all the more harder. It was never true when one has said that it will fight for your love. One can only do so much.
In War, there has to be this silent agreement that the certain something that is being fought over is on our side for us to have a need to win it back, because if it’s already happy on the other side, what’s the point in having it back. So as much as we would’ve want to fight for it, it’s giving us no choice but to let loose, because sadly, it doesn’t need us anymore.
In short, it doesn’t want to be claimed.
No one said loving is easy.
And ‘til it find us once again, the pain never goes away.
I guess i just need to meet another person that will bring it back.
And maybe, just maybe…
When that time comes, it would finally choose to stay.
Once upon a time, there are two individuals named Nobody and Stranger. The two became friends then good friends until they became special friends. They enjoyed the company of each other. They talked, they e-mailed and text each other until one day, they woke up and realized that both of them is falling for each other. The feeling is mutual but there’s a big problem.
Both of them we’re committed.
Nobody and Stranger has an angel named Angel. Their angel is so nice to them. Angel serves as a guardian, a mentor, a friend and a sister. Angel reminds them for what is right and what is wrong.
The two friends tried to ignore their feelings but it was hard for them. Then they made an agreement. They promised each other that no matter what happen they will not let their feelings turn into sin. They also promised that no matter what happen, they will never leave each other. They agreed that because they can’t be together as couples, they will be the best of friends. They promised each other that the will of the Lord will be done. They also promised each other that if Gods will and both of them are free, they will look and search in order to find each other. They shared their secrets. They are so happy but no one understand them. Everybody wants them to be apart. Because of this, they betrothed that if they can’t be the best of friends here in earth, they will be the best of friends in heaven.
Because no one understand them...
Nobody left Stranger...
The later was buried in suspense.
Nobody left without any goodbyes.
When they see each other, they look like strangers. They don’t smile, they don’t talk they don’t even stare each other. Stranger was deeply wounded and always cried because of what happened.
One day, Angel talked with them. Angel told them to apologize to each other. Nobody and Stranger cried because of what happened to them. They both know that they don’t intend to hurt each other but because of too many consequences, both of them was wounded. They’re both thankful to Angel, because after they talked, they had forgiven each other.
Though they are not the Best of Friends, they are now happy. There is no pain in their hearts anymore.
Now...
They are not ENEMIES but they are not also FRIENDS....
Fin.
>> nakakalungkot isipin na nangyayari talaga ang ganitong story sa reality... na kung saan we met somebody... you became friends but then at one point or another both of you felt more than a friend for each other. i guess it's just a proof that here on earth, there is really no "fairy-tale" wherein two people will be together "forever and live happily ever after"...
may mga times kasi na we have to decide if kung ano talaga ang dapat kasi yun ang tama at hindi kung ano lang yung gusto nating mangyari... hindi lang naman kasi kayong dalawa ng tao sa mundo... pwedeng hindi nyo namamalayan na minsan kahit masaya kayo... may mga taong nasasaktan sa ginagawa nyo...
how can you really say that you are really happy when in fact there are people who in one way or another get hurt because of what the two of you are doing...
well, sabi ko nga sa mga past entries ko... realization is always there...
at ngayon isa lang ulit ang na-realize ko...
TRUE HAPPINESS is being HAPPY without HURTING SOMEBODY...
>> i just wished we can talk for the last time... but i will understand if this "last time" will take a longer time...
Lord, You know my heart
And all my desires
And the secret things
I'll never tell Lord,
You know them well
Though I may be young
I see and understand
That at times like sheep we go astray
And things get out of hand
So I promise to be true to YOU
To live my life in purity as unto YOU
Waiting for the day when I hear YOU say
Here is THE ONE I have created
Just for you
Until then, O LORD
I will be content
Knowing that TRUE LOVE will
Will come someday
It will only come from YOU
'Cause I have seen the suffering
That loneliness can cause
When we choose to give our love away
Without a righteous cause
10.01.05 : "i feel all alone" last night me and my friend Arlin watched Dubai... actually biglaan lang kasi yung mga kausap ko na manood ng Transporter 2, nagkaroon ng biglaang lakad kaya ayun... syempre sino pa ba ang hihilahin ko ng friday night... we haven't seen each other for almost 2 weeks na ata pero halos araw araw kami nag-uusap sa phone... kaya ayun ng magkita kami mega chikka ever...
kaya lang something's bothering her...
we both wishes na sana nga hindi kasi syempre maraming pwedeng magbago...
so we just enjoyed the night together...
kaya lang this morning a text message from her makes me "feel alone" again...
it's not that i am not happy for her... kaya lang marami talagang magbabago at hindi maiiwasan... though she kept on telling me na walang magbabago pero i am not really sure...
kailangan ko ng kausap... :sigh:
Lord, please send someody...
10.02.05 : "waiting in vain" bakit waiting in vain???
pardon me guys kung di ko na lang iku-kwento kung bakit eto ang title ko saaraw na ito... meron lang talagang mga situation na minsan i'd rather keep to myself kasi for sure marami na naman mag-tataas ng kilay at magsasabi how stupid am i pag nabasa nila if ever... well, di ko din naman sila masisi if they reacted that way... cguro talagang concern lang sila sakin at sa nararamdaman ko kaya lang minsan ganun talaga eh... okei lang ang masaktan ng paulit-ulit basta naging "masaya" ka naman kahit sa sandaling oras lang... syempre just keep hoping...
keep on hoping that someday...
"i'll get tired waiting..."
10.03.05 : "depression again???" start ng week... wala na naman ako sa sarili ko...
can't eat... can't sleep...
haaaayyyy... inaatake na naman ata ako ng depression...
wag naman sana kasi ayoko na maulit yung nangyari sakin before...
okei naman ako the past few weeks...
sabi ko pa nga "i am loving everything that's happening with my life now" kaya lang minsan di ko talaga maiwasan ang mag-isip ng kung anu-ano...
feeling ko kasi "mag-isa" na naman ako ngayon... :sigh: for a reason na ewan ko ba... haayyyy
di ako makapag-trabaho ng maayos...
10.04.05 : "i love myself more???" sabi ba naman nya sakin kagabi... parang ang "selfish" naman ng dating ko nun... :sigh:
d ko expected na sasabihin nya sakin yun though lam ko di nakakatuwa yung "joke" na ginawa ko sa kanya last night... naiinis lang naman kasi ako sa nangyayari kung bakit ko naisipan na i-text sya ng ganun... lam ko na posibleng seryosohin nya at isipin nya na baka totohanin ko yung mga sinasabi ko sa text... pero hindi ko naman gagawin kasi alam ko na hindi dapat... minsan ko ng ginawa at di ko na uulitin pa... kung nung minsang ginawa ko nasaktan na ako... napaka-stupid ko naman kung gagawin ko ulit the fact na alam ko naman kung ano ang posibleng mangyayari once na gawin ko ulit... tama na yung minsang "magpaka-baba" ako ipamukha sakin na "hindi talaga ako ang mahal nya"... natanggap ko na yun...
pag-uwi ko ng dorm, naabutan ko pa yung soap na "Ikaw ang Lahat sa Akin"
at para ibaling sa iba ang iniisip ko, pinanood ko na lang eto... para akong sinampal sa mukha ng mga dialogue nila...
"kailan daw ba nagiging mali ang magmahal???"
"mali daw ang magmahal pag hindi naaayon ang lahat ng nangyayari... mali daw ang magmahal pag alam mo na may nasasaktang ibang tao... at mali daw ang magmahal pag alam mo na ang taong minamahal mo ay may mahal ng iba..."
shhheeettt...
sabi ko na nga ba eh... dapat di na lang muna ako umuwi...
sa halip na maliwanagan ako... lalo lang ata gumulo ang utak ko...
haaayyy... syempre di na naman ako nakatulog kaya eto...
di pa din ako makapag-trabaho ng maayos...
10.05.05 : "darating pa kaya ang araw na yun???" habang nag-iisip ako ng pwede ko maisulat ngayong araw na ito hindi pa din maalis sa isip ko ang nangyari last Monday night... yung palitan namin ng text messages... haaaaayyyy...
hindi ko alam kung ano ang iisipin ko ngayon... di na naman kasi nagpaparamdam...
"ah, cguro busy lang!?!"
yan na lang ang iniisip ko para kahit papano mawala na yung guilty feeling ko kasi ang iniisip ko ngayon galit sya sakin for what i did... :sigh:
10.06.05 : "watta day?!?" wala ako masulat today...
cguro sa sobrang occupied ng isip ko sa kakaisaip ng mga bagay na hindi ko naman dapat iniisip...
ni hindi ako makapag-trabaho ng maayos...
waaaahhhh... ayoko ng ganito...
Lord, alam ko andyan ka lang... please tell me what to do... please...
10.07.05 : "i saw the sign!!!" i texted him again last night... but still, no reply!!!
sabi ko nga i'd like to think na he's asleep already kaya di nya nabasa yung text ko... ayoko ng ganitong feeling so please... please... please... text me naman kahit blank lang maiintindihan ko na yun...
eto na naman ako at sobrang litong-lito... hindi ko na alam kung ano ang iisipin ko... :sigh:
last Wed nyt as i prayed to HIM, for the second time i asked for a simple sign... it's not that i really do believe in "signs thing"... sabi ko nga minsan i did that kasi para maging malinaw na sakin ang lahat kaya lang parang mas lalo ata ako naguluhan ngayon lalo na ng makita ko yung sign na hiningi ko...
i talked to my friend and somehow medyo nawala ng konti ang pagkalito ko... sabi nya try to ask for another sign... yung something next to impossible...
hmmmm... pwede rin sabi ko
and to end the week...
i will meet my friends tonight to watch a movie sana kaya lang i don't think makakahabol pa ako... the movie was about to start at 7pm pero 7pm na and2 pa ako sa office... emergency meeting pa kasi kami... haaaaaaaayyyy... what a friday night...
sana hindi a lang ako nagising after ng September...
haaaaayyyy Jhen, weirdo ka na naman...
SimpLe ThoughTs by 
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